I can't go on like this

I don't know who I am anymore

Everything happened so fast.

It's what I wanted but, I'm not happy.

He got to me first.

Edward would be crushed

But I have to figure this out

On my own.

I'll be back for him

We do have a lifetime ahead

But at this moment I have to do this

Before someone i love gets hurt.

This is my new life

Edward and I are finally equal

I am a vampire; by force and hate

But I'm not the same Bella anymore.