Hey, this is a new fic im starting, basically a fanfic i read started with this poem and it really touched me, so basically for the first like 5 chapters it will be at the beginning, but please notice the poem will change slightly and i really reccomend you read the changes. The first 5 chapters or so are about Bella's life and family growing up and then it will start with the main story, so u may want to wait til i start the main story before reading but this is an idea that cmae to me and i really wanted to do it so please read and review because i love comments :D Also for these first 5 chapter they may sem pretty short but they will become longer when the main plot of the story starts.

You may find this story upsetting and also i dont understnad the rating so if anyone believes it should be a higher or lower rating please tell me and i can try change it :D

Disclaimer: i do not own the tiwlight characters, but i do own Sammy, Hannah and Kristy

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My name is Bella
I am 3,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy

Would still want to hug me.
I can't do a wrong
I can't speak at all

Or else I'm locked up
All day long.
When I'm awake I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home

When my mommy does come home
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe ill just get
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car.
My daddy is back.
From Bobby's bar.
I hear him curse.
My name is called
I press myself

Against the wall
I try to hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault
He suffers at work
He slaps and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free

And run to the door
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,

And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken,
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much to late
His face has been twisted
Into a unimaginable shape
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
O please God, have mercy!
O please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor

Hi, im Bella and im 3 years old. My sister, Hannah, says im a big girl now, im awfully proud, but my mummy and daddy don't think it's good, they say it's stupid that I act like I do. They hit me for sucking my thumb and lock me in my room for saying im grown up. I don't know what I've done wrong, they call me names I don't even know the meaning of and they say im fat and ugly. My sister says different and I know that if Kristy and Sammy were here they would say the same. Kristy was my older sister. She had long curly hair of the colour light brown, and her eyes a nice brown colour always wide and alert. She had perfect skin, I used to smooth it and it was so soft and her lips were a nice shade of red, she was happy. She made me smile. My mummy and daddy beat her but she was still happy and like another mummy to me. She was 11 when my dad attacked me and Hannah, Kristy stood up in front of us to protect us and my dad killed her right in front of out eyes. This wasn't long ago; a few weeks maybe, I remember it clearly. I was in my bed, wood was coming apart and I had my Hannah one side of me and my Sammy on the other. I clung onto Sammy for dear life when I heard my dad come upstairs, he was in a bad bad mood and I knew that Sammy would protect me but instead Kristy came after dad and she died and Sammy hasn't been seen since. So now it's just 3 year old me and 6 year old Hannah. Hannah is allowed to go to school and learn, but im not I have to stay home instead of going to nursery like other kids. Im a little slave as my mummy and daddy call me, I get up by their shouting at 5am and I don't go to my bed until 10pm which is hours after my Hannah. I get beaten when I do things wrong, names called, just random beatings and the other day my daddy kissed my night night but it was along kiss and it hurt. I don't know if that was right or not and im scared to ask. So my life goes on and on, beats and scary kisses without my Kristy and Sammy but with my Hannah, I wonder how long it will be until Hannah will leave as well. I hope Hannah doesn't leave me as well; I couldn't cope with out Hannah. Hannah looks different than me and Kristy. She has straight hair and its blond but also brownie and she has a lighter shade of brown eyes, I think it's because she's not my real sister. I think Kristy told me that it's because my mummy has been married before and had my Hannah. I call her my Hannah because she's is mine, she's the only thing I have left and I don't want that to change. Also I had Sammy. Sammy was my bear and I don't know where she has gone. She was a nice colour brown and had a bow which I used to call the happy bow, when I pressed the bow she would start to make me happy. She used to smile and wave at me and comfort me, whilst I held her, when was being beaten or I was scared. But now I don't know where she's gone and I've only got my Hannah now. All I can hope is that I don't turn out like Kristy; I want to live my life how I want to, if only mummy and daddy would let me.

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ok so please review and everything :D

Also the pictures of the 3 girls and the teddy are going to be put on my profile so you can see how i imagine them

much love

kerri

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