A/N: This is going to be my version of a Harry Potter Christmas special. This is also a songfic. The song is "A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton. Enjoy:D

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Teddy Lupin sat there with his hot chocolate in one hand with the other wrapping a blanket tightly around his cold body. He sat and watched Hermione trying to teach Rose to walk and Ron bouncing Hugo up and down on his knee. He watched his best friend, Victoire, being lifted onto her father's shoulders as Fleur laughed. He smiled at the Potters who were gazing down at their children with love in their happy eyes. All the other adults were laughing at a joke that George told them. This was his family.

Wait, scratch that, this wasn't his family, his family was gone…


Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

He wished with all his might that his parents would give him a piggy back ride, or look at him with such love in their eyes. Not once has he ever spent a Christmas with his parents. He missed them so much. He wanted them…he needed them.

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...

A tear swelled up in his eyes and dropped silently into his hot chocolate. He got all that he asked for Christmas…but what he wanted most in the world was his parents. He wanted to tell them that he loved them.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

Teddy would do anything just to say a few words to them. He loved the Weasleys and the Potters but he loved his parents so much more. Even if he could barely remember them.

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

There would be times when Teddy thought about whether or not his parents ever thought about him in heaven. He wondered if he was the last thing they thought of before they died. Even though no on would know these answers for sure, he still wondered.

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

He can't stand watching his cousins and friends playing and talking to their parents. It feels wrong to him that he doesn't have any. He can't stand it even more when people compare him his parents. It's like he's his parent's living memory.

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...

Yet again, more tears fell making his drink taste bitter.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

He knew he had Harry and grandmum, but he still wants his own parents. His own parents to talk to, his own parents to hug…For a long time now, he felt out of place. parents...

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't...

If he could see his parents just for a few minutes. He'd tell them about his whole life. He wouldn't care that they'd probably wouldn't understand him. He would only care that they were there; living and breathing.


Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

He has never really like talking about his parents to anyone but himself. Every time someone talks about them he listens with great interest. He just never joins in the conversation much.

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

Teddy starred at the watch that Harry had given him for Christmas and wished that he could turn back time.

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder...

He thought he was going to puke in agony once he saw Ron whisper in Hugo ear making him laugh. His hair turned a dull shade of brown.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

He never enjoyed family gatherings as much as he should. He didn't know why he was there, he never fully considered himself family.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

He hugged his blanket really close to his body and pretended to be hugging his parents. As he shut his eyes and tried to remember what his parents smelled of, James escaped from Harry's grasp and walked up to Teddy. Harry smiled at him and surprising enough, he smiled back.

We love you Teddy….