Well, this story was inspired by my friend, Jadis, and something that happened to her. I love her to death, and this story is dedicated to her for all the wonderful things that she is.
This story, for plot purposes, will move very slowly. The first five or six chapters will follow Lily around and explore her feelings. Her crush will not be revealed for a couple chapters, but I'll update quickly at first because I've already written the first six chapters of the story. Please don't be dismayed, though, because it will move along faster after that, and the Marauders will actually be in it. Sorry that they aren't for a while.
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. I don't own Lily, James, Sirius, Remus, or Peter. I do own Nicolette, David, Annabel, and Wendy, all of whom represent real people. For those that actually care (those very few of you), Annabel represents me, and Lily represents Jadis.
"Lily, just forget about him. He's just an arrogant prick," growled her best friend.
Despite telling Nicolette all about her feelings for one of the most popular boys at Hogwarts, Lily Evans still didn't feel any better. It was the strangest feeling she'd ever felt in the world—the same one she had when she knew she was doing something wrong but there wasn't anything she could do about it. She couldn't describe it as anything but the sickness.
"I know he is, Cole," she murmured as she slowly sat up and pushed away the covers from her cozy body, "but that doesn't change anything."
"All the more reason to say it. He's a bastard."
Lily laughed at the irony. James had mentioned before that the victim of her slight infatuation was indeed disowned. "He is," she agreed.
"Who is it this time?" came another voice from the doorway. Both Lily and Nicolette looked up at the owner of the voice, a girl named Julia Meyer, the most popular girl in the school. "Not James again, I hope." Also a friend to the Marauders and girlfriend of Sirius Black.
"Of course not," Lily replied curtly. "James is my friend, too, you know, and a fellow Head. I wouldn't call him a bastard."
Meyer shrugged as she shut the door behind her and moved to her bed. "If you say so, Evans."
Lily tried to stop her, but Nicolette was too fast. "What is that supposed to mean?!" she cried angrily.
"It's not like it's a secret that Evans has never liked James since the day they met. I still don't understand how he got you to agree to be his friend."
"We're colleagues now," insisted Lily. "He's not a bigheaded prat anymore."
Meyer raised an eyebrow questioningly. "He's the same person he was before, Evans, so don't try to lie about it." She paused as Nicolette snorted and then continued. "Now, if you excuse me, I'm going to go spend time with my boyfriend," and she picked up her robes from her bed and exited the dormitory.
Nicolette huffed and settled down on her best friend's bed beside her. "He is the same person, you know," she said quietly, "but people do change… yet they remain the same people they were before. It's really an amazing process, don't you think? He's more responsible, but he's still James Potter."
"I know who he is," she snapped, scowling.
"Gosh, Lily, you don't need to be angry with me," responded Nicolette. "I'm just trying to help."
"I know you are," signed Lily. "This is just so frustrating. I'm trying to think things through—and talking with you definitely helped—but it's still so confusing."
"Why do we ever even like boys anyway?" her best friend reasoned. "They're not really good for anything."
She took a deep breath before speaking quietly. "I'm so glad we have our winter break now. I really want to get away from him and the rest of the Marauders and Julia Meyer."
"Oh, she's such a slut. Ignore her."
"I try, but this is just too much to handle now. I'm so tired of it all. I need to think, I really do."
"Well, we're going home tomorrow, so you can think then, can't you?"
"Yeah, I'll be able to think some time over the break. I really don't know what I'll do about it, though. Telling him would be such a waste. It's just a stupid crush anyway."
"Right," nodded Nicolette. "He's very hot, but he's a little lacking in the correct emotional state of mind for any proper, long, meaningful relationship. Besides, every girl has to have a crush on him sometime—hell, even a couple guys have, I'm sure. I bet even James Potter has had a crush on him at some point."
Lily sent her friend a strange look. "They're best friends. Why in the world would he have a crush on his best mate? Cole, your mind works in the weirdest ways, you know that?"
"Oh, I definitely know that, Lily. And you love me for it."
"Well, yeah, but I'd love you even if it didn't work in the weirdest ways."
"I know. Isn't it fun?"
Lily laughed and stood up. "I think it's time to get up finally, you silly girl."
"Yeah, I am rather silly," she admitted with a small shrug.