I stepped out of my car and looked around the parking lot for the new student. Apparently Chief Swan's daughter was going to be going to school here now. No one knows much about her or why she's coming, apparently Charlie really hasn't talked about it.
I soon spotted a small girl sitting alone on a bench staring off into space and pointed her out to my family.
"So that's the new girl, huh?" Emmett asked, probably sizing her up.
I took a hard look at the girl. She was very pretty for a human, although slightly overweight- with long, straight brown hair, a heart shaped face and large, chocolate colored eyes- but there was sadness about her. Something about having a face so cleanly wiped of emotion brought out all the pain in her eyes. It was heartbreaking; I couldn't take my eyes away.
"She looks so sad." I mumbled.
Emmett nodded solemnly in agreement. The girl opened her door and stepped out. She was wearing a baggy gray long sleeve shirt and a pair of loose fitting jeans. Her arms were wrapped lightly around her stomach as she walked away.
Just then Rosalie and Jasper arrived. Jasper came up and wrapped an arm around me and gave Emmett and me a weird look. "Why's everyone so down?"
"We just saw the new girl." I whispered.
"Oh," He said as he steered us towards the same direction the girl walked off in.
Edward and Jocelyn quickly caught up with us. They were probably making-out in the back of the car like usual. And I don't need to be a psychic to know that- anyone could tell by their disheveled clothes and hair. They only ever seemed to be physical with each other. You'll never see them talking or just cuddling. But as far as I know, Edward and she haven't gone all the way. At least he has some common sense.
Sure, Jocelyn's beautiful. She has white blonde strait hair that stopped choppily at her shoulders and an elfin face but that was it. She had the emotional range of a teaspoon and couldn't hold a conversation for longer then a minute unless it was about her self. She was more self centered the Rosalie.
I heard Edward growl. Of course he had been reading my mind. I rolled my eyes. It wasn't exactly a secret that no one in our family likes her except Edward, who probably only likes how she looks and kisses.
Jocelyn removed her lips from mine hastily and I almost fell forward. She giggled and kept walking while I stared after her perfect form like a puppy dog. She was so unbelievably hot! It made me hate school all the more. What a waste of time! We've never gone all the way; she wants to and she's definitely hot enough to make me want to. But I'm waiting for that click. The one that tells me I'm head over heels in love with her. I know I don't love her and she doesn't expect to be told she's loved- which is a good thing because I don't think I can lie to her. Maybe if we had an actual conversation love would be plausible.
I quickly caught up with her and laced my fingers with hers, a sweet gesture, but it wasn't enough. She dropped my hand and wrapped her arm around my waist. I sighed but kept walking.
She has the emotional range of a teaspoon and can't hold a conversation for longer then a minute unless it was about her self. She is more self centered the Rosalie. Alice's thoughts floated through my head and I involuntarily let out a growl. I may not love Jocelyn but I will stick up for her.
Alice rolled her eyes at me but kept walking. That's weird; she usually puts up more of fight then that.
"You stupid bitch, don't be late to school! You don't get to eat you fat-ass!" Charlie screamed at me with a slap on my cheek. I felt tears involuntarily spring to my eyes and I rushed out the door. That's the last time I ever try to eat a banana before school while Charlie's home.
As I walked to school, Charlie wouldn't dream of buying me a car and I didn't have money to get one myself yet, I nearly chewed my bottom lip off I was biting it so hard. I was unbelievably nervous for the first day of school. I only wanted to keep to myself and stay the same wallflower I have been all my life. But judging by the size of Forks, blending in will be nearly impossible.
I finally made it to school and I found the front office easily. I got my schedule and sat on a bench. After a while of trying to memorize it I began to get distracted. Thinking about life, I guess. I realized that I had been crying and whipped my tears off my cheeks and my clean of emotion.
Students were beginning to arrive so I got up and headed to my first period class.
I walked into my first period class with low expectations. Only a few people talked to me; I understood and accepted that, even wanted it. They all seemed nice enough but I'd rather just blend in the ever stick out with a home life like mine.
So once I got to the class I put my head down in the teacher assigned desk and waited for class to start. I vaguely heard the chair next to mine being pulled out but then the teacher walked in and I looked up, avoiding all eyes.
I'm not even quite sure why I go to school. People like me never have a chance to get out of the same hell of a world we were born into and this was mine.
Ever since I was a little girl my life had sucked, since before I was born. When Charlie and Renee got married even then was crap but with a little more love. But then the love was gone and so was my mom, leaving a very angry Charlie and a heart-broken Renee. She got over in with alcohol and he chooses violence. Alcohol killed my mom and now I'm about to be the next one to go. It's only a matter of time, I can feel it.
"Now here's a sheet of paper that you are instructed to ask your partner as sort-of a review study guide, get started." I heard the teacher instruct and I visibly blanched.
"It's okay, I don't bite." A quiet voice that sounded like bells tinkling said. I whirled towards her with wide eyes. A small pixy like girl sat there with short black hair cropped in all directions and a timid smile on her face. All I could do was nod meekly. Such a beautiful girl shouldn't be next to me. She belongs in heaven, I thought.
We asked each other questions; I knew everything. She did as well. We had learned all this before in my other math class back home.
We were done far before the others and I tried hard not to look at her beautiful face.
"My name's Alice Cullen." Her enchanting voice spoke again.
I studied her face carefully, wondering if someone so beautiful could really be trusted. After a second of evaluation, I decided telling her my name wouldn't hurt.
"Isabella Swan, Bella for short." I told her and then as I was about to turn away she started talking again.
"How come you moved to Forks, Bella?" Alice asked me straight out, the only person to outright ask me.
"My mother died." I mumbled, my throat closing over from the tears threatening to fall from my eyes.
"Oh, I'm so sorry!" She gasped with genuine concern.
I nodded, unable to speak.
"If you need anything at all, just let me know." Alice continued to talk. She probably thought it was her fault I was upset or something and was trying to make up for it, but she seemed to be sincere.
I just nodded again and avoided her gaze, which I was almost positive was glued upon my face. We sat in silence until the bell rang shrilly, making me jump. Alice laughed lightly; it was the most delightful thing I had heard in my life.
I scrambled to my next class, thankful to be away from her. I felt so unworthy, more so then usual, next to her. She was beautiful and skinny, whereas I was plain, homely, and overweight.
I was soon on my way to lunch walking with a really nice girl named Angela.
"I have to go to the bathroom, but I'll see you there." I told her.
She nodded and I turned into one of the bathrooms and waited until I couldn't hear her anymore and then found my way to the library where I found a good book to read and settled in for the time being. There wasn't much to do in a lunchroom where you don't have any friends or money. Besides, people would just think I was anorexic. If only they knew how desperately my stomach has been begging for food the past week.
I waited for the new girl to walk into the cafeteria but it never happened. I frowned and tried to look for her in the future and gasped in pain at what I saw.
Bella… lifeless… on the ground with bruises all over her body and blood seeping out from her slowly, forming a puddle under her back. But the most haunting thing of all was the look on her face. She looked so peaceful- no matter how sunken in and unhealthily skinny her face was- and her eyes were wide open, looking straight at me.
Edward had a shocked and shaken look on his face. I couldn't even imagine what mine looked like.
"Edward," I gasped. It's so set in stone. There's nothing changing that.
He nodded sadly. I felt like I would be crying if I could. The others just looked confused and slightly frightened of what ever had us so shaken up.
Why do people like her always have the most unfortunate endings?
I never realized I was spread too thin Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on my chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying, I'm crying
I'm crying, I'm crying
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I own nothing. :[ Last Resort by Papa Roach