I've done a Matchbox Twenty song before, I know… but I think one relates to Murtagh as well, so enjoy!

This song is "If You're Gone" by Matchbox Twenty.

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I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure

A five-old Murtagh stared at his mother. She had been acting strange lately. He felt as if she wasn't even there anymore; as if her body was there, but her mind and spirit where elsewhere. He felt as if she was leaving him. She had always been so… protective over him, saying he wasn't strong enough for these kinds of things that he had to see; he felt that she was wrong. Though he was merely at the age of five years, he knew things that no child should ever know.

He seemed to be easing into realization that Selena wasn't going to be with him for much longer. She was ill; weak. He wanted to help her, but there was nothing that a five-year-old could possible do to save a woman whose ailment remained unknown. She had disappeared for months, then reappeared, ill.

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
'cause there's a little bit of something in me
In everything in you

Murtagh wanted Selena to at least try to get better. He wasn't accustomed to seeing her sick like this. She was always strong, elegant, and loving. Now she was weak, her appearance was a faded glory, and she was antisocial. He was scared; he'd admit that to himself.

He just wanted his mother back. Though Morzan's estate was the largest in Alagaesia, apart from the king's, Murtagh felt as if he was suspended in the air.

There was a piece of Selena that would always remain in Murtagh.

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

Murtagh wondered what would happen to him if she left. Would the little bit of light that was in his life burn out? Would he be able to survive the wrath of Morzan and Galbotorix? Murtagh was sure that he would need her more than she knew. Though he was never very close to his mother, she was still the only person who showed genuine care about his well-being. The wet-nurse and other servants he had been raised by just saw him as another assignment; another duty.

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
'cause there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

He wondered what had happened to his mother…

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - do I talk too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

Murtagh fell asleep on these thoughts.


If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
'cause there's a little bit of something in me
In everything in you

The next morning, Murtagh awoke to the sound of scurrying maids. He heard talking and listened in to see what was going on.

"Haven't you heard? Lady Selena died in her sleep last night!" The other voice gasped. "The poor boy! His heat will be broken…"

"Don't be so sure. He's barely even seen her his whole life… I just wonder what Lord Morzan will do…"

Murtagh dropped his head back down to his pillow and let a single tear escape his eye.

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Okay, I'll admit that this is pretty morbid, but REVIEW!