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" Cut it out." I seethe while walking down the stairs.
" Rae, wait up!" Beast Boy yelled running after me.
chapter 1 reasons
I knew Beast Boy was right behind me I could feel his presence and there was the fact that he yelled for me to wait for him. I've been pondering our relationship lately. Don't ask me why I know Ill regret it later though.
I mean its like I'm some kind of syco I enjoy yelling and bickering with him, especially when we're in a crowd. My face heats up and I get goose bumps and I feel the urge to smile uncontrollably every time I look at him. I cant stop it, I feel the need to put him down to counter my feelings. Now I know I am some kind of freak, not talking about my powers or skin color.
I tried talking to Star, she thinks I have some sort of crush on him. What's funny is…. She is totally correct. Now the sad part… its an unrequited love, one sided. He's got this crazy notion that every teenage girl has the 'hotts' for him. So completely conceded and self-centered, it makes my blood boil just thinking about all the girls fawning over him.
This can on no way be some regular crush, it doesn't compare to Star's crush on Robin. At least not to me. I can't see straight without him, my chest starts to ache I go temporarily insane when were out and a crowd of girls come up to him screaming 'we love yous'. Sure I have a few fan boy calling my name… mostly pervs.
I need to keep my head on straight that's all. Nothing could ever happen between us, I'd only end up hurting him and myself.
I've been following Raven around the house for a while now but, this is almost an everyday thing so I figure she should be used to it by now. So after a while I'll say something annoying she'll snap and that goes on until I get bored or she threatens to kill me, whatever comes first.
But today… today something is different I can't put my finger on it but something's wrong. She's pacing more than usual and not stopping to meditate or even drink her tea.
She's starting to worry me, Raven is usually quiet but no sarcastic remarks? Come on now look at this equation, Beast Boy plus Raven equals sarcasm, violence and profanity. Today I get nothing. She seems troubled by her thoughts, I wish she would let me help her.
Guess she only sees me as the wacky, annoying green guy sidekick with the very sexy body. But I'm more than that, I'm wacky, annoying, green, sexy and fairly intelligent. How could I be a Teen Titian and not have some brains hum? But she never comes to me for this kind of stuff. I bet she'd go to Tara before coming to me with her problems.
I wouldn't mind her confiding some secrets in me God. Now that I'm a little older and more mature, not so scrawny I'm built, puberty has me shaving and doing things I've never done before it hit. Maybe she doesn't confide in me because I'm a year younger than everyone.
Damn. What is she thinking? I can never tell if she's happy. Except for the time I spent inside her mirror, but when we talk it's usually small sentences and three letter words. Ill tell you the words I really wanna hear form her … ' I love you'.
Yeah yeah, high my name is Garfield and I have a confession… I love Raven. I always have, from day one, guess that's why I bug her so much. But god can she please take a hint? I want to be with her I really care about her. I want her to know, it's time for me to step my game up, with all those pervy guys trying to get with her and all. This is probably were my manly intelligence is supposed to come in, to bad she turns my brain to mush.
Hey maybe I should try stating off our conversation. But what should I say?… hey Rae there's thirty-seven percent chance rain tomorrow. That should get her excited…oh oh I'll ask her if she's feeling alright. Yeah there's that manly intelligence I've been looking for! With hardheaded determination I set my plan in motion. I sped up my pace so I could pass her up, causing her to run into my chest.
" Aww sorry Raven I didn't mean.. um are you ok?" she looked up at me
" Yeah Ill be alright dint worry about it." after a pregnant pause I reply
" So how have you been you seem down today?"
Whoa what's really going on here? Am I acting that bad? I must be if Beast Boy is concerned. How have I been? Horrible.. I love you and I cant do anything because someone will end up hurt.
" I'm ok… um how are you.?" I began to smile inside, he looked so incredibly surprised I'd asked how he was, like I have never asked him that question before the idiot.
Beast Boy began to smile at that moment. Slowly at first taking shape from a boyish smile to a sly grin. Spreading from him to me, just standing in the hallway smiling before he decide to answer me
" I'm doing really good. Now." It's my turn to be surprised. He's doing good now? What is that supposed to mean, was he having a bad day? Well he was just following me around for an hour. I guess having a conversation is better than looking at someone's back all morning. But I had to open my big mouth.
" Now?" His smile grew.
" Yeah I like talking to you. And making you smile makes today ten times better." If my skin wasn't so grey you could have used the blush on my face to light up Gothem City.
" You know now I have better control over my emotions so I allow myself some emotional freedom."
Did Raven just say she can have more freedom with her emotions? More emotions… meaning she may be able to have a romantic relationship. How do I not know about this new change of events? Is she already Romantically into some guy?
" So you have more emotional freedom meaning?"
" I let myself feel a few things like joy, awe, not so much anger that would be to much." She gives me this look like I had something to so with that last part and I cant help but feel guilty.
" Sorry." I feel myself blush a bit " Hey is that why I haven't seen many things blowing up lately?
" And your happier right?" Raven nodded " That makes me really happy."
Beep Beep Beep
" Titians trouble!" Robins harsh voice interrupted our tender moment and then Raven spoke.
" Guess we'll talk later huu?" I nod a yes and we head down to find out the problem.
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