IMPORTANT! Author's Note: You guys must all hate me for updating literally years later. I'll be honest I was about to give up on his story but I figured it would be unfair of me. Also I have another account that I made that is my main one. There I have other fanfics from other stories. If you love the Hunger Games go check it out. Here's the link: .net/~kelly101 its called Leave it to Faith.
But enough with THG! Its all about Twilight here. Hope you enjoy this chapter and many more to come. I had to reread everything to remember where I was going with this story. I'll have other POVs soon especially from the Cullens! Remember Read and Review. Its what keeps me going.
Today marked the anniversary of when Lillian left. I sat here staring at the letter she left that day still wondering why she had left me, why she didn't trust me. Even after all this time it was still hard to believe she was gone and probably never coming back. I know she said she'd return but that was hard to believe considering the fact I haven't heard from her at all.
I continued to live in the house I bought in France for about one month and then bought another home in the Italian countryside. After that day Lillian left, Carlisle and Esme cut their vacation short and left back to Forks. The reasons for their sudden departure are still unknown to me. I don't know if it was because they thought Lillian would return or because I was a bit of a mess after that. They still call occasionally when they have the chance, but every phone call still scares me with the possibility that it might be one of the others. From what Esme told me they had some serious explaining to do when they got back. They were questioned as to why they had mysteriously left all of sudden. Their defense was that they wanted to do something spontaneous for once. None of them bought it but they dropped the subject, or so I heard.
I didn't feel completely convinced that the others still had no idea of my existence. Carlisle reassured me they didn't but he wasn't exactly the best liar. That is why I decided to move to a more secluded area where no one would find me. Lillian wasn't coming back so it wasn't a problem, and I made sure not to tell Carlisle and Esme of my new location. Life here was peaceful but it still wasn't enough. I usually spent most of my day outside admiring the beauty of the hills with its breathtaking vineyards. I could run through the fields without anyone bothering me. I could be myself.
But today was different. Something about today didn't feel quite right. I didn't know if it was because it marked the day everything changed in my new life or just simply because all my thoughts suddenly invaded my mind. Before I could process anything else in my head I heard a door bell ring.
I had almost forgotten I had one because it was rarely used. The only people that ever used it were the neighbors who wanted to sell me fruit or people looking for jobs as household maids.
I quickly got off the chair where I sat and reached the door before it ran once more. I opened it and before I could even gasp I was in his arms. It was almost surprising how alien this feeling felt and even more surprising when I found my arms mimic his move around his waist. I think we were embraced for about one full minute when he finally released me.
"I've missed you so much" William told me.
I took a good look at him for the first time. He was still the old blond, green eyed boy I had met previously. The only thing that had changed was his personal style. He wore a dazzling dressy button up shirt that made his biceps reflect. I had to admit I had never seen him this attractive before in my life. It almost made me embarrassed because I was standing there in loose pants and a tank top with a pony tail.
But that was the least of my worries. The main thing on my head right now was why he was standing in front of me after a year of isolation and most importantly how he had found me.
"Why are you here?" I almost snarled. It wasn't normal to just show up on someone's front door after ignoring them for about a year. It felt almost as if I was being avoided and I wasn't going to have any small talk.
"Why are you here?" I asked once more. "You don't just walk up to my house and say you miss me after not speaking to me for a year" I argued. Honestly, I was quite hurt by his visit. I was mad because he was acting as if nothing was wrong, as if everything was okay and clearly nothing was okay.
"I'm sorry" I heard him whisper as he tried entering my house. I found myself blocking the door not letting him in. I wasn't going to put up with jokes today. Sorry just didn't cut it today. "Believe me I tired looking for you after I heard of what Lillian did. I wanted to be there for you. I knew you must have been going through a tough time but then you moved and I couldn't find you."
"So you're telling me that it took you one year to find me?" I asked. "William, you have powers! If you really wanted to see me you would have done anything to find me" I was almost in tears. I had never spoken to him like that ever in my life. But it was true and he knew it. If he really did go looking for me and he did indeed try finding me he could have just gone back in time and seen where I moved.
"And if in fact you did try everything you could it wouldn't have taken you this long!" I shouted.
But before I could continue on his hands grabbed my wrists and he held them close to his chest where his heart was supposed to be.
"BELLA!..." he paused. "I lost my powers"
I stared at him. Stared at his beautiful face and took in what he had just said. I didn't know if to believe him or not but something in his voice sounded desperate. It took me a second to take in how we were both so close. Never had I been this close to William and it didn't feel as expected.
I could almost see tears. He stared at me as if pleading to forgive him for a crime he committed. I didn't know what to respond with. I didn't know if I could trust him. He had left me when I needed a friend the most. I continued staring at those green eyes that I never really admired.
"How is that even possible?" I asked. Part of me wanted to believe him and the other didn't.
"I can't really explain much. It's all a blur really, but all I remember is another vampire draining my powers away" I could see the hurt in his face. "This happened shortly after Lillian left. Once I found out that you didn't live in France anymore it was too late. I searched and searched every file I could get my hands on to see if there were any records of you, but there weren't. I then tried phoning old friends but they didn't know anything. I knew I had to find you. But finally a few weeks ago I remembered how much you loved the countryside. I took my chances and began my search again. I then over heard this old man speaking about this beautiful young woman who had recently moved to a large estate in the Italian countryside. He description was exactly like you and you could imagine the rest from then on"
He words had so much meaning in them but I was afraid to believe them. I didn't know if I was being un just to him or if I was doing right by being precautious. But what did I need to protect myself from William. I knew him for a long time and knew he wouldn't harm me, but then again I also believed many things that were untrue.
"Please let me in" he pleaded. "I haven't seen you in a long time. I've missed you". And just like that I gave up. I missed my best friend too. I missed him dearly. I missed someone to joke around. I missed someone to just talk to. I stepped aside to let him in. I followed him to the living room and sat opposite of him.
At first the silence killed me but then I decided to speak.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you" I said.
"It's okay. I don't blame you. I would be mad too if someone just showed up like that"
"It's just that… you… here…it's almost like a dream"
"I know. I still can't process the fact that you're right here in front of me" he smiled.
"It's been too long."
Silence once again invaded the room. Now that everything was calmer and I could think clearly there was something I wanted to ask him. The question popped into my head but I was afraid to ask. Maybe he knew something and maybe he didn't. I knew he knew what I was thinking. Not literally but he knew me too well. The way his facial expression had worrisome all over it told me he didn't want me to ask. But I did anyway.
"Do you know what happened to Lillian?" I asked.
"Yes." He responded. "That's actually part of the reason I needed to see you."
I was getting anxious.
"Bella…" he paused. "She found them."