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This is two one shots about the first time Edward leaves Bella after he returns at the end of New Moon.
Bella's Point of View:
"Bella," His eyes were pleading. I couldn't tell whether or not he was worried about me, or didn't want to leave himself.
"Edward." I pulled his face towards mine. I didn't want him to leave. In fact, my stomach was in knots at the thought. I wanted to hold him there and never have him leave. I wanted to go with him. I wanted to be with him. More than anything I was afraid of what would happen to me after he walked out that door. I was afraid but I couldn't let him no that, ever. Edward worried incessantly about me and I didn't want to add anymore to that. It wasn't his fault I was so attached to him.
His eyes were like pools of darkness when I looked into them. I had never seen them that black, they frightened me. Not because I thought that he would ever hurt me. No, it was because I knew how hard he fought against the scent of my blood. He shouldn't have to fight that personal battle everyday. He had described it himself. I was his brand of heroine and he was resisting. The bags under his eyes were almost as black as his eyes themselves. They looked…painful. I couldn't begin to imagine how hard it was for him and I couldn't bear to imagine him in any pain. Especially if it was being brought on by me. I worried about him more than anything.
"You have to go." I said trying to sound demanding.
"No I don't Bella." He seemed upset. I could only imagine how he thought I would take it. He'd seen how I reacted in the hours that Charlie kept us apart. He'd climbed into my window one night to find me pacing. I'd been doing better now but he didn't fully believe that.
"Yes you do," He tilted his head slightly while his frown grew. "Edward," I continued. "You can't starve yourself. I'll be fine, I promise. It's only for one day. I know you're coming back. I promise I'll be fine." He relaxed slightly at the sincerity of my words.
"Bella, if you didn't want me to leave you'd tell me right?" I wouldn't. I didn't want him to leave now but I was also ready to push him out the door.
"Of course. Now, Emmett and Jasper are waiting, surprisingly patiently. You have to go." He sighed. I had known I'd win this. He was thirsty, anyone could tell.
Suddenly he pulled me into his chest, kissing the top of my head. "Bella, I love you so much." He was making it harder for me now. It was too sentimental. For whatever reason I was fighting back tears. I took a deep breath and pulled out of his chest but he refused to let go of my waist.
"I love you too Edward." I took a deep breath again. "The sooner you leave the sooner you get back." I said and he seemed satisfied by the thought.
"That's right isn't it…" I smiled up at him and something in his face light up and I felt my heart soar. Seeing him leave happily would definitely help. He leaned down slowly. First he kissed my forehead and then he moved towards my lips. He stared into my eyes for a drawn out moment. I could see the love in his eyes and I knew that he'd never leave. He said he was worried about me but I think he was worried about himself. Common sense told me that much but doubt told a whole different story.
He smiled slightly as he pulled his lips towards mine. I closed my eyes preparing myself for the kiss. When his lips touched mine I felt amazing. It was as if I wasn't even on this planet. If I could I would have kept him here just so I could kiss him for eternity. He was amazing at it, for a vampire who had never kissed someone before he jumped into quite well. As I mashed my lips into his further I remembered why we were here and I reluctantly pulled away. For once he was the one pouting and I was the one calling the shots.
"The sooner you leave the sooner you get back." I repeated pulling his arms from my waist. He smiled again, that perfect crooked smile and I couldn't help but smile back. He pulled me into his arms one last time.
"I really do love you." He said. I knew he thought that I still doubted him and maybe I did, somewhere deep down a part of me would always doubt him but that part was gone and never coming back.
"I know." I said as he pulled away again. Emmett honked the horn of his jeep and Edward pecked me on the lips before running outside. I watched the jeep pull out of the driveway taking the love of my life and a piece of me—if not all of me—with it. He wasn't even fully out of the driveway and that lurching feeling was back in my stomach. A day seemed like an eternity as I closed the door. I was home to mope while he went and had fun with his brothers. I slid down the back of the door, ready to sit there until he came back. It didn't sound like a half bad idea actually. I wanted to be able to sleep through it or something like that. I would have done anything to go with him but I couldn't. I'd have to wait for him until graduation when I'd finally be allowed to go with him. I could sleep now though. It was only seven but I was capable.
My mind was full of old memories of my darkest hour, as I feel asleep. That familiar numb feeling had returned. It was my body's self defense. I found it hard to believe that I would have a self-defense for things like this but apparently I did. I slipped into unconsciousness slightly scared of what would go on in my own head.
I had written the note to Charlie and we were headed out into the woods. I had that all too foreboding feeling as we stopped. We weren't very far from the house and he seemed so serious. We stood there as he told me he was leaving. Even in my dreams I was confused. Then he told me he didn't love me and I woke up.
Thankfully I had been turned inward, towards the pillows. Otherwise my screams wouldn't have been muffled. When I pulled my head up and opened my eyes they felt heavier. I took a deep breath. All my worries were stupid. He was coming back, he loved me. Every thing was perfect. I was stupid to be worried. I needed sleep. He'd be lying next to me soon enough and all would be well. I knew it, I trusted him. I tried picturing his face as he left this time and it helped. Before I knew it I was asleep again.
That was my first one-shot from BOV I hoped you liked it. It was kind of depressing compared to what I normally write. If you liked it please tell me. I want to know if I can write this genre.