Title: Savin' Me
Author: Montecarlogurl87
Chapters: 12
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Dean/Casey
Spoilers: Up through 3.04 "Sin City"...and I stole a plot point that was revealed in 3.05 "Bedtime Stories"
Feedback: just see the Author's Note...
Disclaimer: I do not own Dean or Sam ::damnit:: or anything else from the Supernatural universe.

Author's Note/Preface: Alright, this story requires a pretty lengthy A/N. And some, if not all of the chapters will have their own as well. But PLEASE read the A/N!!

Casey grabbed ahold of me when Sin City aired and would NOT let me go. This story stewed and simmered and burned me inside out for a couple weeks after that. I fished for hints about how people would recieve such a pairing and idea, and sadly...got nothing. So I did something I've never done before. I did the whole thing solo. NO ONE heard any details about this at all. The plot line, the characters, even the soundtrack has been kept under lock and key...with guard dogs.
(Teresa, who was the sole person to help me work through it, and Dee, because she wasn't around to have the chance to help me, were the only ones who knew anything)

And I'm not kidding when I say this fic ATE ME ALIVE. I have never put so much into a story before, save my Highway to Hell series. I did research and as you will see, a soundtrack (which made itself be known before I had even started writing) I even typed out an honest to god outline. I've never made an outline for anything, not even for school projects that required them. I even wrote the ending before anything else, which is something I've NEVER done and am still not sure how this one managed to make me do it.

This story took on a life of it's own and it will always hold a place close to my heart. So please, for the LOVE OF GOD, leave feedback. I don't care if it's to say you love it, or to say you hate it and don't think this would could or should ever happen in the SN universe. And PLEASE don't let the pairing throw you off. I would LOVE to hear what people think, please give it a chance and don't not read it based on that alone.

(Besides HTH) This is by far my favorite fic out of everything I've ever written...so indulge me ::love to everyone::

Now, as I mentioned above, the story reared it's head and commanded me to make a soundtrack, which I ended up putting A LOT into. I went through my ENTIRE LIBRARY of songs pieceing it together until I was satisfied.

Below you will find the cover with song list I made, as well as excerpts of lyrics from each song...and of course, a zip file full of the music.

I'm putting all this up BEFORE the story, so hopefully you will download and listen to it when you read. Some songs fit specific scenes in my head. Some songs I felt just fit the story in general or the relationships of the characters.

So please tell me if you download it. Tell me what you think of the songs and tell me what you think about how they mesh with the story. ::love::

Savin' Me Soundtrack
(Cover here, just take out the spaces, since FF hates links)

http:// i16.photobucket .com/albums/b22/montecarlogurl87/FicBanners/ SM-Soundtrack.jpg

(There are urls to full versions of the lyrics as well, but again, since FF hates links, just take out the spaces)

Destroyed :: Within Temptation
http:// www. Seeklyrics .com/lyrics/Within-Temptation/Destroyed .html

It's so easy to destroy and condemn
The ones you do not understand
Do you ever wonder if it's justified?

Angels or Devils :: Dishwalla
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/dishwalla/angelsordevils .html

Well I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

Pain :: Three Days Grace
http:// www. azlyrics. com/lyrics/threedaysgrace/pain. html

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Sweet Surrender :: Sarah McLachlan
http:// www. Lyricsdownload .com/sarah-mclachlan-sweet-surrender-lyrics .html

You take me in, no questions asked
You strip away the ugliness, that surrounds me
Are you an angel? Am I already that gone?
I only hope that I won't disappoint you
When I'm down here on my knees
And sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give

Nothing Left to Say But Goodbye :: Audioslave
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/audioslave/nothinglefttosaybutgoodbye .html

Bless your heart you gave me a home and a new start
And I will leave you never
Sleep at your feet and stand guard at your front door
I will keep this together

Ebla :: E.S. Posthumus

Instrumental

Angel Boy :: Tim McGraw
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/timmcgraw/angelboy .html

I've held the hand of the Devil, felt his breath on my skin
Dip me into the water, wash me again
Can I still be forgiven for all of these things?
Or have I gone too far now
Have I lost my wings?

Save You :: Pearl Jam
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/pearljam/saveyou .html

I'm gonna save you fucker, not gonna lose you
Feeling cocky and strong, can't let you go
Too important to me
Too important to us, we'd be lost without you
Baby, let yourself fall, I'm right below you now
And fuck me if I say something you don't wanna hear, fuck me
And fuck me if you only hear what you wanna hear
Fuck me if I care, but I'm not leaving here
You helped me when I was down, I'll help when you're down
Why are you hitting yourself? C'mon hit me instead
Let's pick up your will, it's grown fat and lazy
I'm sympathetic as well, don't go on me now
And I'm not living this life without you, I'm selfish and clear
And you're not leaving here without me, I don't wanna be without
My best friend, wake up to see you could have it all

Lovin' You Against My Will :: Gary Allan
http:// www. Lyricsdownload .com/gary-allen-loving-you-against-my-will-lyrics .html

Your love is like a deep dark river
Pulling me out to the sea
The harder I try to resist you
The weaker I seem to be
I don't want to feel your heart beat
I don't want to taste your kiss
I don't want to call your name
I don't want to call your name
I don't want to want you like this
Girl, I'm loving you
Loving you against my will
Loving you
Loving you against my will

Crash :: 12 Stones
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/12stones/crash .html

And I feel like I'm falling
Farther every day
But I know that you're there
Watching over me
And I feel like I'm drowning
The waves crashing over me
But I know that your love
It will set me free
As I find truth where I found it times before
As I search for your hope
I'm finding so much more
And I try to be more like you
And I deny myself to prove my heart is true

Wicked Game :: Chris Isaak
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/chrisisaak/wickedgame .html

What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and
I want to fall in love
This world is only gonna break your heart
No, I want to fall in love
This world is only gonna break your heart
With you

Savin' Me :: Nickelback
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/nickelback/savinme .html

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

All I Need :: Within Temptation
http:// www. Seeklyrics .com/lyrics/Within-Temptation/All-I-Need .html

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
When you hold me in your embrace

Lost :: Michael Buble
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/michaelbuble/lost .html

'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Anchor Me :: Mutton Birds
http:// www .stlyrics. com/songs/m/muttonbirds15465/anchorme415772 .html

Let the salt spray lash
The shivering skin
Where the green waves crash
And the whirlpools spin
Anchor me, anchor me, anchor me
Anchor me
In the middle of your deep blue sea, anchor me

Hope for Me Yet :: Marc Broussard
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/marcbroussard/hopeformeyet .html

Sometimes when I look back
I don't even know myself
It blows my mind to think that I've found grace in someone else
Baby your grace is something else
Yes, if you could love someone like me
There's no end to the possibility
Hopes and dreams push away the pain and regret
But loving you just lets me know
There might be hope for me yet

She Ain't Right :: Lee Brice
http/www. Cowboylyrics .com/lyrics/brice-lee/she-aint-right-21549 .html

She loves and lives her life unruly
Tears up that dirt road up in a dually
Dangerous? Absolutely
And in a little while
She'll be roundin' that corner on three wheels
Ain't slowin' down, yellin "Come on, jump in"
Always up to somethin', crazy got nothin' on her
She ain't right, she ain't right
She ain't right, but she's just right for me

You Save Me :: Kenny Chesney
http:// www. Azlyrics .com/lyrics/kennychesney/yousaveme .html

Every now and then I get a little lost
My strings all get tangled, my wires all get crossed
Every now and then I'm right up on the edge
Dangling my toes out over the ledge
I just thank God you're here
'Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
'Cause when I'm a firecracker comin' undone
Or when I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me

Full Zip

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