She smiled, blushing fiercely and took his hand. He pulled her to her feet and entwined his fingers with hers.
He brought their hands to his mouth, where he placed a kiss on the back of hers before he tugged gently. She followed him up the narrow stairs of the cottage toward his bedroom.
Severus was shaking the entire way. What if he did not please her? What if she found him unattractive?
Forcing himself to silence his fear and doubt, he could feel the very same things radiating from her.
This is natural he told himself. Even if they were both a little old to be untouched.
This was the only innocence he had carried with him through the years, and offering it to her was the right choice. He had no regrets knowing she would be his first and his hope that she would be his only.
He hoped that she would never regret him being her first.
They entered his room. It was dark except for the light of a nearly full moon leaving bright spots on the hardwood floor.
She nervously moved to kiss him and they collided, his chin connecting with her forehead.
He chuckled softly, attempting to lighten the mood, before lowering his head to seek her mouth.
They found each other this time and the dull throbbing in his chin and on her forehead was forgotten.
He began with chaste, teasing kisses. Nipping her mouth as she often did to him. He felt her open beneath him, bidding him entrance, but he did not seek it. He wanted this to last, as long as it could.
Her hands moved over him, her fingers trying to undo the buttons of his sweater.
He smiled against her lips. "Always in such a rush to know everything."
"I want you," she blurted.
"Do you deny that I want you just as much?" To prove his point he flexed his hips against her, where she felt his erection; hard and real.
He nudged her toward the bed. "Let us savor every moment of this."
She sat on the edge of the bed, seeing his pants tented and knowing that she would finally see what she often felt pressed against her. Knowing tonight he would finally be buried within her.
She let out a shaky breath as that familiar heat and ache pooled between her legs.
But then something rational blocked the feelings.
"Severus…I'm not taking any contraceptives." She felt like a heel for ruining the mood.
He knelt before her and smiled gently. "That's all right."
"It's not all right. I could get pregnant and as much I love you, I'm not ready for that."
"There are potions, but you have to take them several days for them to work."
She slumped forward, upset that neither of them had thought about this before coming up here.
"But I have something better than potions."
She raised her eyes to look into his in the dimness of the room.
"Have you heard of Muggle Vasectomy?"
"Yes." Gods had he gone to a doctor and had the procedure done to himself?
"I have created a spell that does the same thing. An invisible and removable barrier that blocks semen from leaving the body. As with the muggle procedure it is safe and absorbed back into the body. Unlike the muggle procedure, it can be removed or left as is."
"But don't vasectomy's have to be done well in advance to purge the male body of sperm coming out?"
"Yes, they do. I invented the spell about a year ago for a client…and when things escalated between us here, I used it on myself."
He nodded. "I do not know if it's 100% preventive as I have obviously never been with a woman to prove it and I had not completed it for my client. But I've tested my ejaculate several times. My sperm count has been zero for two months now."
She giggled. "Only you and I could sit here and talk about such things before having sex. "
He smiled and leaned forward to place a kiss on her mouth. "Only us…"
He had been nervous about telling her of his research and spell, but this had gone much easier than he had anticipated.
He grinned, leaning forward to nuzzle her ear. "Every time I needed to test myself I thought of you."
She blushed and felt the warmth reappear between her legs. "You wicked man, wanking for the name of research." She squirmed on the mattress. The thought of him touching himself, thinking of her and possibly crying out her name as he came, had an incredible effect on her.
"Research be damned. I was entirely selfish with this project."
"Well, I'm glad you were…" she breathed.
They met for another kiss, this one much more passionate than their nipping. Hermione reached for one of Severus' hands and positioned it over her breast. He squeezed gently and she moaned into his mouth. He brought his other hand to her second breast and began to knead the flesh.
He carefully removed her shirt and then her bra and replaced his hands and this time his mouth onto her. One hand kneaded her left breast, while his mouth tasted her right breast. He rolled her nipple, licked and nipped. Then he started to suck the flesh. Lightly at first and then harder.
Hermione gasped and he paused thinking he may have hurt her.
"That feels really good," she gasped. She could feel the pleasure building in her breast and then finding its way between her legs.
He grinned, pleased with his work and gave the left breast the same treatment.
Meanwhile, one of her hands was tugging his sweater out of his trousers.
He released her breast, a soft pop filling the air as the nipple slipped from his mouth. "So impatient."
"I want to touch you…"
"I fear that is a bad idea. I don't know that Iwill last, Hermione. Another time you may explore me all you want."
She pouted and he laughed.
He too, was becoming impatient. He was sweating, his heart was racing and he felt harder than he ever had been before. He wanted to please her before he took his own pleasure.
He helped remove the rest of her clothes and brought one hand to her sex. He trailed his fingers along the inside of her thighs, delighting in the way her breathing became rapid and her eyes filled with desire.
He would make her his and no man would dare to touch her while he lived. And no woman would ever touch him.
His fingers explored the folds of her sex. They were slick with desire and he had no trouble slipping one finger into her, and then added a second. He pushed in until he reached her barrier, pulled out and then pushed in again, imitating what his erection would be doing very soon.
He leaned over and his mouth joined his hand. His fingers continued their thrusting and his mouth began to swirl around a tiny nub of flesh that had Hermione writhing beneath him.
Her moans encouraged him and he sucked and swirled his tongue. Her body arched off the bed toward him. He continued until with out warning she cried out and he felt her muscles clamping around his fingers. A groan filled the air and he realized it was his own. He needed her and needed her now.
She nodded and after a moment of collecting herself, she helped him pull his sweater off and then his trousers and underwear went down his lean hips. He kicked them off, then rolled to the side to remove his socks. He crawled over her and found her eyes watching his bobbing erection. He hoped he did not disappoint her.
He cleared his throat and she looked into his eyes and smiled. He certainly did not disappoint. He was a good size. Not too big and not too small.
"You're perfect," she told him as if she knew his fears. "Make me yours, Severus."
He leaned down and kissed her hard. He lowered himself and their hands met as she helped guide him to her. She helped position him and he moved his hips forward, the tip slipping within her. He pushed further, slow in his movements until he came to her barrier. He withdrew, though not all the way and slowly pushed in again.
He looked down into her eyes and she nodded to him.
He kissed her mouth and thrust hard at the same time, breaking through. She cried out into his mouth and he stilled allowing her to adjust to him.
"Are you all right?"
She nodded, the pain making it difficult for her to speak. She needed a moment to adjust to the intrusion.
She touched his hair, brushing back the damp strands and began to move against him. He followed her lead and she let him take over.
Before long he was thrusting fast and deep. Soft groans and grunts escaped him as he drove home.
Then he cried out her name thrusting deep within her. She felt his release fill her, felt a few small thrusts as he finished and then his body met hers as he rolled her with him onto their sides.
She could tell he was exhausted and she smiled placing a soft kiss on his chin and then his nose and finally his mouth. They were both sticky with sweat and she could feel him still within her.
"Did I hurt you?"
"Is it all right that I…that we…" he glanced down where their bodies were still joined and she smiled, placing a light kiss on his mouth.
"I like how you feel within me. You make me feel whole."
He pulled her tightly to him, and he rested his head above hers.
"I will strive to make you feel whole everyday."
A few moments later, Severus was sleeping. Hermione smiled against his chest where she had nestled her face. And then she, too fell into slumber.
AN: Many apologies for the delay in a new chapter. A HUGE delay. With all of my stories I really have to be in the mood to write because life has been keeping me super busy. . Many of my stories have additional chapters that I have not posted because I'm stuck on them. I will do my best when my muse visits to complete and add new chapters when I can.
Thanks for reading!