Hey everyone! How have you all been since I last updated? Good? Yeah? Okay. :3 Lol. And I have some very unfortunate news… this is the last and final chapter of Silver Sliver. I know, it's really, really depressing. At least I think it is because I really liked this fanfic. sweat drops

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Soulless

Claws ripped through the human flesh, sending blood around the wound. It had been a fatal wound, so the man was no longer a man… but a dead body. Next was neither man nor woman nor horse. Next was a child, standing not too far away. They were cowering against a hut wall; retreating from this beast. Who would have blamed them for wanting to hide?

A high pitched cream filled the frightened air from the child. The beast winced at the annoying sound. How it hurt the ears.

"Shut up," it hissed, cracking its claws; blood dripping from them.

The child began to whimper now – clearly frightened – as they knew they were trapped… that they were about to die.

"M-mommy," the child whimpered, small streams going down their cheeks.

No… mommy wouldn't help. Mommy couldn't help. She was no long amongst the living.

"M-mommy," the whimpered again, slamming their eyes shut.

"You'll see her in a moment,' the beast promised, smirking darkly.

She was dead… and in a moment they would be too.

"I promise you that."

Blood flew across the beast's face and clothes. Its claws were stained with the smell and colour… forever tainted.

This was what I had become. I was no longer me at all… but an uncaring demon.


It had been over a month. I didn't know exactly how much time had passed, but I knew that that was approximately the amount of time lost. Who knew… maybe it was longer.

I had become more angry and violent. My dark temptations seemed to be taking over me again, much like when I first became a demon. Many things didn't make sense anymore either. What was right made so much more sense then than it did now. I couldn't remember why I was here, or why I was to obey Jensuke of all people. I remembered that I hated him and that I feared him… but that was all. What was I missing? Where was the thing that was missing? Why hadn't it come back yet? What was it waiting for?

I couldn't make sense of it as I stared at my blood covered claws with furrowed brows. It used to make sense… I knew that it did. Just like how I knew I used to count how many villages got destroyed… how many wounds I had received before I returned. But now… what was counting? Did I know how anymore? Did I know anything other than killing?

When would I get my missing thing back?

--

He left the chamber that the woman had requested that he have. How long had be been in this place? It seemed like forever to him, but he knew that it wasn't because the woman was still there.

"Lord Sesshoumaru," a young girl's voice called to him.

He paused in his steps and looked back with frozen eyes. He had no use for the human female; not any other human. He didn't seem to care about anything anymore. She wasn't with him, so why should he have cared?

"I'm sorry, b-but my lady wishes to speak with you," the small girl stated as she stared down at the floor with fright.

He scared so many now.

His hoari changed to white with darker red flowers on the left shoulder and the sleeves. He had armor now and his obi was yellow with a blue design. It must have been a while since she left him… His half bred brother had lost his own mother and was now left alone as well… such a pitiful sight.

"Is it a necessity?" he questioned emotionlessly.

His amber orbs watched the female intensely. He no longer cared for what that woman wished.

"She says that it is my lord," the girl stated, still not looking at him.

He was glad. He didn't want any female of that age watching him like she had.

"Very well," he agreed reluctantly.

He knew that he didn't have a choice. It was time for that woman to understand. He would not mate with her.

"Next time do not disturb me," he stated icily as he walked past the girl to go to the princess's chamber.

It had been long enough.

--

I waited thoughtlessly in the dark chamber. Maybe it hadn't been a month… maybe it had been months… maybe years in its place. I didn't know anymore. I knew nothing anymore.

"Nina, the master calls," one of Jensuke's underlings called from the other side of the locked door, "He wishes to speak with you."

Not my master. I had no master.

Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

Unless I try to start again

My jaw clenched at the idea of Jensuke being my master. I loathed the lowly bastard. As I got to my feet, the locked door slid open and my blood red eyes glared at lime green ones.

"You know the drill," the man stated with a bored tone.

My long black hair fell down my back as I stood properly. It had grown even longer since my imprisonment.

"Why do you hate us all so much?" he questioned as he chained my wrists together.

I had known why he continued to use them. I had gone wild once in the beginning, nearly killing him and I had almost got my claws on Jensuke. He wouldn't make that mistake twice.

"Shut up," I growled threateningly.

"You'd be fun to play with if you weren't so angry," he teased as he looked back at me with a lustful look in his eyes.

"I told you to shut up," I growled again, baring my fangs.

This one was annoying to me. He was so… perverted and lustful. I don't know how many women he brought back before killing them.

"I was only kidding," he sighed as we reached Jensuke's door, "No need to get defensive."

"Keep up the attitude and I'll be sure to kill you for certain next time," I stated hatefully before the door was opened and I was pushed in.

I didn't stumble as the door shut behind me. I finally stopped falling on my own feet.

"There you are Nina," Jensuke mused as he turned away from his window to look at me, "I began to worry that you didn't come back."

I watched the demon through a glare. After it being so long he should have known that I was going nowhere.

"You look very well," he told me almost mockingly.

I was still covered in blood. My face still had dark red spatters and dried blood streams running down my cheeks. I always came back looking the same.

"What do you expect?" I murmured with furrowed brows, "I look like this each time I return."

"Why not bathe before coming to my presence?" Jensuke questioned with amusement in his tone, "Maybe then I could touch you and give you what you desire."

He was bad at hiding the truth. I knew that I didn't understand a lot of thing anymore, especially how I felt. I was too numb to feel. He knew that and would pretend it was what I wanted.

"Don't come to me when you want 'female' company you bastard," I growled, glaring at him hatefully.

"It could help you find what you're missing," he told me with a rather sly smirk on his face.

"I seriously doubt that," I stated coldly.

I didn't know what was missing, so how would I find it if I didn't know what I was looking for?

--

He opened her chamber door and once she saw him, she smiled. How he despised how she looked at him. Her eyes and mannerisms reminded him much of his deceased mother. He disliked it now – noticed it – more than ever before.

"Lord Sesshoumaru," the princess greeted him kindly, "I'm glad that you came."

His eyes narrowed slightly at her words. What would she wish to speak with him about?

"You've been here with me for almost three years now," she started with a smile on her face, "I'm grateful for your staying here for so long willingly…"

Of course he would stay willingly. He had nothing left elsewhere, just as there was nothing for him within these walls.

"I do not intend to stay for much longer," he stated emotionlessly, watching her with his golden orbs, "I was about to take my leave when you sent for me.

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

He watched as the princess's face hardly fell at all. She continued smile at him pleasantly. Did she not care at all? Had it just been to place peace between western demons and humans? Had he lost her for nothing?

"I understand your wishes, lord Sesshoumaru .I was just about to ask if there was a reason why you would not mate with me," the woman said almost lightly.

She really didn't seem to care at all. It had all been a rouse.

"There is one I desire, upon which I have lost over time," he told her emotionlessly, "I desire to see her again."

"It has been a pleasure," the princess stated with a bow, "Farwell, lord Sesshoumaru."

He gave no farewell. If it had been that long then he needed to find her.

The demon already had a hold of her… She was in danger.

--

Jensuke chuckled slightly as he turned to look back out his window. Something was amusing him.

"There is a village not too far away from here that's rather small," he stated as his voice alone showed his smirk.

"You want me to go," I stated, narrowing my eyes slightly.

"Yes, I would like you to go," he stated, "but would you be a dear and bring back a head for me?"

My jaw clenched as he said that word 'dear'. I was not his pet.

"…Whose head?" I asked reluctantly.

"The head of the village. The coward owes me a few souls in turn for the demon one he wanted," Jensuke mused slightly, "He didn't pay his dept, so now he will in full as we take back the soul he bargained for."

I turned to walk away, but before I could Jensuke grabbed the chain that tied my wrists.

"I ask you to do it because you do not owe me a dept any longer. You paid yours in full and more," he laughed into my ear, "I'm quite proud of you."

"Shut the hell up you hell bound bastard," I growled hatefully before pulling the chain away.

When I had received my full demon power, it had taken control of me and I destroyed villages and slaughtered many people. That had been my dept to be paid. Somewhere I knew that there was something else to it. The very thing that was missing and I couldn't remember. Jensuke knew it… I knew that he did.

The 'more' that Jensuke spoke of was my servitude and the extra slaughtered souls. Whatever sanity I had left was only part or what I had beforehand. Jensuke had claimed that as well… but what else was missing? What piece of me was missing that was so important?

The demon that had been waiting outside the chamber looked at me with his lime green eyes.

"Have fun," he told me as he began to undo the chains.

Maybe he was foolish enough to do the same thing twice.

"Right," I laughed as I smirked and clenched my left claw.

Once the chains fell to the ground, my right claw went straight through his stomach.

"This is next time," I mocked before taking my arm back.

He was dead.


The forest was dark as the rain poured from the night sky. Everything was soaked around me as I chased a man through the trees. I was tormenting him… enjoying it.

"Please!" he begged as I had a hold of the back of his hoari, "Please don't kill me! I'll give you anything you want!"

Pathetic. That was all this man was.

"Some village elder you are," I laughed darkly, "You don't even fight back and you're a demon."

"Oh please!" he continued to beg.

I pinned his back to a tree trunk with my claw on his throat.

"You're quite annoying," I growled; squeezing."

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not alright

So I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

Before I could crush his throat, a tight grip took hold of my wrist and I was thrown to the side; my back colliding with a tree.

"Thank you! Thank you so-"

The sound of a sword cutting through flesh was heard. As I looked up, I saw that is wasn't a sword… but rather a green whip.

"Pathetic," a cold voice stated with what sounded like annoyance, "Such vermin."

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I growled, glaring at the silver haired demon.

I couldn't see his face. All I could see was his silver hair blocking his face. That was until he turned his frozen gold orbs onto me. I watched as those golden orbs became surprised.

"Nina?" the stranger questioned with confusion.

Then my eyes widened with surprise. The thing that was missing… it was standing right in front of me now. 'S-Sesshoumaru?'

"It's been three years… Is that truly you?" he questioned again.

His tone didn't sound right. It sounded either cold or… wounded? Had it really been three years?

"Answer the question," he demanded, taking a step towards me.

My blood red eyes became cold at his motion. I remembered now.

"Stay away," I threatened with furrowed brows.

My eyes could be as cold as his.

"What have you done?" he asked me, taking another step towards me.

"Stay away from me Sesshoumaru!" I growled.

He couldn't come near me. He couldn't touch me. I couldn't' let him. I was broken now… Nina didn't exist within this monster. There was nothing left anymore.

"I don't want to have to kill you too."

Sesshoumaru almost paused for a moment. I could tell that he wasn't scared. He was far more powerful than I could ever dream to be.

"Don't follow me," I told him with a dangerous look in my eye as I walked past him and grabbed the head of the village's head.

I was gone in more ways than one.

--

He couldn't believe his eyes. His childhood friend was no longer a child anymore… she was a dangerous female. Blood had covered both her hands and face though the rain had washed away a lot.

"Foolish half breed," he murmured as he turned to the direction she had walked away in.

What had happened to her? Yes, she had grown slightly taller and her hair was longer. Her eyes… those weren't her eyes. Those had been the eyes of a predator… of a soulless being on the hunt. Did she not know anything else anymore? Had se lost sight of herself in her prison?

His feet began to follow after her. She was a free soul… she deserved to be free again. Even if he ended up dying or she hated him… he swore that he would save her from that hell.

Thirteen years ago…

He walked through the poor village with curious eyes. He had never seen the peasant village before and he was curious to see how these 'humans' lived. As he went through the market, he could hear some of their words.

"Isn't that a demon child?"

"I think it is…"

"Do you think it belongs to that other demon?"

"No, look at how he's dressed! He doesn't belong with that half breed."

Half breed? Those were real?

His mother had told him about them when he was younger. She had said that they were a filth amongst the trees; nothing more than a filth of both species. She had also said that they didn't belong to either species because they were a mix. Neither wanted to claim a half breed to their side whenever there was a chance of one being found.

Their words seemed to intrigue him. He wanted to meet this half breed.

As he walked on, he heard more clamor and nonsense from the humans. From what he saw, they were a weak race and easily frightened. They were also quick to hate.

Then he found a silent part of the poor village. There didn't seem to be anything around… nothing except the sound of chickens squawking and someone grumbling.

"Aw, come on!" he heard a small girl's voice before he heard a slam of wood. What was that child doing?

He rounded a corner and his golden orbs widened slightly. There was a young girl with long dark brown hair, chasing chickens with her claws. Did humans have claws?

"Now you're in trouble," she murmured with a grin as she lunged forward at a chicken.

He watched it run away and she fell onto her stomach.

"If you chase after two hares then you will catch neither," he stated with a small smile on his face.

The girl jumped slightly with surprise as she looked back at him. Then she made a face at him. Such a childish thing to do.

"Just because you can do it," she stated with furrowed brows, "I'll show you and all of them some day."

"Show us what?" he questioned, walking towards the girl.

"That I'm not just a pathetic half breed."

This was the half breed that the peasants were talking about? What was wrong with her? She looked perfectly fine to him.

"I never said that you were," he stated simply, holding his hand out to her, "I see nothing wrong with you."

He watched as her blue eyes widened with surprise. Apparently he caught her off guard. She didn't take his hand though as she got to her feet.

"Everyone else does," she murmured quietly, "They don't like me or father very much… but mostly not me."

Placing his hand on her head, he got her to look up at him.

"They didn't like me much either," he assured her, "They're just scared."

"Scared of what?" she asked with confusion.

"Of how great you actually might turn out to be."

She was confused by his words, but at least then he knew that she had heard them.

"How about in a few days, we meet up again?" he offered, feeling light on the inside.

He didn't know or understand why, but he really liked this little half bred child. She wanted to mean something and he had few friends.

"Like friends?" she asked with a slightly cocked brow.

"Like friends," he agreed with a nod.

How she seemed to smile at those words. Somehow, he too, managed to smile at the thought. If she wanted to mean something, then why not mean something to him? After all, he had nothing against her.

Present


I returned to Jensuke's dark estate with furrowed brows. 'How could I have forgotten why I was here? How could I forget him at all?' I asked myself with agitated confusion. 'Three years have passed… How could I have lost so much in that time frame?' At least my encounter had brought back some of my sanity. My brain was working again.

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

My blood covered hand pulled Jensuke's chamber door open and I stepped in.

"Here's your stupid head," I growled, throwing the head onto the floor in front of him, "Is that all you would like today?"

My voice was seething as I could feel my heart clench in my chest. I remembered why I hated this demon.

"Almost," he laughed as he rose to his feet.

My jaw clenched as he came closer. 'If he's not careful then my claw might accidentally go through his chest…'

"You know," he started with a chuckled, "There was no reason to kill Marin. All he had done was what he did best."

"Yeah, piss me off," I stated hatefully, "I'm going back to my chamber now."

Before I could go back out the door, Jensuke's voice pulled me out of my anger and put me into fear.

"You saw your precious demon lord again," he mused rather darkly.

It made me stop in my place. I didn't want anything to happen to Sesshoumaru.

"You know that I know, Nina," he laughed, placing his hands on my hips, "I still have your human soul."

His grip was tight on my hips and it made me worry. What was he going to do to me?

"I know," I whispered, my face becoming solemn.

"It would be really simple for you two to be together," he continued to muse as his arms wrapped around my waist, "Give me his soul, you'll get your freedom, and both of your souls will be together with me. Then you could be together for eternity."

His words were tempting at the time, but they would have turned me into an even bigger monster.

"Get your hands off me," I hissed, clenching my fists.

'I will not be a plaything to someone as disgusting as you!'

"Think about it Nina," Jensuke pressed on, "Together forever, or broken apart as you are now. Which would you prefer?"

"Neither!" I growled, pushing Jensuke back.

'I would rather die.'

"I brought you your soul owed, now leave me be."

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So, I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

With those words, I left Jensuke's chamber. He was a bastard and didn't understand at all.

It had killed me to push myself away from Sesshoumaru like that. I wanted to wrap my arms around his waist and never let go. I couldn't though. I had chosen my path… and with three years having past, I was sure that he had as well. That other female was probably already bearing young.

I wanted to break apart from it all. I wanted my claws to be untainted again. I wanted to go back and change it all around… but that would never happen. I was trapped and soulless now… There wasn't anything that I could do about that now.

Eight years ago…

I had left home some time ago. I was eleven now. A year ago I had heard about a demon that could exchange souls from anyone. I couldn't stand being a half breed any longer. For nearly three years I suffered from losing my best friend. My stupid heart couldn't take it anymore. I had to try to change that… I needed to change that.

My parents had given no argument when I left when I was nine. I could take care of myself and wouldn't come back. If they wanted another child then they would have one. It was just that simple. They didn't need me, and I knew that.

Footsteps slowed as I stopped at the doorway of a fairly large estate. It was in the middle of nowhere, but it was still there. 'Is this it?' I wondered with a cocked brow. Before I could do anything, the door opened and a lime green eyed demon looked down at me.

"What do you want?" he asked me with a suspicious stare.

Of course no one would take a child seriously.

"I wish to see Jensuke," I stated with a serious face, "Can you show me to him?"

"That depends on what's on the table," the demon told me with what sounded like boredom.

"A soul."

His mood changed then.

"Very well, follow me."

I was led down many hallways and stairs until we stopped in front of a chamber door.

"What is it Marin?" a male's voice questioned from inside.

"You have a 'customer', master Jensuke," he explained, "I think you might be pleased."

"Come in."

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

The door opened and then I was pushed inside the rather dark chamber. My eyes fell onto a man in the middle of the room and a chill was sent down my spine.

"What do you seek, little girl?" Jensuke asked, more amused than the previous demon.

"A trade," I stated, my blue eyes locking with his blood red ones, "You can take my human soul and I only want my demon one."

He seemed to smirk at the proposal.

"What's your name?" Jensuke questioned.

"Nina Hanaki," I replied, eyes unmoving.

'This man frightens me…'

"Very well Nina, I accept your proposal. But you must do something for me in return," Jensuke chuckled slightly, "To make it a fair trade since human souls are so bothersome."

"What do you want?"

"Destroying villages will become a temporary pastime for you. Each soul you kill comes to me," he explained with a slight shrug, "Then when you fall in love, you must bring me their soul as well."

'When I fall in love? I doubt that that would ever happen…'

"It's a deal," I agreed.

"Good decision little Nina."

Present

My blood red eyes stared at the wall blankly as I leaned against my chamber wall. The room was rather small and dark. It was perfect as a prison cell.

"Damn it," I cursed as the memory of seeing him kept coming to mind.

Why wouldn't it just leave me alone? Why wouldn't it just disappear?

I was supposed to feel guilty for what happened… but I didn't care at all. My conscience was still missing, and I had a feeling that it wasn't coming back.

"I need to bathe," I murmured, getting to my feet.

I was still covered in blood. It was time that I got the scent out of my nose.

--

He came to the large estate with furrowed brows.

"So it was him all along," he murmured with a clenched fist.

She was in there – in a prison cell he assumed – and was doing his bidding. Nina didn't kill freely without a purpose. When he saw it, it was normally in defense. What was her reasoning to this? Why would she possibly agree to something like this?

"What have you done?" he whispered before opening the main door and stepping inside.

--

'I can't believe this… Why did this turn into such a problem?' My eyes narrowed as I got into the warm bath. I fully submerged before scrubbing away at the blood all over my claws.

"I can't stand the smell anymore," I grumbled as I got one claw clean.

I had thought that maybe if I left the blood on me then it would remind me of what I was missing. Seeing Sesshoumaru had brought back my thoughts, but there were still many things that I was missing.

"Stupid bastard," I hissed, "He took more from me than what he needed."

I scrubbed at the blood on my face before going under and trying to wash it out of my hair.

When I came back up again, the smell of fresh blood was in the air. My ears could faintly hear some noise on the floor below. 'What is going on down there? Who's getting into a fight this time?' I temporarily ignored the noise until I was finished bathing. I had no need to rush.

Jumping out of the bath, I got dressed into a fresh dark blue hoari with light blue leaves going along the sleeves. My pants were just plain white. 'At least I get good clothes…' As I opened the door to the bathing room, the scent of more than just blood filled my nose. There was intent… and death.

"What the hell is going on?" I asked with confusion.

Maybe Jensuke had finally lost his mind…

Then my feet began to run towards Jensuke's chamber. If something was happening, then it surely involved that bastard.

--

He stood in Jensuke's chamber, blood running from a wound on his side. The demon had merely laughed once he saw him. He couldn't stand how arrogant Jensuke was. It hadn't taken long. He didn't even get covered in any lowly demon's blood. The only minor complication was the sword wound on his right side.

Many transparent orbs came from Jensuke once he was dead. One in particular floated right to him. The others he cared nothing of. The light blue soul orb came to rest in his hands and he gazed at it rather curiously. Was this all her innocence? Would she want it back? Or should he just keep it as his?

His questions were cut short as the chamber door slid open and it drew his attention. There she was; everything except her eyes and longer hair was the same. Her eyes were wide with either surprise or confusion.

"Nina," he started, taking a step towards her, "It's alright now, Nina."

She looked up at him – eyes locking – in confusion. It was like she didn't understand.

"You don't have to kill anymore. We can be together now."

Her eyes looked away from her eyes and to the light blue orb floating in his palm.

"Is that… what I think it is?" she asked with a cocked brow.

He nodded simply before putting it into his chest. He could feel her eyes on him as it went into his body. She was ultimately his now.

"B-but aren't you with that woman?" she asked, even more confused.

He shook his head as he walked to be right in front of her.

"She did not care," he stated, reaching to touch her cheek, "We are no longer with one another."

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

to show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So, I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

He could feel her emotions from her human heart. He knew how she was feeling… how confused she was. He understood almost everything.

"Why did you leave me?" he asked, eyes brooding.

Of course he was in pain, just as she had been.

"To save you," she whispered, dropping her eyes away from him, "I couldn't let him kill you… so I became a servant."

"Then I guess that makes us even," he murmured before capturing her lips in a kiss.

He knew that now he could never lose her again. There was just a lot for both of them to fix.

End of Last Chapter

Hey again! So how was it? Was it a satisfying ending? I hope it was. I don't want any people outside my house with torches or pitchforks. Peeks behind the curtains Lol. So all the chapters before this all started with P and I wanted to change it for the last chapter. :3 Did anyone else notice that? And all the songs in the chapters before this were all by Blue October and this one had Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park. Woo! I hope it fit with the chapter.

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