AN: Okay, I hope this doesn't get confusing. So I am taking away all the other chapters and I will be adding about 5 chapters of what happened before Samuel is born. This chapter will contain the middle bulk of the original first chapter, Birth, as the beginning. If you have any questions just PM me. I know this is confusing. Bare with me, please. The first three paragraphs are Bella remembering. So I am not rushing, it just her thinking. Thanks to 63bluevette for some corrections concerning Bella being pregnant. Enjoy!
I remember that night perfectly. It was near the end of August and school was about to start. Edward and I were closer than ever.
"I love you Edward." I whispered to him.
"Bella, I love you too." He kissed my lips lightly. We laid there, wrapped in each other's arms. We had just made love. I was surprised by it. He had always had boundaries, but he let them down. It was, amazing. Pure bliss. I fell asleep to him humming my lullaby.
Three weeks later was my disastrous eighteenth birthday party. Then Edward left me. He said, that he didn't want me and that I wasn't good for him. My heart was broken and I would never be the same.
Nearly three months later, I thought about all those memories as I looked at the pregnancy test. Positive. It was impossible. Edw- a pain ripped through my chest- he said that vampires couldn't reproduce. He said it was impossible. I guess he was wrong.
It took me a while to come to the possibility that I was pregnant. But after missing my period, again, I decided that it couldn't hurt to take a test. Now it told me something, that I didn't think was possible.
My breathing was shallow. My face was a unnatural pale. My hands shook and my legs gave away. I sunk to my knees and cried. I cried for my baby. It would have no father. It would have no aunts, uncles, or another set of grandparents. No, it would just have Charlie, Renee and me. That was if Charlie didn't kick me out and Renee didn't get angry.
I decided that I would go to the doctor's and get the test confirmed. I called and set up a appointment for the next day.
I entered the doctor's office and waited my turn to be called in. I was finally called in by a blond nurse, she looked familiar. She weighed me and took my temperature and blood pressure.
After she weighed me she said. "You have put on seven pounds." making a note of it on my chart. I gulped.
I went into the room she directed me to and waited again for the doctor.
He came in and smiled. "What can I do for you today Bella?" he asked.
"Do you have a strict patient-doctor confidentiality?" I asked. I couldn't have him running off telling Charlie.
He nodded, seeming confused. "Yes Bella. You are eighteen now. I can't tell anyone, not even your father, if you don't want me too. What is wrong Bella?" he was worried.
Tears came to my eyes. "I think I am pregnant."
He sighed. "Did you do a at home test?"
I nodded. "It was positive."
"Well we will do a test and we will see the results." He did the test and I had to wait thirty minutes. I waited and when the time was up, the doctor came back.
"Bella you are pregnant." He said, looking at my chart.
My shoulders slumped and the tears that had threatened all day, poured over. "This is not good."
"I am sorry Bella. There are other options." He said.
I wiped away my tears. Knowing what he meant I said, "That is not a option."
He nodded, "I just wanted to make sure you were aware of your options."
"I'm sorry, Dr. Gerandy. This is not what I wanted, at all." I told him, wrapping my arms around myself.
He nodded. "I hope everything works out for you Bella. I will write you a prescription for prenatal vitamins." He handed me the slip and I drove to the pharmacy in Port Angeles to fill it. I didn't need any one in Forks knowing.
I only had to wait fifteen minutes and then I drove back home. I hid the vitamins in my dresser and then started Charlie's dinner. I decided that I would tell him to night about it. There was no point in delaying it.
The whole time while I was making dinner thought about what the future would hold for me and this baby. I rested my hand on my lower abdomen and felt a noticeable bump. Why didn't I notice before? If I wore a tight enough shirt you could tell that I was pregnant.
What should I do? I could always try and find him, but that would be impossible. Would he have even stayed if he knew or would that just added to him wanting to leave? I would have to finish school. I had to. I thought about my small college fund and knew that it was now the baby fund.
Charlie arrived home and we, well mostly he, started eating.
"Charlie. There is something I have to tell you." I began.
He looked shocked by my amount of words. I hadn't been the most active person the past couple of months. The first week was in a state of shock. I believe the doctor said I was cationic.
"Is something wrong?" he asked, worried.
"Yes and no. Charlie, I'm pregnant." I told him calmly, there was no need to drag it out longer.
His eyes went as wide a basket balls and his face turned a interesting shade of purple. "Wh-what?"
I sighed. "I am pregnant with…with Edward's" pain "child."
"Bella how could you?" He sputtered angrily. "Is that why he left? The no good son of a-".
I cut him off. "Dad, no. Edward didn't know. I didn't know. I didn't mean too. I didn't want this. He was not suppose to be able to have children. He had…gotten sick and he became infertile because of it. I guess it's a miracle." I said, finally realizing that I had gotten pregnant by a vampire. This just added to my set of problems.
"Miracle? You think this is a miracle! Bella your life is ruined. Do you understand that? You now have no future." He took a breathe. "Bella, I want you out of this house by tomorrow. Before I get home from work. You are dead to me Bella." He got up slowly from the table.
The tears poured from my eyes. I cleared off the table and washed the dishes, crying all the while. I pulled my self together and called my mother. The phone rang a few times before she picked up.
"Hello." my mother's breezy voice answered.
I sniffed. "Hi Mom. It's Bella."
"Bella, what's wrong?" She asked.
"Mom I'm pregnant." I told her, the tears starting again.
There was silence for a minute. "Bella, I have nothing to say to you." She hung up the phone. The tears just flowed and flowed. I carried myself up the stairs and I got into the shower. I let the hot water pour over me. Too soon it was gone and I got out and got dressed.
I went into my room and started packing my things. I put all of my clothes into my duffel bag, next I packed several books. Then I grabbed my alarm clock and my grandmother's quilt and my pillow. I carried it down in several loads to my truck, being careful not to trip. I didn't want to hurt this baby because of my stupidity.
After I got everything loaded, I got into my truck and started driving. I didn't know where to go. I drove for an hour, just driving aimlessly. But I found my self driving down the long drive to the their house. It was the only place I knew where to go.
I pulled up in front of the big white house. It looked so empty, so abandoned. A lot like me. I tried the front door to find it locked. I went around to the side door and broke one of the small window panes with a rock, mentally apologizing to Esme. I unlocked the door and went in. I entered into the kitchen. I walked through the kitchen and into the living room. I saw all of the couches covered in white sheets. I also saw his piano, covered in a white sheet.
I lifted the sheet off the piano and lifted the lid. I ran my fingers over the keys, thinking of all the times Edward had sat there and played for me. I thought of my lullaby, something I hadn't thought about in months. The sweet, yet melancholy melody. His velvety voice, humming it in my ear. I shook my head and closed the lid, replacing the sheet.
I went upstairs into his room. His couch was there, also covered. All of his CDs and his stereo were gone, of course. I went over to the black couch and pulled off the sheet. It had a slight layer of dust on it. I wiped it off, laid down on it and inhaled. It smelled exactly like him. Instead of the usual pain, I felt comforted by the smell. I felt my lips tremble and my body shake as I cried.
I cried for losing him. I cried to my baby and told he or she that I was sorry that I wasn't good enough to keep it's father here. After a while I sat up and wiped away my tears. I went down the stairs slowly and got my things from my truck. I carried them up to his room.
I laid the quilt on the couch and put my pillow there. I got out my bag of bathroom stuff and went into the bathroom. I didn't expect for the water to be on and running, but it was. This surprised me and I brushed my teeth and washed my face. I went back into the room and plugged in my clock. I looked my watch and set the time and then set the alarm. I changed out of my clothes and put on a large t shirt and sweat pants.
I wasn't tried so I decided to look around the room. I opened the door that led to the closet. I exhaled sharply when I saw several things in side. There were several shirts. I grabbed one and inhaled.
It smelled perfect, just like him. I took off my t shirt and slipped on his. It was big on me and I smiled, knowing that I would grow into it. Next I saw a small black box. I picked it up and saw that it was labeled "Pictures". I opened it and saw all of the pictures that were taken that summer. I put the lid back on and set the box down, saving it till later.
I turned back to the closet and found several burned CDs. I picked them up and set them on top of the box. I took the box and CDs over to the couch and started going through them. I got out my portable CD player and put in one of the unmarked CDs. The first song to come on was Clair De Lune. I smiled sadly and opened the box of pictures.
There many pictures of the Cullen family. Of course, they were all beautiful and the pictures captured them perfectly. When I would appear in a picture, I would be frowning while Alice played with my hair and make up or smiling as I messed around with Emmett. There were quiet a few of me with different groupings of Cullen's. One was of even of Jasper and me. I was standing on the opposite side of the room, while Jasper was on the other side, we shared a air hug.
There were quite a few where I had just tripped or was in the process of. Then I started finding ones of Edward. I found one of my favorites. He was playing the piano, not knowing the picture was being taken. He had a serene look on his face. The next picture he was still at the piano, but this time he was smiling. He was beautiful and god like. My angel. A pain tore through my body, but it was stopped like something or someone had stopped it.
I looked to the bump on my stomach. Did the baby stop that? I thanked the baby and continued looking through the pictures. I found ones of me, and some of Edward, but only one of both of us together.
We were on the couch, laying down. Edward was behind me with his arm over me. I was asleep but Edward was propped up by his other arm, just watching me. There was the look in his eyes. The look of love as he gazed down at me.
There were more pictures of us. I knew there was. I remember them but they weren't here. It was like some one had taken them. I decided that they must have gotten lost or misplaced. I took off my head phones and set the box on the floor. I pulled the quilt over me and fell asleep, my hand resting on my stomach.
The next day at school, every one was shooting me odd looks. They were constantly whispering to each other, when I walked past. They couldn't possibly know. Could they? I didn't tell any one but Charlie, Renee and the doctor. Wait, the blond nurse at the doctor's office, she looked a lot like Lauren. How could I forget? I mentally kicked my self. Lauren's mom was a nurse at the doctor's office. She must have seen the test results and, like her daughter, couldn't resist the urge to gossip.
I should sue.
So they knew, that was not good. It was hard enough, with my parents basically disowning me, but to add the stress of people talking about me was going to kill me.
I was able to survive through the morning, but lunch was something else, entirely. With every single Forks High student with their eyes on me, I sat down at my usual table with Angela and Ben. Angela didn't even mention anything, as people whispered and glared.
I had to know. "Angela, what are they all talking about?"
She shifted, uneasily in her chair. "There's a rumor going around that your..." she lowered her voice, "pregnant."
I sighed, my face dropped into my hands. "Great." I took several calming breaths.
"Well look at what we have here," the all too familiar, nasty and nasally voice said. I brought my head up to look at Lauren. She flipped her blond hair behind her shoulder. "I heard your knocked up, is it true?" She answered her own question, "of course it's true. At least we all know why Edward left you." She laughed evilly.
That was the last straw for me. I stood up and sent my fist into Lauren's nose. I smiled as she screamed and blood poured out of her nose. I mentally thanked Emmett for teaching me how to throw a good punch. I caught a whiff of the blood and my stomach turned. I breathed in through my mouth, pushing down the nausea the best I could.
One of the teachers, grabbed my arm and took me to the principle, Mr. Greene's, office. Lauren was brought in right after me. The nurse check out her nose, confirming that it was broken. I smiled inwardly. Lauren was told to take a seat. She sat several seats down from me.
She sat there, speechless. Mr. Greene called me into the office first. I sat down in one of the two chairs, that faced his desk.
He sat down and folded his hands. "Miss. Swan what seems to be the problem?"
I crossed my arms. "Lauren said something really rude to me. I didn't appreciate what she said and I guess my temper got the best of me."
"What did she say, that made you so mad?" He asked.
I looked away from him, biting my lip in effort to help hold back the tears. "It doesn't matter what she said."
He sighed. "If you don't tell me what she said, then I am going to have to give you five days out of school suspension. Miss. Mallory will only get two days detention."
"What?" I whipped my head around to face him.
"Well since, you hit her and unless Miss. Mallory tells me something different, you didn't really have a reason to hit her. I know how girls can get and if she said something, then you need to tell me." He pulled out several papers and set them in front of him. "Miss. Mallory, can you come in here?"
Lauren walked in. Her nose had stopped bleeding, but it was now swollen and starting to bruise. She had cotton balls shoved up her nose to help stop the blood. "I didn't do anything Mr. Greene." Her already nasally voice was twice as bad now. I nearly laughed. "Bella hit me for no reason."
I couldn't take it. If I was going down, then so was Lauren. "Mr. Greene, Lauren made reference to why..." I took a deep breathe, "Ed-edward left me." Mr. Greene knew of what happened to me after he left me.
"And that is why you hit her?" He asked, eying Lauren. I nodded my head. "Alright then, Miss. Swan you will be getting two days out of school suspension. Miss. Mallory, you will be getting five days out of school suspension."
"What?" Lauren yelled.
"You incited a fight, verbally assaulted and harassed, Miss. Swan. Also, you caused a disruption to the lunch hour." He turned to look at me. "While Miss. Swan shouldn't have hit you, she was only retaliating to your harassment. She was some what justified in her actions." Lauren crossed her arms and mumbled something under her breath. "I am going to call your parents now." He picked up the phone.
Was Charlie even going to come down? He did say he wanted nothing to do with me. I wasn't that mad at Charlie for kicking me out. It hurt, a lot, that he did. But he was angry with me. My stomach was twisted into knots. Mr. Greene hung up the phone and sent Lauren and I out to wait.
She turned to me, "You are going to regret this, Bella."
I half smiled, "Who has the broken nose? Oh, that's right you do." I turned to face her, glaring. "If you ever say anything about that again, I will break a lot more than your nose."
She sat there speechless. A few minutes later, her mother walked in. I was right, it was the nurse from the doctor's office. They went into Mr. Greene's office, when they came back out I went up to Mrs. Mallory.
"Mrs. Mallory, I am telling Dr. Gerandy that you broke the patient confidentiality. You have just caused me so much grief." I narrowed my eyes at her.
She gulped. "Why would you do that Bella?"
"Because now the entire town, probably knows that I am pregnant. That was my personal business. You are a horrible gossiper. One day it's going to come back at you, ten fold."
She glared at me, so did Lauren, as they walked out of the office. Charlie came in right after they left. He merely glanced at me as he walked into Mr. Greene's office. I followed behind him, tripping on my way there. Charlie caught me and set me upright. I tried to thank him, but he turned away from me and sat down.
"Chief Swan, as I said on the phone, Lauren Mallory provoked Bella. Bella told me what Lauren said, in so many words. But, I was wondering if you could explain more on why Bella would be so upset." Mr. Greene said to my father.
Charlie replied, "Bella's pregnant, this girl probably said something pertaining to that."
Mr. Greene's eyebrows rose. "Well, that changes things. I assume you two have talked about this."
I shook my head. "Not really, I'm not living at my Dad's right now."
"Oh, well. Bella I would like to talk to you about what is going to happen." Mr. Greene said. I nodded my head. "Well, you will leave school when you reach eight months and then you can finish at home or you can work really hard, take your finals before you leave. We can discuss this more later. Right now, Bella I want you to go home. You can not come to school tomorrow or the next day and you will not be allowed to make up your work for your classes."
"Okay," I said.
He handed Charlie a paper. "I need you to sign this and Bella needs to sign it too."
"What is this?" Charlie asked.
"It just says that you are fine with the punishment that Bella is getting and you are aware of it as her parent."
Charlie nodded his head and signed the paper, handing it to me. I signed it and gave it to Mr. Greene. We all stood up.
"Sorry for the trouble." Charlie said, shaking Mr. Greene's hand.
"Bella, I would like to talk to you when you come back." Mr. Greene told me.
"Alright. Sorry, Mr. Greene." I said honestly.
He smiled. "We all make mistakes." His words had a double meaning. Charlie nearly ran out of the room and I followed him out. He never turned around, he just got into his cruiser and drove away. I quickly brushed away the tears. I got into my truck and drove to the white mansion in the woods.
Some of you are confused about what I am doing. The story is staying the same. I am just added a few chapters to the beginning. I just feel like there are too many unanswered questions. This is mostly because I am OCD and I major problems. HAHA! But I hope you all enjoy.