I haven't written a story actually about my breakup...this one was inspired by it...that's the best you'll get. You all can blame my computer's playlist for playing "Tonight I Wanna Cry" by Keith Urban...

Rating: K+

Genre: Angst (Imagine that...)

Title: Tonight I Wanna Cry


I'm so good at hiding all of this pain. Nobody knows the real feelings inside of me. I haven't opened up to anybody since you left that day. You haven't looked back since. I haven't shed a tear in front of anybody since that day. I can't let them see how weak I am on the inside.

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I pulled the wine bottle from the fridge. That one we were saving for our wedding. Yea baby, that bottle you left here when you left me. You won't return any of my calls or messages...what else am I suppose to do with it right? I didn't even bother with a glass as I popped the cork from the bottle.

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

My body trembled slightly as tears left my eyes. I glanced over at the TV, on it was an old black and white American movie. I don't know what it's called. It was one of your favorites. I never actually watched it with you like I always said I would. I'm sorry I never lived up to m promise to you. I'm watching it now...too late thought, isn't it?

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

It's too late to change. It's obvious I messed up one too many times. I want so badly to get rid of those pictures of us over the years. I can't though. It's all I've got left of you. You only told me to ship your things to you. You won't even come over to go through your stuff...

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I set the bottle on the table. It was more then half empty then. Why can't I stop thinking about you? It hurts so much. Why can't I stop loving you? I want you back more then I've ever wanted anything in my life. Why can't you see that? Why won't you love me? I finally broke down and curled up to cry...I miss you...and I'll never forget you Michiru.

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry