The One With The Breakup

By: Jana

--"I will always care about you, but my feelings for you, have changed. They're not enough to sustain this level of a relationship."

"Please don't leave me. I won't be able to live through it. Please."

"You will. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for."

"No, please, I know- I know I won't. Just, tell me what I need to do, to keep you here. I'll do, anything. Everything. If you want to sleep with other people, you can, so long as you come home to me. If you never want to have sex with me again, fine, just, hold me in your arms at night until morning. Just, please, don't leave me."

"It's not about that."

"What about the twins?"

"I'll come by and visit them often, I promise. Every day, if I can."

"They're not going to want you to leave."

"I can't stay."

"Yes, you can! Whatever this is, we'll work it out!"

"It's not a problem to be solved, Monica. Feelings can't be solved."

"Chandler, I'm begging you. If you ever cared for me- If you ever loved me- If you care at all for me now, even in the slightest, you won't do this to me. To us."

"I did love you, and I do care about you, but to stay… it wouldn't be right. Not while I'm feeling like this."

"Are you in love with someone else?"

"No."

"We've been together 18 years! Fifteen in a marriage! You can't just throw that all away!"

"You think this is easy for me? You think I haven't been dreading this moment? You think it's easy for me to see you cry? It's not! But, I can't live like this anymore!"

"Like what? Haven't I been a good wife? A good mother to our children?"

"You're an excellent mother, and yes, you've always been a good wife."

"Then, whatever else, is workable!"

"No, it's not. I'm not in love with you anymore. I want to be. I've tried to be! But, I'm not. I haven't been for a while now. I'm just going through the motions of life now, and that's not enough. It's not for me, and it shouldn't be for you, either."

"But that's not what I'm doing! I still love you!"

"I'm sorry."

"Chandler, please. Please, God, please, don't do this."

"I have to. Let go of me, Monica, I have to go. The taxi's waiting."

"I can't. I can't let go of you. You'll have to physically remove me."

"Call the gang, Monica, as soon as I walk out the door. Promise me."

"Ok."

"You're going to be ok. I know you will. The hurt will ease in time."

"You only want to believe that, to make this easier on yourself."

"Maybe."

"My heart will never recover from this, Chandler. You've just sentenced me to death."

"Don't talk like that. This isn't the end of the world."

"It's the end of mine."

"I have to go--"

"Chandler! Please! Please. Don't. Please."

"Goodbye."

"Chandler!! God. Oh, God. God, please. Nooo"

Author's Note:

I've been dwelling on my husband leaving me lately, and had a dream an hour ago, that had the first four lines (of dialog) in this fic in it. I woke up abruptly, and this poured out of me.

This is not how my husband left me. He wasn't so kind. He told me he was leaving me in a phone call. Some of the begging from Monica, was from my real life nightmare, though. Pathetic, I know.

I wasn't planning on making this into a series, but if there is an interest in seeing it be one, I will see what I can do.

Still working on the next chapter of 'Big Secret', don't worry. Still in a bad place, and because of it, have had a touch of writer's block.

Please review, and MTLBYAKY