Waiting On the World to Change
You watch him grab for tools you don't know the names of and work on your motorcycles. Every once in a while, he glances up at you as he talks to make sure you're listening... and you are. You hang on his every word and listen to him rant about school, Billy, and his friends.
Day after day, you sit in the Rabbit and drink soda as he works. Every time you catch his soft brown eyes looking at you, your heart beats a little faster and you smile a little wider.
When Embry and Quil join you in the garage during one of Jacob's breaks, you scoot a little closer to him than you were before. He always smile at you and wraps a arm around your shoulder.
You almost feel bad for giving him hope that things could become more than what they are. But you don't stop, because a small part of you wants to believe you could be more than just the friends you've become. That maybe, just maybe he'll be able to heal your broken heart and make you whole again.
When you stay for dinner with him and Billy, it feels like home in the cramped space. And when you tell him you should be getting home, he offers to walk you to your old, beat up truck. He rests his hand on the small of your back when he leads you out the front door and it gives you a butterfly sensation in your stomach.
After you get in, he shuts the door of your truck and smiles.
Tomorrow? he asks hopefully and your heart flutters. A slight pang of guilt hits you for feeling this way, but you can't help it.
Tomorrow, you say. He smiles and you can't help but smile back at him. He waves at you from the driveway until you're out of sight.
He shows up at your house in the pouring rain to make sure your truck will make it to school. He knows you've been having trouble with it lately and he wants you to be safe.
You smile and assure him it will be fine, but he follows you in his car just to make sure. And when you arrive at school and he waves goodbye, Jessica asks if he's your boyfriend. You say no, that he's just friend. She just smiles and nods, but you know she thinks it's something more.
You go to hug him goodbye after you finish your first study session, but he kisses you instead. You don't move for a moment, because you haven't decided whether or not you're ready for this. But you know it's now or never, so you kiss him back.
He smiles against your lips and you don't regret your decision. When he asks you to go out on a date with him, you only hesitate for a second before saying yes.
On your first date he treats you to a movie and ice cream afterwards. It's a perfect night and you laugh at every joke he makes and smile when he catches your eye.
When he orders the ice cream cones, he remembers your favorite flavor and how you like two scoops, because one just isn't enough. He also knows to grab extra napkins, because you're clumsy and you're likely to make a mess. Normally, you wouldn't find this adorable, but tonight, it's perfect.
He gives you a silver ring for Valentine's Day, a promise ring he calls it. You smile at the sweet gesture and allow him to slip it onto the ring finger of your left hand.
I promise we'll always be together, Bella, he says as he kisses your lips softly. You don't know what to say in return, so you just kiss him back and that seems like more than enough to him.
When you lie out on the beach, watching the waves crash against the sand he holds your hand in his. Your breathing is even and you're both lost in your own worlds.
You're sure that this is what it's supposed to be like, being in love. And you think maybe, just maybe this time it will be different. Maybe this one won't break your heart like the last one did. Maybe he'll turn out to be perfect for you... or maybe not.