Ta-da! Chapter 10!

Thank you Rain of Mystery for the ideas and usage of your AMAZING characters!

Names from last chapter



Mara'hene-Mother's Angel

And now I give you Chapter 10.

Deadly depression

Three days had passed since the birth of the pups. Lex'xia's depression had a tight hold on her. For the most part she ignored everyone and everything. The extent of her interaction with the pups was feeding them. Even then she held no true interest for them.

About a week after the pups were born, Lex was finally up and moving. Though she still didn't show much interest in anything. She would walk around their home almost blindly, not caring about what was around her. She barely ate at all, and wouldn't even look outside.

At night Mar'tokk would feel her get out of bed. She would go sit in the rocking chair next to the pups, softly crying as she stared at them.

The loss of the last pup weighed heavily on Mar'tokk's mind, but seeing his mate like this made it feel as though someone were trying to rip out his heart. This is not what he imagined it would be like after the pups were born. He had thought that they would be a lot happier for one thing. He wouldn't go hunting unless he was absolutely needed so he could be home with them. She would come running to him with that gorgeous and goofy smile she always got when she was excited, and tell him about one of the pups doing something funny or making a silly gurgle that meant absolutely nothing. They would spend all the time they cared to with their family and friends and no one would ever interfere, and nothing bad would happen. But life had other plans, and he just couldn't figure them out. Lex didn't deserve this. Her life had been trying enough and she just started to get it back together. Why add more pain? He just didn't understand, but somehow he had to make this better.

It was a particularly gloomy night. After laying down for only a few hours, Mar'tokk once again felt Lex crawl out of bed to go sit by the pups. Her soft crying was heard not a minute after. She sat there for ten minutes, staring at the pups and crying. Mar'tokk then heard the bedroom door open and close. He assumed she was going to the kitchen to get a drink, as she did every so often. He closed his eyes to try and get back to sleep, but in the back of his mind there was the awful feeling that something was horribly wrong. He rushed down the stairs to the kitchen only in time to see a smart disc cut across Lex's left wrist.

"WHAT IN PAYA'S NAME ARE YOU DONG?" He roared, rushing over to her and yanking the smart disc out of her hands. Lex only began to cry harder. Mar'tokk tossed the smart disc away and grabbed a towel off the counter. He wrapped the towel around Lex'xia's wrist and applied pressure. After a minute he removed to towel and examined the cut. It was barely a graze and already stopped bleeding for the most part. Mar'tokk got a med kit out of a cupboard and began dressing the wound. Lex stared wide eyed at her wrist. The crying became choking sobs.

"What are you crying for? It's barely a scratch." He said not looking up from his task. The sobs turned into quiet sniffles. Mar'tokk picked Lex'xia up and carried her to their room. He set her in the bed then crawled in after her.

The next morning Mar'tokk called Lex's father and told him what had happened.

"I just can't believe it. What in Paya's name was she thinking?" He said shaking his head. Mar'tokk sighed.

"Not a damn thing, that's what. The pups death has really taken it's toll on her. I think she's afraid to be close with the other two." He said.

"Well there's nothing to do for that. The pups need their mother. Speaking of mothers, have you told yours?" Sol'kaar asked. Mar'tokk shook his head.

"No. I know the second I do she'll be down here, and I will once again be stuck in the spare room." He said. A fleeting smirk came across Sol'kaar's face.

"I can imagine. Never the less, she must be told. I shudder to think about the terrifying horrors that would await you if you didn't tell her. Your mother seems to think that Lex'xia is her daughter, not mine." He said.

"It does seem that way." Mar'tokk said with a sigh. He and Sol'kaar spoke for a few more minutes then said goodbye. Mar'tokk made the call to his mother. Of coarse she was over in a matter of seconds, but Mar'tokk managed to convince her that she didn't need to stay.

At sundown Meh'kaga went home. Mar'tokk made his way to the bedroom. Lex was sitting up straight in bed. When he knocked on the door she looked up at him. Her skin was pale and her face was emotionless. Mar'tokk went and sat on the edge of the bed next to her, she didn't move. He leaned over and kissed her forehead, running his mandibles through her hair. She muttered something he could not understand. He pulled back and looked at her.

"What was that?" He asked. She looked up at him, tears brimming at the edges of her eyes.

"I'm sorry." She said with a sniff. Mar'tokk looked at her.

"It's not your fault Dej'en. Things happen that no one can control." He said soothingly. She shook her head.

"I'm such a coward, trying something like that." She choked out. Lex started crying again. Mar'tokk held her close as she did. Eventually she fell asleep in his arms. Mar'tokk scooted her over and laid next to her, soon falling asleep himself.

The next morning Mar'tokk woke up to find that Lex'xia was not in bed. As a matter of fact she wasn't anywhere in the house at all. He flew down the stairs to the large communication screen and immediately called his mother.

"What's wrong now?" She asked him.

"Lex isn't here! She's not anywhere in the house or garden! Have you heard from her at all?" He said frantically. Meh'kaga's eyes grew wide. She shook her head.

"No. And you father isn't home right now either, he's on a hunt. Have you tried Sol'kaar?" She asked.

"Not yet, I'll try him next." He said disconnecting with his mother. He called Sol'kaar.

"Yes she's here." He said before Mar'tokk could even ask him. He let out a relieved sigh.

"Oh thank Paya!" He said.

"Mar'tokk, she doesn't want to come home." Sol'kaar said. Mar'tokk looked at him.

"What?" He asked confused.

"She told me she doesn't want to go home. Though, she seems happy now. It's like she was never depressed in the first place. She's dancing and singing like a fool." Sol'kaar said. Mar'tokk groaned, laying his head in his hands. He looked up at his father-in-law.

"Sol she's not happy, she's drunk." He said. It was Sol'kaar's turn to be confused.

"Drunk? She couldn't be, I don't have any liquor in the house. I drank it all last weekend." He said sheepishly.

"I imagine she took mine." Mar'tokk said to him. Sol'kaar gave an 'oh' expression.

"I'll be there soon to get her." He said. Sol'kaar nodded and they disconnected.

Sol'kaar lived right down the street, which happened to be Mar'tokk and Lex'xia's old home. Sol had the door open before he could even knock.

"You have got to see this!" He exclaimed. Mar'tokk followed Sol to his kitchen. When they reached the kitchen Sol motioned for Mar'tokk to look inside.

There she was, just a' dancing and singing. Just like the first time she had been drunk. And there on the kitchen table was his liquor bottle, nearly empty. He started to walk to the table but Lex noticed and beat him to it. She turned to him and promptly started to cry.

"Its all my fault! I did something wrong! I know I did! I didn't eat right, or exercise enough, or maybe I didn't drink enough water!" She wailed, uncontrollably sobbing now. Mar'tokk shook his head.

"It was no more your fault as it was the winds Lex'xia. Paya wanted her for something greater. Now come on, let's go home." He said reaching out to her.

"No!" She yelled. "I'm not going back! I cant. I can't do it, I can't take care of them! I'll kill them! Just like I did the other one! They're better off with just you. Maybe you can find another mate, one whose better than me and she can take better care of them." She said, the last bit barely a whisper. Mar'tokk's eyes flew open, he had had enough. He knocked the bottle out of her hand and grabbed her by her right wrist.

"That is enough!" He roared. Lex tried to cower away, but Mar'tokk kept a firm grip on her wrist.

Sol'kaar backed away. He did not want to see this happen, but it had to be done. He knew Mar'tokk would not hurt her.

"You are coming home." He said firmly. Lex hung her head in defeat. As they walked out, Mar'tokk nodded his head at Sol'kaar who returned the gesture.

When they got home Meh'kaga was waiting with the pups.

"Put them down for their nap and go home." Mar'tokk told his mother curtly. She opened her mouth to argue. "Just do it, please." She nodded and did as he asked. He and Lex went up to the spare room. Lex sat on the windowsill and stared out into the garden. She would not come out of that room for two days.

On the second day Malee came to visit with Go'lee. Mar'tokk opened the door for her.

"Good morning Malee." He said. Malee looked at the pup he was holding and gasped.

"You give me that pup! Your holding him wrong! You have to support his head!" She screeched at him as she scooped the pup out of his arms. Adohi began to whimper. Mar'tokk went over and tried to shush her and gave her a bottle before she really got to crying. He looked at Malee.

"I can't do this by myself Malee," He started.

"I can see that." She snapped.

"But she won't come out of that room. I don't know what to do." He sighed.

Meanwhile as Malee and Mar'tokk were talking

Go'lee snuck up the stairs while his mother took care of the pups and talked to Mar'tokk. He wandered down the hall to Lex and Mar'tokk's bedroom but found it was empty. He went to the spare room next. Opening the door he saw Lex sitting on the windowsill.

"Miss Lex?" He called. Lex looked at him and gave a weak smile.

"Hey, there's my little hunter. It's been a while Go'lee. How are you?" She said quietly. Go'lee ran over to her and climbed into her lap.

"I'm Ok. But what about you? Why do you look so sad? Did that big idiot hurt you? If he did I'm gonna go kick him in the shin again!" He said.

"No, no he didn't. I promise." She told him. He looked at her confused.

"Then what's the matter?" He asked her.

"Oh I guess I just feel a little lost right now, that's all." She said. Go'lee gave her an even more confused look.

"Lost? How could you feel lost? Your in your own house!" He exclaimed. Lex'xia laughed. Her first real laugh in weeks. Go'lee then got a look on his face as though he suddenly remembered something. He pulled a little pouch off of his belt and handed it to Lex. Lex opened the small pouch and poured out four matching necklaces. Each one was made of leather cord and wood beads. The largest bead had each first initial and a letter G for Gel'trak on them.

"I made these for you and the pups. And even though I didn't really wanna but mama made me, there's one for Mar'tokk too." He said, seeming rather displeased at the fact that Malee had made him make one for Mar'tokk. She smiled, putting on her own.

"Thank you Go'lee, these are wonderful. I love them, and I'm sure Mar'tokk and the pups will too." She said happily giving Go'lee a hug.

"I think we should go downstairs now Miss Lex." He said hopping out of her lap dragged her to the door. She stopped dead. Go'lee looked at her.

"What's the matter Miss Lex?" He asked.

"I'm scared." She said quietly.


"I don't know."

"Want me to hold your hand? That's what mama does when I'm scared." Go'lee asked Lex. Lex nodded. So Go'lee took her hand and they went down the stairs together.


"She absolutely refuses to come out." Mar'tokk said to Malee.

"Um, hi guys." Lex said. Mar'tokk and Malee both spun to see Lex standing in the entranceway to the living room, holding Go'lee's hand. Lex walked over to Mar'tokk and took hold of Adohi. She walked over and sat on the couch, Go'lee sitting next to her. She took out Adohi's necklace and placed it on her daughter's neck. Lex kissed her daughter then handed her to Go'lee, who accepted the child carefully. She looked at Malee, who then brought Notax to her. She held her son and put his necklace on, and kissed him as well.

"My pups, I'm so sorry. I've been so selfish hiding away like that. I'm done, no more of that. She cooed at them. Mar'tokk sat by his mate, wrapping an arm gently around her waist. He kissed her head.

"It's good to have you back." He said. Lex smiled.

"It's good to be back." She said. She looked at her pups. They were so beautiful.

-And I'm here for you now, Always and forever.-

Hope you guys enjoyed it!

And now something I feel is very important to say:

You people out there who flame-SCREW OFF!

It is unbelievable the things some of you say to other writers! Down right rude and mean! Just because someone isn't writing at a novelists level does not give you the right to criticize them as one! People here are writing for the fun of it. To some it is a means of relieving stress, not to be recognized for their talent(or lack of). If you don't like someone's story then that's fine, just leave them be. There's no need to rag on them about it! Nine times out of ten, that person knows that they're not the best. They keep writing because they don't care, its FUN!

And another thing I've noticed- most flamers I've come across don't even write themselves! What the F! What the HELL makes you think you have ANY right whatsoever to rag on someone who does? You have less right to do that than a flamer who does write! You are the people who should be pushed off the Empire State Building, run over by a semi, and drug 18 blocks before being shot in the head with a 30/30! You are the foulest things on the face of this planet and I bite my thumb at you.

Now, to the people who do offer constructive criticism and help(in a nice way), I thank you. I know there are some people out there who are against you, but I do thank you. The above statements were in no way, shape, or form meant for you.

EDIT 5/29/20011: I appreciate all the kind reviews! Also, to clear up some confusion, the above rant was not formed in the event of someone flaming me. It happened because of a flamer who razzed on a good friend of mine that used to be on the site. The friend has since stopped writing her fics here, but has continued on other sites. Again, thanks sooo much! Hopefully I will be updating my other stories and have some new ones ready soon!