I write too much.
Brooke Davis has almost everything she wants. Almost. But the one person she really needs... is dead. Nathan Scott. Death date 23/03/08. He died before she got to tell him how she felt.
So she wrote it in a letter and posted it to him.
MY ONLY HOPE
I am writing this partially because I need to get this out, and partially because no one will ever read it. Except you, of course, Nate, but you were always nosey so it wouldn't surprise me if you have been reading the letters Peyton sends to her Mom.
I bet you didn't expect to get a letter. Haley definitely wouldn't, she's not into this stuff. I don't think she's visited you, but you know that better than me.
I have been. Late at night. I sleep there, beside the grave. I stay there for hours, crying and talking to you. But of course you know that too. I hope you do. My only hope is that you can hear me.
Nathan, I think we need to sort a few things out. Human to Ghost. Living to Dead.
First of all, the tape. Junior Year? I was absolutely fine with that, you know, recording that. But I'll let you in on a secret, which is why I said 'I can't believe I'm doing this'. You were my first. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
I don't think you realized, but when I made out with guys that was as far as we went. I just pretended to fit in with Peyton and you.
Secondly, Haley hasn't cried a tear. I don't know why, but you probably do. Now I'm the nosey one, but could you tell me? It seems a bit unnatural. You can confide in me. I won't tell.
Anyway, I've been listening to a few of Mia's songs, and I see myself and you and how I feel about you in them. You check them out.
As high as the moon
So high were my spirits
When you sang out my name
And coming from you
It was enough just to hear it
Oh, it rang like the bells did today
Just to hear you say my name, was like song. I have it on recording in my phone, and I've played it numerous times.
God I love you.
And as far as your lack of something to say
Well, to tell me goodbye there was no better way
So don't keep me up till the dawn
With words that'll keep leading me on
I know much better than to wait for an answer from you
A bit ironic. I know it was stupid. To wait for you to answer. to stay at your grave until dawn.
God, I do love you.
i'm always yours
You Are My Only Hope.