This is definitely more angsty than most things I write. It's inspired by the song 'I Can Love You Like That' by John Michael Montgomery or All-4-One. I'm not sure who made it first. Anyway, I hope you like it.
Olivia knocked on the door to Alex's office. She kept telling herself that she was here because she need to go over a case with Alex, but they could have done that over the phone. Olivia came because she wanted to see Alex. The ADA hadn't been coming around the precinct very often for the past month and Olivia missed her. Of course she'd never tell Alex that.
"C'min," Alex sighed.
Olivia heard the tiredness in Alex's voice as she opened the door. She saw that Alex was leaning heavily on her desk and her eyes looked like she hadn't slept for days.
"Are you okay?" Olivia asked, genuinely concerned.
Alex couldn't even force a smile, "Yeah, I'm fine."
Olivia smiled gently trying to incite one from Alex, "Somehow I don't believe you."
The detective's attempt worked and Alex let out a small smile. "Somehow you're right." Alex gestured to the chair in front of her.
Olivia sat down in the chair and studied Alex. Alex's eyes were not just tired, they were sad. Olivia's heart ached for Alex, "Do you want to talk about it?"
"Um…" Alex paused, "Not right now."
Olivia nodded. She really wanted to know what was hurting Alex and find out a way to fix it. She'd never admit it if anyone asked, but she'd realize a long time ago that she cared for the blonde ADA, more than co-workers and more than friends. "How about after we go over the case, we go to dinner?"
Alex looked questioningly at the brunette sitting in front of her.
"I'm not going to try to interrogate you into telling me what's wrong," Olivia added, "It's just dinner."
Alex smiled fully, "Okay."
They finished going over the case an hour later and made their way to a restaurant down the street. They shared a small booth close to the bar.
They ordered then sat silently. Alex was looking thoughtfully at her hands. She took a deep breath and looked at Olivia, "Can I ask you for some advice?"
"What kind of advice?" Olivia asked with a smile.
"Relationship advice," Alex replied looking back down at her hands.
Olivia chuckled, "I might not be the best person to ask, but I'll try my best."
Alex let a brief smile cross her lips before it faded away, "How do you know if you should stay in a relationship?"
"Can you be more specific?" Olivia asked.
"I've been dating Charlie for a while," Alex added, not able to look at Olivia, "And we've been having problems."
"What kind of problems?" Olivia urged her on. She was definitely disappointed that Alex was seeing someone.
Alex shrugged, "Charlie…gets really jealous sometimes. And I don't think I've done anything to deserve it."
"Like possessive jealous?" Olivia asked, carefully. She'd heard this countless times from victims and never thought she'd hear their tough-as-nails ADA confess anything like this.
Alex took a deep breath and nodded.
"Has Charlie ever done anything…physical to you?" Olivia asked.
"No," Alex answered quickly, "Charlie would never do that. It's just…Charlie makes me feel guilty sometimes." Alex paused, "If someone came up to me and told them this, I wouldn't think twice about telling them to move on, but Charlie's so…sometimes Charlie's so sweet and so caring."
"Do you love Charlie?" Olivia asked, dreading the answer.
Alex met Olivia's eyes. They were unsure and questioning, "I could." Suddenly, Alex's eyes filled with tears and she tried desperately to blink them back.
Olivia flagged down their waiter and had him make their orders to go. Once they had their food, Olivia put her arm around Alex who was shivering trying to keep the tears in. Olivia drove Alex to back to her own apartment because Alex wasn't really talking anymore.
Olivia ushered Alex upstairs and set her on the couch, while she put the food away. When she returned, Alex was staring at the coffee table with a tear streaked face.
At that moment, Olivia wanted to find this Charlie person and personally beat the shit out of him. Her heart broke for Alex. She sat on the couch next to Alex and wrapped her arms around the sobbing blonde.
"I'm sorry," Alex whispered with her head on Olivia's shoulder.
"Don't be," Olivia replied stroking her hair, "It's not your fault."
Alex took a deep breath trying to quell the tears. She shook her head and pulled out of Olivia's embrace, "I-I can't…I have to go." Alex stood and made her way to the door.
"Alex," Olivia stood, "Wait. Let's just talk about this."
Alex paused at the door. "Charlie's going to be mad."
Olivia tentatively took Alex's hand, "Why?"
"Because I'm here," Alex replied, "With you."
Olivia was confused, but backed Alex to the couch and sat her back down, "Why?"
"Because Charlie gets jealous," Alex's eyes filled with tears, "And yells and throws things. Then says 'I'm so sorry. I'll never do it again.'"
Olivia held Alex close again, "Is it worth it?"
Alex started to sob again, "What am I going to do?"
"It's up to you," Olivia soothed her, "But there are so many other people who would consider themselves lucky to have you and who would trust you." Olivia knew that when she said 'so many other people' she was talking about herself, but now was not the time to confess her feelings for the young ADA.
"Can I," Alex paused, "Can I…stay with you tonight?"
"Of course sweetheart," Olivia replied.
Alex sniffed and wiped her eyes. She pulled away from Olivia and looked into her eyes, "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to ruin dinner."
"You didn't ruin it," Olivia smiled, "It's still in the refrigerator." Olivia patted Alex's leg and stood up, "I'll go get it."
After they sat on the couch eating for a while, Alex spoke, "Thank you so much."
"Anytime," Olivia replied with a kind smile.