MY LOVES!! I AM SOOO SORRY! I NEVER MEANT TO LEAVE YOU LIKE THAT! I WAS PLANNING ON POSTING, BUT THEN I JUST COULDN'T SEEM TO GET IT DOWN ON MY COMPUTER. I HAD MAJOR WRITERS BLOCK. I AM SO SORRY, AGAIN! I AM HOPING THAT YOU GUYS HAVEN'T LEFT ME FOREVER!!
PLEASE FORGIVE ME!! AGAIN, SORRY!
Okay, but here it is, the final Chapter! I hope you like it! I put a little comedy moment in there, too. So knock yourself out! By the way, it might take a few days before I get the first chapter for Love Can't Break out. Sorry. I have been cleaning and have company hopefully coming over on Friday! WOOT!! Can you believe I am in summer!! XD I am going to be a junior this year, too! I am excited. Anyway. Okay, I am done ranting. So read the chapter!!
I woke up to –surprisingly- the sun shining bright through my window. I was still a little worn out, but able to get out of bed and go take a shower. I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. There were many things that I noticed –like the fact that I was still wearing the dress from last night, having fallen to sleep right as I sat on my bed- but, I found myself recognizing the little things in my features. My eyes seemed brighter; my face seemed to have more life to it, and the fact that there was a big smile plastered on my lips. Since when did I start smiling so hugely? By the look of things, my whole face –no appearance, I thought, as I backed up and looked at my body- seemed to be looking so unusually…happier? Was I really that happy?
I knew, of course, that the answer was yes. Nothing seemed to matter to me anymore except my family and then…well, Edward. Edward was amazing. Everything about him drew me in and I found myself forgetting everything around us. It was very relaxing to know that he…he fixed me. He healed my wounds, kissed the bruises, only to leave me perfectly fine as if nothing had ever happened. I wasn't –and didn't look- the same. Before the incident. I looked more mature, or at least more curved –I didn't exactly know why, though. It was not like I had taken a hormone to get my body up and running. It was more like…Edward had filled me. He had completed me. His being was inside my soul, keeping me healthy and…peaceful.
I stopped my revering and climbed into the shower after undressing out of my –well, Alice's- skimpy dress. My shower was quick, just long enough to get me clean and wake me up.
After brushing my teeth and getting ready in a white sleeveless shirt with a tan sweater and jeans, I headed down stairs. Charlie was already gone; he was fishing with one of his buddies from the station. I started to eat a bowl of cereal, but I kind of fell into a half awake, half asleep mode. I wasn't really dreaming, but more of thinking about last night; it was so wild; I never wanted to do anything like that again. After seeing how I acted, I knew I wouldn't be able to look at Edward the same today. I would be embarrassed.
I didn't even hear anyone come in, but when my eyes focused back in on the kitchen, I found Mr. Slate sitting across from me at the table. Staring with a wicked smile. I let out a high pitched screech as something touched my shoulder. I looked up to see Jacob Black looming over me, a look of poison on his face. I let out another screech as Jacob hands went to my throat. I felt the squeezing pain as I tried to breathe. This couldn't really be happening. They were both in jail. It was impossible for them to get out. I let out a throbbing sob…
And fell out of my seat to the floor. I didn't realize it wasn't real until I was able to look around the room and find Edward standing in the entry way to the kitchen; his eyes were filled with shock and horror.
"Bella," He said almost breathlessly, pained. He ran over to my side, and quickly helped me up from the floor, only to wrap his arms around me. "Love, are you okay?"
I was still dazed and it was a little hard for me to answer, "Y-yeah…I am…okay…" I could barely focus as I kept replaying the scene in my head. Tears had filled my eyes and were spilling over the rims.
"What happened? Did you have a nightmare…at the…table?" I could hear the confusion sweeping through his voice.
"Yes, s-something like…that," I couldn't stop picturing the image of the two worst people I could have possibly known. I wrapped my arms around Edward and just stood there, trying to keep the tears silent. That didn't last long and I squeezed my arms tighter around Edward's waist and let out a broken sob.
I didn't answer, I just kept sobbing. I didn't exactly know why I couldn't stop crying. Maybe it was because I couldn't be happier to have Edward with me, or maybe it was just the fact that I had just had a horrible half asleep nightmare. I didn't know, so I couldn't be sure.
Edward pulled slightly away from me, to see my face. I had my head hanging down, so he put a finger under my chin gently and raised it me face up to meet his.
"Bella, dear, please, tell me what is wrong…" he trailed off on his sentence and waited for me to answer.
I tried to clear my throat as well as it would get and then started to reassure him, "No…yes…uhm…. It's nothing. Really. I am just…happy to see you." There that sounded good enough. I leaned up and kissed Edward on the cheek.
He didn't pressure into asking me about it anymore, but instead he turned his lips to meet mine and then the passion exploded, yet, again. He slid his hands from around my shoulders to around my waist and rubbed at the exposed skin that he found. His fingers were cold to the touch and made me jump a bit. He smiled against my lips and pulled me closer to him. I placed my hands on Edward's chest and grabbed the shirt he had on, pulling him closer. There was literally no space between us, and my breathing was coming short, making the room spin under my eyelids.
Edward pulled back and chuckled quietly, "Well, we know what can stop the tears."
"Edward, you could stop the tears by just looking at me. A kiss doesn't prove that." I objected. Really, did he think that his kisses could only do that to me? His eyes only had to stray to my face, to help bring up my mood.
"Oh, really?" he smiled at me.
"Yes, really." I let go of him to cross my arms in front of my chest, one eyebrow raised.
"Yes, really," he liked to play too much. I really wasn't even catching the drift of this conversation. I was beginning to get very confused.
"Okay, I give up, what were we actually talking about?" I asked, slumping over.
"Exactly, my love," Edward smiled and wrapped his arms back around my waist, moving his head to my neck. He skimmed his nose up and down the side of my neck, sending shivers down me. I smiled at the feeling. Then as he made his way back down to my neck, he kissed it. I wrapped my arms around his neck wanting more of his kisses. He chuckled and then something wet ran across the skin where my neck and shoulder connected. Did he just…lick me? But before I could ask, he bit me. Hard. I yelped and jumped back away from him, my hand flying to my neck. I could feel where his teeth marks indented my skin.
My eyes wide, I spoke, as Edward looked at me with innocent eyes.
"What the hell?" I screeched in a way too high pitch voice.
"Heh…" he looked away from me and then quickly back, a smile playing across his lips.
"Edward. What was that for?" I closed my eyes and concentrated on waiting for his words and not the pain.
"I am sorry, Bella," he was still smiling when I opened my eyes back up.
"You don't look sorry."
His smile completely vanished, "Okay, well, after I dropped you off last night, I got back and Alice was begging me to watch a movie with them. I said okay, not knowing it was a vampire movie. I saw how the girls acted when the guys bit them, and I wanted to see if it pleasured or pained you. I guess I got my answer."
"Uhm…yeah…it might have felt some what good if you didn't bite me so freaking hard."
"Can I try it again?" he asked, walking closer to me.
"No, my neck it already sore enough." I rejected him.
"What if I bite you on the other side?" Did he really want to bite me?
"What pleasure do you get out of biting me?" I asked incredulously.
"Well, I am about to see if you just let me do it."
I thought for a moment and then decided to let him. I wouldn't mind seeing what exactly he got out of this.
"Fine. But not hard."
He smiled, "Okay." He leaned his head down to the other side of my neck and began kissing me. I sighed in content as his tongue darted out across my skin again. I took a deep breath and waited for him to bite. His mouth slowly opened across my skin and his teeth connected with my flesh as he bit down. I felt the air swoosh out of my mouth as he began biting harder. This didn't hurt; this was a…amazing feeling. He let his tongue slide across my skin in his mouth. Edward closed his lips around my skin and began sucking. I let out a slight moan and my hands grabbed the back of his shirt, by his neck, and pulled his head closer to my neck. I guess this was exactly what he was talking about. He did get something out of it.
Edward's mouth pressed harder against my neck and he bit harder. He was now biting at about the same pressure as he did with the other neck, but I guess if he just slowly got harder, it wouldn't hurt as much. My breathing got shallow and my head lolled to one side, exposing my whole neck to him.
It went like that for another however many minutes before Edward finally stopped. He kissed my neck once more and then leaned up to look at my face. He smiled. I guess he was grinning at my expression. I could feel my features, but I couldn't make them out.
"Did you get what you want?" I asked, still breathless.
He nodded, "Yes, I did." He looked away, as if he was thinking, and then looked at me. "Very much."
I gave a small laugh.
"Okay, so are we going to go hiking, or what?" I asked in a cheerful voice.
"Sure," he let me go and grabbed my hand. "I hope you like to take long walks." Edward winked at me, as we headed to the front door.
"Don't worry; I think I can handle it." I laughed.
The drive to the stop wasn't too long. The trees kept me occupied as I watched how we zoomed by them. Edward was a fast driver, so everything was blurry. It wasn't until we had come to the little drive that let off into the forest, that I knew where we were. We were at my meadow. The one that I used to come to all the time when I was having problems with things. But, I hadn't been there in awhile since the last time I had a stalker. I shivered, and Edward noticed.
"You okay?" he asked when he pulled onto the little turn off. He stopped the car and turned the key so that we were sitting in complete silence.
I looked over to my left at the beautiful guy sitting beside me, "Perfect." Edward responded by giving me the biggest grin I had ever seen. He leaned in to kiss my softly on the lips.
"Okay, love. Well, come on, let's go. We have a very long walk ahead of us." He opened his door and almost ran around the car to my side. I groaned as I thought of all the hiking. As much as I loved to be out in the woods, I couldn't help but feel a little down about the miles it took to get to the meadow.
I stepped out of the car and Edward immediately wrapped his arms around me into a hug. I smiled at the warmth and proceeded to put my arms around his neck, so I could kiss him, but he had backed away.
"We should really get going, love. We will have time for that later." He winked at me, which made me smirk. His mind was certainly on the wrong track.
"Well, does Mr. Cullen have his mind in the gutter this morning, or what?" I joked.
Edward put his hand to his chest and stepped back, with an appalled look. "Excuse me Ms. Swan, but I think you are sadly mistaken," He joked back with me.
Now it was my turn to look appalled. "I am sorry, but I really have no idea what you are talking about. Now I think we should go before I really get mad." I smiled and then laughed.
"Mad? I haven't seen that emotion, yet. Hmm…"
"Nothing. Okay, well lets go." He started walking off.
"What?" I asked again, but he ignored me.
So we started on our walk in silence. I was frustrated that he wouldn't answer me, so I made a pact to myself that I wasn't going to say a word to him the whole way. Ignoring was the key concept to an answer. At least, that is what I thought.
It took so long to get there it felt like it had been so many hours until we came to where I could just barely see the light leading to the meadow. Edward was beginning to sound impatient. He was huffing to himself which made me smile.
"Say something," he pleaded as we continued to get closer to the light.
I just looked the other way and started walking faster.
"Bella," he said and his voice held a tint of hurt.
I still didn't say anything as I began running to the light. I had a burst of excitement with the situation with Edward that I was trying to get there faster. I heard Edward call my name again, but I ran until I pushed through the ferns and found myself surrounded by sunlight and grass waving in the wind. I lifted my arms up to feel the breeze until I felt something hit me from the back. Not hard, but enough to knock the breath out of me. I went tumbling to the ground, but was twisted right side up before I hit the forest floor, only to have my back land on Edward's stomach.
I groaned and just lay there as I let myself catch my breath. Edward was already laughing, not able to control himself.
"Ouch…" I moaned in a low voice.
"Sorry, but you wouldn't talk to me." He said, still laughing. I pushed myself off of him and got to my feet.
"Don't you ever do that to me again." I turned my back to him and crossed my arms over my chest. I was mad at him.
"Aww, Bella, don't be mad." He chuckled, as I heard him shuffle off of the ground.
"Don't come near me." I warned in a sour voice.
"Whoa, Bella, are you mad?"
I didn't answer.
"Bella, you know what?" he asked in a seductive voice.
I still didn't answer.
"Do you?" I could hear him walking, but I didn't know that he was coming towards me until I felt his arms around my waist.
"What?" I asked, irritated.
"You are absolutely sexy when you are upset. I just wish I could have seen your face." He whispered into my ear.
I shivered as my face grew red. Why did he always know how to get me?
I turned around to face him and buried my head into his chest.
"What's wrong?" he asked, worried.
"Does something have to be wrong in order for me to hug you?"
"No," was all he said. We stood there in silence for so long. I was beginning to dose off, while standing; get that, until I thought about something I wanted to say. Or well, tell Edward. I think it might be the right time to tell him, too. He needed to know. He deserved to know. It wasn't fair for me to walk around holding something back, while he didn't even know how I felt. So I took a deep breath and then said three words that could rip a hole through my chest if he didn't feel the same way.
"I love you," I said quietly.
I didn't even realize that he had been rubbing my hair until I felt his hand stop on my back. He froze completely. I gave Edward about thirty seconds before I said anything else.
Three, two, one…
He just let out a big breath of air. Oh, god. I could feel the whole ripping through my chest. He was really going to stop talking and leave me dented. This was not a time for silence.
"Edward, say something. Anything," I pleaded.
"I…" he didn't finish his sentence.
I felt my knees buckle as I pulled myself away from him. I fell to the ground and just sat there. God, I shouldn't have said anything. This was a horrible thing to do. I caused the pain, so I needed to take it, though. I let my hands fall to my lap, as the world spun under me. I wasn't crying, at least not yet.
"Bella, I…" he still didn't finish his sentence. But, before I could really take note of that, he was sitting in front of me, one of my hands in his and his other lifting my face up, so our eyes could meet.
"Repeat you words, please?" he asked. I thought he had heard me though.
"Edward…I…I said…I love you…" I choked out in a whisper.
He looked at our hands and then back up to my face, a smile playing along his lips.
"That's what I thought you said, love." Before I could say anything else, his lips were against mine. They moved with passion and fused with want. I didn't even register that he was now on top of me, my back against the floor, until I felt the grass sway around us.
We lay kissing like that for quite some time. We didn't move, we didn't try anything else, we just kissed. It was blissful kissing that made my heart pound and my head get light. But all too soon, he moved away from me, so that he was lying on his side on my right. I had to catch my breath before I turned on my side to face him, too.
"Wow…" was all I said.
"Yes. Wow, indeed." I just realized that Edward hadn't said that he loved me back. Was that kiss, him showing that he loved me? Surely not.
He beat me to it, though.
"Bella, you are possibly the best thing that has ever happened to me. I want you to know that, if anything were to happen to you, ever, I would most likely die." He kissed my nose.
I couldn't speak as he went on.
"There is just something about you, something that makes me want to just give into the worst things possible. See, you think I have been with so many girls, right?" Was he really expecting me to answer that?
"Okay, I will go with yes. You are wrong, though. I have never been with a girl, physically in that kind of way. I have never wanted to. Well, not until now. Bella, there are so many things that I wish we could do. I want to be the one that will always be here for you."
"You already are, Edward." I scooted closer to him.
"Yes, but I want to be able to give you everything in the world. I want you to be mine and I want to be yours. You are so special to me, that I could cry. And that is something I have never done over a girl." He chuckled which made me smile.
"Bella, I just…I…" he never finished his sentence.
"Edward Cullen, are you a…virgin?" I asked. This was very funny to think about. I would have never thought that he would be the one to be pure out of all of the boys at school.
"Yes. That is what I am saying. But I don't want to be a virgin when I get near you. I want you to be my first, and I want to be yours." He said honestly. I still couldn't think about this, fully. I had told myself that I wouldn't be crazy with him. But, things have changed. Well, changed since last night. But, I realized, too, that I would not want anyone else in the world. Edward is my love, and hopefully I am his, too.
"Bella, what I am trying to basically say is…I love you. Too. I am in love with you. I want to be with you until I die. Nothing can keep me from you and everything can keep me near you."
"Edward…I don't think I could ever ask for anything better then for us to be together, always." I leaned in to kiss him on the lips.
"Bella, but, you are always tempting me, and I know that you don't want to give into that, yet. Am I right?"
"Yes, Edward, you are right, but I think I might actually be ready this time." I whispered.
I felt him kiss my head and before I knew it, he was on top of me again, kissing me softly.
"Bella, I will love you forever and ever." He said against my lips.
"Same here," I said, and then thought of something. "You know, now that I think of it, this meadow used to be somewhere I came when I was upset and
needed to think. But now look at it. This is about to be our meadow. The place where we both took each other." I smiled at the thought of that.
"Wait, you've come here before?" he asked.
"I come here all the time. This place helps me to think, too."
"Well," I said to mainly to my self, "Maybe we were always meant to be."
And before I knew it, we were already kissing again. It was beautiful and gentle, something that was perfect for me. I knew that this man was the only one I would ever spend my life with. No matter what. I would rather die then live without him.
That night we made love.
Don't hate me. I would never leave you without the stuff you really want. But, you won't get to see what happened during their "LOVE MAKING" (BAHA!!XD) until the sequel!
I will love yous peoples forever!!
Don't forget the sequel is called Love Can't Break!! DO NOT FORGET