Love Will Guide Us

Chapter 8

Plots and Pasts Uncovered

"Hey," Lily said, as she opened the door.

James smiled, "hello, Lily."

"How was the rest of your Christmas?" she asked politely.

"Not too bad," he replied, reaching out to give her a hug. "My cousin's fiancé seemed nice enough."

"Oh good," she continued, "and how's Sirius?"

"Well as ever," he grinned.

"Well, um… do you want something to eat or do you want to go upstairs… mum and dad are at work and Petunia's at her boyfriend's…" she said, moving into the kitchen.

She turned around suddenly to find James standing much closer to her than before. His hands came to rest on her hips as he bent his head low. "So, we're all alone?" he asked in a low tone.

Lily bit her lip, nodding slightly. His lips were so close to hers and he moved his head forward and pressed them together. His hands moved around to cup her bottom and Lily gave him a slight push. He frowned; expecting a repeat of the events in the café but Lily took his hand and asked once again if he'd like to go to her room.

He nodded, trying to hide the grin that was creeping across his face.

Lily kept hold of his hand as they made their way back into the front of the house and rose up the stairs. Her room was painted in a pale cream with pale pink bedclothes and curtains. She had a large, wooden double bed and a large matching wardrobe. In one corner of the room was a huge bookshelf and desk. On the desk was Lily's computer and phone, items that James remembered his mum teaching him about in their muggle studies lessons. Opposite the bed was a television set, as well as a few game consoles.

Lily sat on the bed and gestured for James to do the same. He put his arm around her and gave her a soft kiss. He pushed a loose strand of hair behind her ear and twirled her fringe around one finger.

"So, are you ready to go back to school?" James asked.

"Sort of," she replied, "I won't be able to see you much once I'm back though."

He sighed. "What a way to ruin the atmosphere," he teased. "Are you gonna miss me?"

"I think so," she replied, blushing.

"I'll miss you too," he answered the unasked question, rubbing his thumb in soft circles over her hand.

He reached in to kiss her again, his tongue sliding into her mouth. He ran his hands down her back and rested them at the bottom of her shirt. He paused, his breathing deep, before he continued to kiss her down her cheek and neck. He began to run his hand inside her shirt.

"James," she said quietly, running a hand down his cheek.

His boxers and trousers were beginning to feel very tight around his crotch. He let out a low groan, "look, Lily, I really like you and I really want this, so… please." He looked at her hopefully.

She bit her lip once again, clearly seeing his length through the material of his trousers. "James, I… I'm not sure, I mean… I don't know what to do…"

"You'll be fine," he said, clearly not interested in her excuses.

"James, I'm really scared," she whispered.

"It'll be fine," he repeated.

She didn't look anymore convinced.

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"Hi, my name's Alice Moore, I was wondering if I could see Sirius," Alice said to the witch that answered the door.

"Oh, sure," the witch said. "I'll just call him for you… Sirius," she turned around and shouted, "there's someone for you at the door."

She heard Sirius' footsteps coming down the corridor and Alice looked down at her feet.

"Hey," he said softly, but obviously puzzled as to who she was and why she was standing at his front door.

"Can I come in?" Alice asked nervously.

"Sure?" Sirius said, unsure of the appropriate answer in his current situation. He was unsure as to how he knew this girl, was she a one-night stand? He couldn't remember her being. What if she'd come to tell him she was pregnant? He blinked, "we'll go into the sitting room."

"So…" he started, once they had sat down on one of the large sofas.

"You don't remember me, do you?" Alice stated.

"Umm… no," Sirius said hesitantly.

"I'm Lily's best friend," she replied.

He continued to look at her blankly.

"James' girlfriend," she confirmed.

Sirius nodded slowly. "Is everything okay?" he asked, fully knowing it wasn't but voicing the question anyway.

"I'm worried about them both… Lily adores him and all, but she's worried he's trying to push the relationship along too quickly," the brunette explained.

Sirius had to refrain from scoffing. "That's partly my fault…" Sirius admitted.

"What?" Alice exclaimed.

"Do you want a drink?"

"Yes, please," she agreed.

"Stay here and then I'll explain everything," Sirius said quietly. "And, I'm sorry, okay?"

Alice nodded, "I won't judge that until I know the full story."

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"Lily, please?" James said, pulling the small redhead closer to him.

"James, I really don't know…" Lily replied, giving him a short kiss on the lips.

He took it and deepened it, greedily, hungrily. He ran his hands down her sides, his breathing laboured.

Lily didn't really feel like she had a choice. It would be so cruel to say no to him now, after all.

"Do you have a condom, James?" Lily asked hesitantly.

"Yeah."

"Okay then, James, go on," she authorised.

James almost cried out with happiness, but refrained, believing this would upset the redhead.

Lily lay back on the bed and took his hand, pulling him to lie out on top of her. His hands began to explore her body as he kissed her frantically. He needed her now; he hadn't had this in so long. He pulled her shirt over her head and unhooked her bra, gazing at her breasts lustfully.

Lily felt her body quivering below him and he harshly touched and unclothed her. She grew more terrified at each passing caress and moment.

His tongue moved to meet her, smiting it powerfully. Then he moved to her breast, vigorously squeezing and sucking the soft flesh. He removed her jeans and then her knickers in quick succession. Then James sat up and started to undo the buttons on his shirt. When they didn't come undone easily enough, he tore at them quickly, deciding he could mend his shirt later with a simple charm. He undid his belt, listening to the satisfying click as it came out of the buckle. He twisted the button on his jeans to release them, looking at Lily's body quivering on the bed. Soon his boxers joined the heap of clothing on the floor.

He then lay back next to her, pulling her forcefully on top of him and encouraging her to kiss and touch him everywhere. Soon he was pushing her onto her back once again and lying on top of her. He shifted slightly, until they were together.

He pounded against her, furiously; surprised that he felt no opposing barrier or heard any cries from Lily as he entered.

"You're not a virgin!" He said sharply. "I thought you were a virgin!"

Lily looked into his stormy hazel eyes, in fear. "No," she replied, unsure how else to answer.

"You can tell me everything after we've finished," he said angrily.

Lily nodded quietly and closed her eyes as he continued to harshly strike her body.

It wasn't long before they both felt unmistakable ecstasy. James sighed, rolling off her and pulling her body against his. His mind was reeling, he'd never felt like this before. Lily was beyond his normal high. He was stuck between fear and sheer lust to feel the same again. Why did she affect him so? All that James knew was that she was more that shag material now.

"James, did you… uh… did you want to talk now?" she asked, worried he didn't want to be disturbed.

"When you're ready…" he told her sweetly, kissing her forehead affectionately.

"Well…"

Something had changed for James.

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"Basically, I suggested that because James hadn't shagged anyone in ages he should find a hot girl… and to put it bluntly, shag her," Sirius explained. "He took a liking for Lily. And liked her more than shagging…"

"So he likes her?" Alice asked, frowning in confusion.

"Yes, but I don't think he realises how much," Sirius said, "and I made a bet with him… that he'd finish it after two months. He's still pretending she's just for a shag."

"He's going to shag her and then dump her?" Alice asked, horrified.

Sirius nodded, grimly, "I've tried to make him see he likes her, I tried to stop the bet, but he won't take any notice."

Alice watched him place his hands in his head. "I have to tell Lily," she exclaimed suddenly, "before its too late."

"No," Sirius snapped, "they might last through it."

"I'm sorry, Sirius, I don't want to hurt either of them… but it's not so simple for Lily. I don't think she'll ever regain trust if it happens to her a second time," she continued cryptically.

"What do you mean it's happened before?" Sirius demanded, looking at her crossly. This was his brother and he was going to protect him from this and fight the young brunette all the way.

"Lily's ex-boyfriend left her for someone else as soon as she lost her virginity to him," Alice told him, in a hushed tone. "She agreed to sleep with him and the next day she got a message saying it was over. She saw him with his new girlfriend; blonde, blue-eyed, tall… she's not been the same since. And she has no trust in men. She needs to know and James will have to regain her trust… either that or she'll never see another man ever again."

"That's awful," Sirius said, "poor girl."

"And that's why I have to stop them sleeping together," Alice replied calmly. "I have to go."

"Go on, help them," Sirius said, showing her to the door.