A/N: A very weird poem about Rukawa and a woman.
There's a sheer line between happiness and grief
A small border between love and hate
And though I occasionally cruise over to another
I know all along it was fate
Sometimes it's easier to believe that life is a dream
A dream that would be over once we wake up
Yet there is a dead end in everything
And the truth is not what it may seem
I am devoted to you as I relish every ray of light
I care for you as I take concern of every delicate flower
I cherish you more than I treasure all the riches this world may offer
And I hate you as I love you
Every kiss, every moment…
The sun kisses your glistening skin
My desire pent up and release through my gasps
And your eyes dart me so superior and keen
I learned the way your crimson lips twitch
Whenever you talk and laugh
I value every sound and sight that came from you
Yet this pain is engulfing me…eating me…
You were brave, picking your heart and giving it to me
However I was heartless, throwing it away
The empty space left in your chest, unfilled.
I wonder how a heart feels against the cold, harsh ground
Turned away by the one it loved most
I could've saved you…I should've.
But you gave me no chance anymore
I had all the happiness the world may bring
If I only accepted the heart then
I reached my hand out, turned to pick your heart
She so harshly shoved to the cruel world
Yet I stopped, one moment, thinking of you
If I had picked this heart, if I had…
How would I take care of it, when it is not mine to begin with?
I, only I could cure its cuts and bruises
Yet I could do nothing, nothing
None other than to nurse it, give first aid
And not the stable, permanent treatment.
And it does not pass my assessment
Because now it is offered not to me anymore
Jealousy, rage, envy, hatred
The unending, excruciating pain I feel whe I see them in your eyes
Whenever they're fixed on me.
They're never what I wanted them to be
Your revenge, so bitter and spiteful.
Shook me to the very core of my soul
The glares full of derision
As I fall into deep oblivion
The blood, gore, tainted your purity and innocence
I desired that it swallow me alive so I can be with you
I am all to blame, too late that I realized everything
The truth, the cold, unfeeling reality
If I had caught you in my arms earlier
Would this fate meet you?
If I had not been blinded by hate, would you stay?
If I had caressed you, held you so tight…
Now, I see your clear brown eyes, devoid of feelings
Devoid of feelings towards me.
Don't you see? Don't you remember?
Do you recognize me yet?
Or are you with him.
Do you love him…?
That man with gravity-defying hair.
Blue eyes like mine
Passion for the same sport I replaced you of
I lean on to you
The fine lining between your love and mine
The blinding hypocrisy
The deafening silence
The fine lining that separated us forever.
A/N: SO weird. Really.
The story behind this was, a woman fell in love with Rukawa. He felt the same but he was filled with hate and love for her. (sounds contradicting? Well, there is a very thin line between love and hate, right?) He rejected her and she left. When she came back, she started to mess with his life, beating him into things, and finally, committing suicide.
Now that was odd. (But doesn't it hurt more to see your love dying in front of you than any other torture? She was kind of a bit mad here, without proper sanity, and she did that for revenge)
When she recovered, she can't remember Rukawa anymore. She went out with Sendoh.
The idea was really peculiar and corny, I know. T.T