Scorching my soul
Yet, if he was night
I shall embrace the
Though I never see the light
Not bad. But not
much of a New Year's Resolution either.
Now, I'm just back where I started.
Even worse actually. Coz now,
I've finally admitted my feelings to myself.
slight sound made me turn around. A
wonderful mixture of surprise and pleasure filled my senses as I recognized the
dark-clad figure who had just entered my window. A smile automatically formed itself on my lips.
Hiei." I greeted the constant subject of my reverie. "Cold outside tonight?"
"Hn." Was the only reply I got as he removed his
cloak and laid it at one side of my room, together with his katana. That was a good sign. It meant that he intended to stay. I knew he'd make himself comfortable so I
turned back to my desk. Maybe I should
start on some calculus instead.
not the only reason." A low voice
behind me suddenly said.
me?" I turned around again.
want to repeat myself, fox."
heard you Hiei. I just didn't
understand what reason you're talking about."
came here, baka."
at the remark. "Well, what is the
answer. Oh please, not this again. I really don't want to go through the entire
"something's-bugging-me-that-I-don't-want-to-tell-you" routine again. But I really can't help it if I care so much
about a certain koorime's life that I just have to know what the matter is
prodded. "Come on, I'm your best friend."
I do wish that I was something more."
narrowed his brows and I suddenly had the urge to kick myself. What if he heard that?!
to Yukina." He began. Thank God, he didn't hear that!
something about a stupid ningen practice called a New Year's---" He paused.
Probably trying to recall the term.
"Resolution?" Does he really have to remind me about
what's bothering you?"
getting to that, fox."
"Ookay." Of course he's getting to that. Hiei never likes to be rushed.
that I should try making one too."
nodded. "And so?"
me by surprise. "You did?"
she helped me make one. And she said
that it would be a good thing for me to start doing it as early as possible. So
that's the reason I came here."
my brows in confusion. "You came here
to fulfill your New Year's Resolution?"
answer but instead walked over to where I was until he was standing over me.
Then he fixed his crimson eyes on my own and I felt my heart flutter in my
I..." Oh my God, is he going to say
what I hope he's going to say?
"Kurama..." He cleared his throat. "I'm sorry."
my eyebrow. What? "I'm sorry for
calling you stupid and for always hurting your feelings."
it? I forced myself to smile. "It's
okay Hiei. I forgive you. I always do." In fact, I forgive you for hurting my feelings just now.
New Year's Resolution is to start saying 'sorry' to people?" I asked with a weak laugh. Coz it feels like I'm about to cry.
Hiei turned around then
walked to where his cloak and katana was.
exactly." He said as he put on his
cloak. He was leaving me. Again.
Year's Resolution was to start to learn how to apologize to people and to stop
over to the window, ready to take flight.
And I felt my heart breaking inside my chest.
thought that it would be best to start doing it by saying sorry."
turned his head at me and...smiled?
one I love." And with that he
disappeared into the night.
Please don't tell me I'm
dreaming. Did Hiei just smile at
me? Did Hiei just say that he loves me?
I slumped back in my chair. Not from exhaustion though.
I was feeling kind of faint this time.
A stupid grin was plastered on my face and my heart, which was aching
just a few moments ago, seemed to have no problem dancing around inside my
chest. So he didn't say the words exactly as I hoped he would, but I'm sure I
could wrench it out of him someday.
Tomorrow would be fine. Too bad
I didn't get to thank him for his apology.
With a kiss perhaps? I
thought with a smile.
stretched my arms over my head. This
day had been exhausting, but I haven't made my resolution yet. I took out my journal and opened it to a
clean page. Taking a pen from my holder
I began to write:
Earlier today, I made a New Year's Resolution to forget a certain
three-eyed fire demon named Hiei.
However, after giving it some thought—well, okay, a LOT of thought, I
decided to make a new New Year's Resolution.
From now on, I'm going to stop making resolutions I can't
keep. That, and perhaps I'll start
closing my window after a certain three-eyed fire demon has entered my
room. Just to make sure I get to
"thank" him next time.
- owari -