OK...so Pam's had this written since October...I've just been too lazy/busy to actually type it up. She got tired of me not doing it so when we got home tonight she shoved the book in my face and said type!

Chapter 4

The rest of the night was spent tossing and turning, trying to forget Emmy. The harder I tried to forget her, the more I thought about her. I threw the covers off to the side and climbed out of bed. Zoe looked at me and stretched, following me out of the room. I took the back stairs into the kitchen, going right to the tea kettle that sat on the stove. While the water heated I fed Zoe, then put and English muffin in the toaster.

The kettle whistled and my cell phone rang, all at once. I pulled the kettle off to the side and reached for my phone.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Please don't hang up." The other voice said.

"Give me one good reason why I shouldn't."

"Because what you saw yesterday was just shitty timing." She explained. I hung up the phone and went back to getting myself a cup of tea. The phone rang again as I was sitting down at the table. "Now why did you go and do that?" she asked me.

"I didn't like your answer." I told her as I took a sip of my tea.

"I know, I know...it was a lousy answer but its the truth. It was just shitty timing."

Leaning back in my chair I asked the question I'd been thinking about all morning. "Why should I give you another chance?"

"Because what happened yesterday was the first time in a long time I've felt like that."

I groaned softly, wondering why I was still talking to her. I should hang up and forget I'd ever met her, or even kissed her. "I'm going to hang up now." I said softly, knowing I was doing the right thing, but for some reason, still kicking myself in the ass.

"Please Michiru, let me explain." She rushed on.

"Explain what? The fact that you were kissing another girl two minutes after you dropped me off. Forget it. I don't play seconds to anyone." I told her.

"I'm not like that. Will you give me a chance?" She pleaded with me.

I shook my head and got up to put my cup in the sink. "I'm sorry, but I can't Haruka. Tell that girl she's very lucky."I hung up, still hearing her voice in my ear. I went out to the deck and started to strip. I left everything in a heap by the sliding doors and headed for the heated pool. The cool air swept its cool fingers across my skin, making me feel alive. I went to the diving board and dove into the warm water of the pool. I needed a chance to clear my head, to forget about Emmy and Haruka. My mind wandered as I swam lap after lap, letting the water wash over my bare skin.

I saw someone splashing at one end of the pool and swam towards it. I kept my body below the surface of the water as I came up beside the person sitting on the edge of the pool. "What in the world are you doing?"

I smiled at one of the only people who could see me naked and I wouldn't freak out about it.

"What are you doing here?" I asked her.

"Wondering why you're swimming in the buff."

I looked down at my body and smiled. "Well if you give me a towel, I won't be naked anymore."

She got up and got me one of the towels from the water proof bin I kept by the pool. I pulled myself up and sat on the edge, completely secure in my own skin. I felt the towel fall on my shoulders and stood up with Kay's help. "I thought you were still in Rome?" I asked her as I wrapped myself up.

"Well, I was, but I decided to come home early and spend some time with the people I care about most." She said as we headed for the house.

I picked up my clothing from the deck as we headed in. I put my robe back on and set the kettle back on the heat. I used the towel to dry my hair and sat down at the table.

"So you two broke up then?" I made it a statement, not a question.

Kay sat down beside me and took my face in her hands and kissed me. I responded to the kiss, the way I knew I would. My arms went around her neck as her hands found their way to my breasts. I moaned against her lips. "I hate you."

She chuckled and pulled away from me. "Yea, I know...and yes we did." She leaned back in the chair and took a deep breath. "How is it possible that I can still want you after all this time?"

I shook my head, getting up and pulled my robe closed. "I have no idea. I just know I don't want or need a fling right now." I told her as I headed up the stairs for a shower.

A short time later Kay and I were in my car, headed to the club for a bite to eat and so I could get my paperwork done. I waved to my bartenders and went upstairs while Kay stayed downstairs to help the tenders get their work done. I closed the bar on Sunday mornings so they could clean up from Saturday nights and I had a quiet place to work. But the thing was, I wasn't getting any work done. The only thing I was getting done was thinking about Haruka...Why couldn't I get her out of my head?