A/N: Inspired from that scene in Corporal Punishment when Ziva 'punches' his gut. One of two possible endings.
"Ziva did you kill Houdini?" Tony asked.
"It is possible. I do not remember all their names." I replied.
That was a lie. I remembered all of their names, the method I used and the family and friends that they left behind.
I opened the book that was on my lap and flipped through the pages. Names and pictures of my victims lay before me.
I remembered the Arna's. They had been the first family that I had been ordered to assassinate. I had killed couples, but never a family. Gadiel and Gana were the parents to two sons, Givon and Hanan, and a daughter Levana. I killed them all by a shot to the head.
I sighed, and flipped to the back of the book. I read the last few names.
I felt the tears that had been prickling behind my eyes, slowly fall down my face.
I remembered my big brother. He was there for me when no one else was. I remembered coming into Gibbs' house and hearing Ari say that he killed Kate and that he was going to kill Gibbs. I remembered pointing my gun at my big brother's head and pulling the trigger. I watched as he fell to the floor. Dead.
I remembered Dr. Burns. She had been involved in the death of Staff Sergeant Warren Sorrow. Dr. Burns had a gun trained on Ducky and told me to drop my gun. I threw my knife into Dr. Burns heart. I watched as she fell to the ground. Dead.
I remembered Brian Dempsey. He was the obnoxious jerk that Tony and I had arrested for possession of heroin. I offered to pay Tony to take him up to interrogation, but he declined. I remembered getting into the elevator and hitting him in the jugular. Ducky ruled it an accident, but I know he only did that to protect me. I watched as he fell to the floor. Dead.
The tears started to flow freely as I picked up my pen and wrote the name of my newest victim.
Leroy Jethro Gibbs
There was a raid at the warehouse today. Drug dealers and terrorists. Gunfire broke out and somehow the bullet from my gun ended up in Gibbs. I was in shock at first. But then I realized that I knew it would happen sooner or later. The people I cared about always ended up dead. I remembered watching my boss fall to the ground. Dead.
I slowly closed the book after taking one last look at the face of my boss. My friend. My father. And I put it back on the table in front of me.
"I'm sorry Gibbs." I whispered. I could hear his voice. "Apologizing is a sign of weakness Officer David. Don't do it."
I chuckled slightly. Yeah, that was my boss.