"How could you let her die? You let her die just like you let Sasuke die!"
She rested on her bed staring out at the night through her sheered curtain windows. The city was lit beautifully by stars and the streets were lightly showered by the rain.
It hasn't stopped raining since that night.
Nine days, eight nights, and eleven hours and those words still kept replaying over and over in her mind. It ached her heart and brought her to the point of insanity a few times. She had to keep fooling herself into believing that he never meant those words and that he only said it because he was upset.
Despite every little lie she lied to herself she knew that that wasn't the case. He had meant every word. If he really didn't he would've at least apologize by now. He hasn't and she knew that he wasn't planning on doing so.
She have made no move from the spot that she was currently resting in; aside from washing herself and eating.
Her voice mail was filled with messages from concerned friends who haven't seen her in days. Those who were really concerned about her well fare actually came over, in attempt to see how she was doing, but she wouldn't let them in. Behind the wooden door she'd exclaim that everything was alright and that she just needed to be alone. Those who weren't really persistent left soon after; however, those who were (much to her dismay) kept coming back. She had to use stronger measures to insure that her peace wasn't disturbed.
A small sheet of chakra was currently shielding her house from all outside nuisance (Ino, Lee, Shizune and anyone else who just didn't get the point that she wanted to be alone). No one, aside from a select few, knew how to disarm the field and she wouldn't have it any other way.
Sakura laid there listening to the patter of the rain as it hit against her window. Her eyes were red and filled with dark circles. It was the evidence of her restless nights. Each time she tried closing her eyes the memories of Naruto's words, Sasuke's and Hinata's death plagued her mind.
They would creep into her mind and wouldn't allow her to rest.
She was about to make another attempt to finally sleep when a sound on the left side of her room caught her attention. Knowing that she wasn't expecting anyone, she quickly reached for the kunai hidden under her pillow.
At a speed invisible to the normal eye she flung the metal object across the room to the figure in her room. It wasn't until after her eyes adjusted in the light that she saw the shadow of the spiky haired, mismatched eyes of the copy-nin, and former sensei.
One of the four people that knew how to disarm the barrier. The other two were Tsunade, Sasuke and...Naruto.
"Uh...Sakura that was a little too close for comfort." He sheepishly stated as he removed the deadly weapon from the wall, a centimeter or two away from his head.
He placed it on the table next to him, turned on the small lamp, adjusted himself on the chair and opened his favorite book.
"What do you want Kakashi?" She harshly questioned as she faced back to look out the window.
A silver brow rose from behind the grey pages of the orange covered book. Sakura rarely called his name without the 'sensei' title. When she did it only meant that she was really annoyed or just down right pissed. He knew what was bothering her and would've left her alone had it not been her worried blonde haired friend barging into his apartment begging him to check on her.
Women and their pmsing moods was never a thing that he wanted to be bothered with.
"Your friend Ino told me that she hasn't seen you lately and was worried about you." He simply stated while putting away his book.
His visible eye slightly hardened with the seriousness that laced with his next words.
"Sakura you need to start back with your training and living again. You can't keep yourself cooped up in your room for the rest of your life."
Sakura gave no response as she continued to look out the window. She wouldn't give in to him. All she wanted to do is be alone. He better than anyone should understand why.
She flinched when she felt the copy-nin rest on the empty side of the bed next to her. She did not do anything when he lifted her up and placed her head on his chest. His arms wrapped around her and held her in place when it felt like she was about to escape his grip. Kakashi was silent for a while before speaking again.
"Everyone is worried about you. Tsunade's been drinking more than often, trying to figure out a way to bring you out of this mode. Ino chased me down to talk to you for three days before I finally gave in. And trust me I can still hear her screaming annoying voice in my head." He stated with a smile.
Sakura couldn't help the chuckle the escaped her lips nor could she stop the tears that soon followed. Kakashi felt her tears damping his shirt and knew that she was crying. He stroked her salmon colored hair.
"I know you might not want to hear this right now, but please know that it wasn't your fault. Not the last time or this time. You did what you could. No one blames you."
At those words her hand held a death grip on his shirt while she cried her heart out. He adjusted her so that she was more comfortable in his grasp.
"Just let it out Sakura. Let it all out."
She cried hard that evening.
He was once again there for her just like he was there when she locked herself in her bedroom for two-weeks after Sasuke's death. The father-figure that he is, he always knew how to make her feel better.
Those were his gentle words to her.
They weren't the words that she wanted to hear but the ones she needed to hear.
"Hey Sasuke...sorry I haven't visited you lately."
Delicate fingers traced the carved name of her former teammate. Dressed in black, Sakura sat in front of the tomb. The dark streaks of the mascara ran down her face as tears fell from her eyes. She retracted her hand away from the warm stone and placed them on her lap. Leaves scattered and danced around as the wind blew by; also causing her hair to flap against her pale skin. After a long period of silence she spoke again to the speechless stone.
"Things haven't been...right over here. As you probably know Hinata died in battle a few weeks ago."
A sad sigh escaped her lips as she tucked away a few strands of hair behind her ears.
"Hinata's family started speaking to me again. I don't know what brought on the change but I'm presuming Neji had something to do it. Kiba and Shino resumed their training. Kiba is trying so hard to smile the way that he used to, but you can tell that it's not the same as before."
"Everyone else are doing fine and seems to have made an attempt to go on with their lives: Kakashi's still a pervert, Tsunade always drunk, Ino's still annoying and..."
Her brows creased and her mind drifted away as she tried to make herself state her other teammate's name.
"And Naruto...I don't know. He still hasn't spoken to me. He blames me for your death and Hinata's. He's proven to me over and over that he doesn't feel the same way about me anymore."
She looked down at her still flat stomach.
"This is the biggest proof."
She chuckled but tears still fell from her eyes.
"I don't know how I'm going to tell him that I'm carrying his child."
She turned her emerald eyes towards Sasuke's tomb; imagining his shocked expression.
"I forgot to mention...I'm pregnant, although it is not really 'my' child. It's actually Hinata's and Naruto's. Before she passed away she asked me to carry on her legacy with this child within me. Crazy...I know. I just...I...don't know. It was her final wish. How could I deny her that?"
She pulled her legs closer to her chest and held it in place and rested her head on her knees. Her eyes were locked on the clear sky above.
"The irony of this whole thing is that I still love him more than anything in this whole world...enough to this...for him. If I could I would've traded spots with her so they could have their happy family and ending."
Her mind slowly drifted away again. Time seemed to pass as she sat there staring at the world in front of her.
"I just hope...wish that he isn't upset that I'm carrying this child." She sadly stated.
Her stomach growled and she knew it was time to that she went to go get something to eat. She had woken up early this morning and had only eaten an apple on her way out of the house.
"Before I forget...Kikyou is a few weeks from giving birth to your son. You heard right you're going to have a son. She's excited because she knows that's what you really wanted. The baby and mommy-to-be are doing fine. Kakashi have already decided that he'll be his guardian and teach him the ways of the sharingan. I don't-"
Once again her stomach growled, louder than before.
"I guess we'll have to finish this conversation another time Sasuke. I really need to get something to eat." She stated as she stood up.
A wave of dizziness hit her as soon as she was on her two feet. The effect of the pregnancy was starting to get to her. She stood there trying to catch her breath. As soon as everything was stabilized she made an attempt to walk.
"I need to get use to this." She tried to jok.
She stopped midway and her eyes stared at his tomb. Two fingers were brought up to her lips. After lightly kissing them she placed them on the top of the carved stone.
"...til next time." She stated.
Never a goodbye.
As she turned around to make her way to the path leading to the entrance of the burial ground of the fallen soldiers she stopped immediately. Her heart skipped a beat and her eyes grew wide.
Just how long have he been standing there?
How much did he hear?
Blue tired eyes stared back into her jaded ones.
Ok everyone here's the latest chapter. For those with the millions of questions like:
How will this story turn into a Naruto X Sakura story?
How Hinata and Naruto ended up together?
What happened between Sakura and Naruto?
Did they have a prior relationship?
If you guys have patience all those questions will be answered in time. Until then please continue to read and please review.