I tried to talk him out of it. He refused to listen. Stupid. Leaving Bella had to be one of the stupidest, idiotic things he'd ever done. There were quite a few, more than you would expect from someone as perfect to a human as Edward Cullen.
He sat now on a couch in our home in Alaska, sobbing tearlessly. No one knew what to do – he refused to listen to anyone, preferring to mope. I knew what he needed – Bella – but I couldn't tell him that. He wanted to think that he was protecting her.
He had come in the door, in emotional agony, and when I'd glanced at Jasper, he'd let cheeriness and tranquility flood the room. I think if Edward would have been able to, he would have cried and cried and cried, real tears.
There had been nothing Carlisle and the others and I could to do persuade him not to leave Bella. We all knew how much he loved her – we'd seen the changes in him, once he'd started to stay with her overnight – but we also knew how much he wanted to protect her, and save her from what we are. I tried to tell him that Bella was fine – sure, there were some close calls, but we would always take care of her. He didn't listen, and then he left.
His abandonment of Bella had him sitting here on a couch, crying tearlessly. I could only imagine how Bella felt. I almost wished Edward had never met Bella. Maybe it would have been better for both of them that way. But I suppose people say, "It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" for a reason.
Edward finally stopped shaking from sobs. This was almost worse, in a way, because despite Jasper flooding the room with emotion, I could still tell that Edward felt like he was dying inside.
He looked up at me and asked, "What have I done, Alice?"
I didn't know what to tell him. "Don't worry about it," I finally said. "She'll be alright." I knew he shouldn't have left her, however, but I wanted to put his mind at ease.
That was impossible, unfortunately.
"She believed me so easily, Alice."
I didn't say anything, just sat down next to him.
"She believed me so easily when I told her I didn't love her. I cannot believe it. How could she believe me that easily? How could I have done that to her?"
Again, I didn't know what to say.
"Alice," he finally managed. "I think I may have just made the biggest mistake of my life."