Not Pretty Enough

Not Pretty Enough


Disclaimer: Don't own it never will. Characters belong to JKR and song belongs to Kasey Chambers. Don't flame if you don't like the pairing. If you read just to say I am crazy, on dope or whatever, I will just delete comments.

Hermione sat in the corner of the crowded bar cradling a glass of Firewhiskey as she watched the man she loved dance with his blonde girlfriend. She was watching the infamous Sirius Black. That's right, the goody-goody Gryffindor know-it-all had fallen and fallen hard for the Playboy marauder.

Everyone was out celebrating the double engagement of Ron and Luna and Harry and Ginny.

Hermione sat in her corner and watched Harry and Ginny dance under the glittering disco ball. She watched as Ginny leant up and kissed Harry on the lips. They kept kissing until they were rudely interrupted by Fred and George.

Fred and George caught sight of Hermione and made their way over to her. They sat on either side of her and Fred took the now warm Firewhiskey from her hands. She didn't say a word as the twins ordered 3 more glasses of Firewhiskey. Hermione just kept her gaze defiantly on the table.

George opened his mouth to say something but the waitress walked over and placed their drinks on the table. Hermione took a sip, relishing the burning sensation the liquid made as it made its way down her throat.

She took her gaze off the table and looked at George. "Now what were you going to say?" she yelled over the music.

"Why are you here all alone? Your best friends just got engaged. Come dance and have some fun." George replied.

"I don't want to." Hermione said stubbornly before returning her gaze to the man she loved with her whole heart.

Fred and George followed her line of sight and saw who she was looking at. They shared a glance before George wrapped an arm around her shoulder and Fred wrapped an arm around her waist.

"Hermione it's ok. Come on lets go get some more alcohol into you and then you're going to have some fun." Fred says as the pair stood up, bringing Hermione with them.

Hermione protested but finally gave in and followed the boys to the dance floor. She was immediately pulled into a group dance by Ginny and Luna. She smiled and let loose a little bit.

That was until she saw HIM. He was snogging the daylights out of the blonde-haired bimbo. She felt her heart drop to her stomach. She excused her self and went back to her table. She grabbed her bag and walked out of the pub and into the frosty streets of London. No-one saw her leave, no-one except the man who she thought hadn't noticed her all night.

Hermione apparated back to Grimmauld Place where she proceeded to walk into the kitchen where she found Mrs. Weasley and a heavily pregnant Fleur chatting at the table.

"Hermione?! What are you doing here? Shouldn't you still be out with everyone?" Molly said as she got up and made Hermione a cup of tea.

"Nah, I got tired so I decided to come home. Fleur, how are you? How is the munchkin?" Hermione said as she sat next to the young woman.

Fleur rubbed her hands over her protruding belly and answered "I am fine 'ermione. Zee munchkin iz fine. He kicks at night and vakes me up, but it is vell worth it."

Hermione nodded before having a small sip of tea. "So Hermione, tell me, what are the boys and girls all up to?" Molly said as she sat back down.

"About round 10 of Firewhiskey," Hermione joked. Molly and Fleur laughed before Hermione continued, "Honestly they are fine. Fred and George obviously can't bear the thought of their only sister kissing a bloke so they keep interrupting, Rona and Luna went into the bathroom oh about 20 minutes ago and everyone else is just drinking and dancing."

"It's good that they are all letting loose. The war had a strain on all of us. Especially Harry, I can't even begin to imagine what he was thinking when Sirius was found alive." Molly said, warming her hands on her tea.

Hermione nodded then stood up and walked over to the potion ingredients cupboard. That night, Molly and Hermione made 6 cauldrons full of hangover potion for the others before they both went to bed.


Hermione rubbed her eyes as the sun streamed through the half open curtains of her bedroom. She got out of bed and wrapped a light dressing gown over her black nightgown and walked downstairs. Hermione walked past everyone's rooms and saw none of them asleep in them.

She walked quietly into the lounge room and saw a sight that made her giggle quietly. Everyone was asleep, whether it be on the floor, on lounges or on top of one another.

Hermione quickly conjured up a camera and took a picture of the sight before her before walking into the kitchen to prepare breakfast for the surely hung-over people in the lounge.

20 Minutes Later

Everyone in the lounge room woke up with killer headaches. They all moaned and groaned as even the slightest noise was magnified ten-fold in their heads. They all smelt cooking bacon and followed their noses to the kitchen where Hermione was dishing up even amounts of bacon, pancakes, sausages, waffles, eggs, grilled tomato and toast onto plates for them. She then filled a tall glass with a thick purple potion and then another with orange juice and placed them at every setting.

Hermione felt eyes on her and looked up. She smiled at the sight of everyone and whispered "Good Morning. Breakfast is ready and there are large doses of hangover potion for you."

They all slowly walked over to the table, wincing at the sound of the chairs scraping the floor before all downing their potions in one gulp.

Everyone breathed a sigh of relief as the potion took effect before digging into their meal.

"Hermione, aren't you going to have any?" Sirius asked after swallowing a mouthful of eggs.

Hermione shook her head and said "No sorry guys. I'm going out for breakfast with my boyfriend."

Forks dropped and mouths hung open as Hermione finished her sentence. "Boy-Boyfriend?" Sirius said.

Hermione nodded "Yep. We have been going out for a month now."

"Hermione! How could you not tell me?!" Ginny admonished.

Hermione smirked and put her empty tea cup on the table, "You never asked" She replied before walking out.

Everyone stared shocked at Hermione's retreating back. Their mouths were still wide open when Molly walked into the room. "Hermione just told you?" she said with a smirk.

Everyone nodded. "I knew she was going to. Don't worry everyone. Todd is a nice boy and he really cares for Hermione." She said however her thoughts betrayed her she however cares for someone else.

"You knew mum?" Fred asked.

"Of course I did. I have met him a few times. He has been over here and the two of them have taken me out to lunch." Molly said. "I can ask Hermione…"

She didn't get to finish her sentence as a fully dressed Hermione walked into the room. "Hermione, you look great." Molly said and she wasn't lying. Hermione was wearing a black off the shoulder top with a silver pattern on the front. She was wearing denim short-shorts and a large gold belt under her bust. She had on metallic thongs and her hair was pulled into a side ponytail after being straightened. She had on a faint amount of silver eye shadow and a faint line of gold eyeliner which brought out the honey and gold flecks in her chocolate brown eyes. She had a light sheen of lipgloss on her lips and a small amount of bronze blush on.

Sirius' jaw dropped, Hermione had sure grown into a beautiful woman. Holy! She looks amazing. Can't think like this, I'm old enough to be her father and I am dating Cindy.

"Thanks Molly. What were you going to ask me Molly?" Hermione said before putting her wallet and mobile phone into her bag.

"I was going to ask, would you like to bring Todd over for dinner tonight?" Molly asked.

"Sure, he will love it. Look I gotta go. I'll see you later." Hermione said with a goodbye wave as she apparated away.

That Night

Dinner went really well. Well, if by really well you mean Fred and George managing to blow up three plates of food experimenting on them, Harry, Ron, Sirius, Remus and the Weasleys interrogating Todd and of course the outburst from a very hormonal Fleur.

Todd and Hermione apparated back to Todd's flat later that night. "Well, that was interesting." Todd said as he took off his and Hermione's jackets.

"Yea, look I'm really sorry about them but they are all like my brothers so they are protective of me." Hermione explained.

Todd just nodded before kissing her.

1.5 Years Later

The past year and a half had been pretty hectic: Hermione had caught Todd cheating on her with Sirius' girlfriend Cindy, Fleur had given birth to a bouncing baby boy they named Leonardo Arthur Weasley and Harry and Ginny and Ron and Luna were married. Hermione had also packed up and left in the middle of the night, with only a note telling them not to worry and goodbye. The Order searched for months but could never find her. She left right after Leo's birth.

One morning an owl landed on the windowsill of Number 12 Grimmauld Place with a thick package tied to its leg. Sirius walked over to the owl and removed the weight. The owl gratefully took the owl treats from Sirius' outstretched hand and then had a drink from Hedwig's bowl before flying away.

Sirius opened the letter and almost dropped it at the sight of the name signed on the bottom. "Pads, what's up?" Remus asked.

Sirius just thrust the letter into his hands. Remus looked at the name and gasped as well. The letter was passed around the table before it finally returned to Sirius. It was from Hermione.

Sirius pulled something else out from the envelope. A thick wad of tickets to a concert that night. They all agreed to go, even though they didn't know what Hermione was getting at.

They all appeared at the concert and were shown to their seats. They found that they had been saved front row seats. The group was even more confused now.

They all took their seats just in time for an announcer to say, "WELCOME! COULD YOU ALL PLEASE WELCOME TO THE STAGE THE BAND YOU ALL CAME TO SEE: ANGELS MAKE MONEY!" A deafening cheer was heard from the crowd. "FIRST, ON DRUMS- LUKE JAMES," Luke James walked out and sat at the drums " NEXT, ON LEAD GUITAR- REECE DAVIES," Reece walked onto the stage and plugged in his guitar before playing a loud chord. "ON THE BASS- ANTONIO," an Italian bass player walked out and did the same as Reece "ON THE KEYBOARD- PAUL LYALL!" the keyboardist walked out and stood behind it "AND FINALLY, THE LEAD SINGER, THE OBJECT OF MANY MENS DESIRE, PUT YOUR HANDS TOGETHER FOR HERMIONE GRANGER!"

To say everyone was shocked was an understatement. They watched as Hermione walked out onto the stage, smiling and waving. She walked over to the microphone and said "Hey Everyone! How ya doing?" Hermione was answered by loud screams and cheers.

"Now, this show is pretty special to me. I have a few friends out here in the audience and I have a few songs that I would like to dedicate to them." Hermione said.

She sang a few songs, Sirius could tell who the songs were dedicated to and he saw she was having lots of fun. The concert was almost finished when Hermione walked off the stage and came back on with an acoustic guitar. She sat on a stool provided by the Stage Crew.

Hermione adjusted the mike to her height and said "This song is actually dedicated to the one man I ever loved, the one man who would never love me. He is amazing but to him, I never existed. He is perfect and handsome as and I am just a plain Jane." Her comment was shot down by the thousands of people in the arena screaming out "NO!"

Hermione just laughed before she quieted everyone down. "Back then, I was a plain Jane. So this is actually dedicated, sigh to Sirius Black. You were the one man I ever loved but you never saw me. This song is called Not Pretty Enough." Hermione said quickly looking down at Sirius before strumming a few chords on her guitar. She opened her mouth and began to sing:

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should i try it harder
Why do you see right through me?

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me.
I sleep, I wake I try hard not to break.
I crave, I love, I 've waited long enough.
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should i try it harder
Why do you see right through me?

I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real.
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees.
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man.
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should i try it harder
Why do you see right through me?

Why do you see, Why do you see, Why do you see, right throughme
Why do you see, Why do you see, Why do you see, right throughme
Why do you see, Why do you see, Why do you see, right throughme
Why do you see, Why do you see, Why do you see...
Right through me?

Sirius looked up at the beautiful angel on stage. He thought that his feelings were only one sided but he was proven wrong. Her lyrics stated that she thought she wasn't pretty enough for him. How wrong she was. She was too good for him. He needed to tell her.

He watched as the band took one final bow before the curtains closed and they walked off the stage. Everyone turned to Sirius and looked at him with concern.

He stood up and raced out of his seat. The group followed as best as they could but they were soon lost in the crowd. They stopped running and walked out in the crowd. By the time they had exited the arena, they had lost sight of Sirius.

Sirius had raced backstage. He was about to walk through the door when a big, black bodyguard stood in his way. "SIRIUS!" Remus yelled as the group caught sight of him again and caught up with him.

They stopped short at the sight of the bodyguard. "PASSES!" he grunted.

The group didn't know what to do. They were terrified. "Joe, its ok let them through." A soft, feminine voice said from behind Joe. Joe grunted before he moved aside.

"Follow me." The voice said again. The group did as they were told and they followed the girl through mazes of costumes and boxes. They reached a door with the name 'Hermione Granger' written in purple and black letters Hermione's favourite colours. Sirius thought.

The girl knocked on the door. "Who is it?" a voice from inside called. "Its Emma ma'am. Your guests have arrived." The young girl said.

"Thanks Em, please show them in." The voice said again.

Emma smiled before opening the door and letting them walk in. "I didn't think you would show up." Hermione's gentle voice said from the dressing table.

Harry and Ron rushed over to her and engulfed her in a hug. The others all did the same and when it was finally Sirius' turn, she stopped.

Tonks noticed the tension and cleared her throat, "I think Hermione and Sirius need to talk about some things."

The group left leaving behind Hermione who had just sat back down at the dressing table and picking up a hairbrush and a pensive Sirius.

"Why do you say those things about yourself Hermione?" Sirius asked as he walked up behind Hermione.

Hermione just continued brushing her hair before answering "Because they are true. You will never like me and I am just simple. I'm not pretty, my idea of fun is sitting on the lounge curled up with a good book and a drink and as for you, you are handsome and love fun. You deserve someone prettier and better than me."

Sirius gasped. She thought she was ugly. Sirius angrily shook his head as he laid his hand on Hermione's shoulder before kneeling so his face was resting on her shoulder. "Hermione, I have liked you for years. I always thought you needed someone better than me. I am an ex-convict and I am old enough to be your father but I have always liked you."

He stroked her face and pressed his cheek to hers "You are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on," he said placing a kiss on her cheek "never doubt that. Please. When you are sad, I want to hurt the one who did it. When you smile and are happy, I am happy. You're the most amazing woman I have ever met." When he finished, he placed a gentle kiss on her neck then her shoulder.

She spun the chair around to face him. "You really mean that?" Hermione whispered.

Sirius nodded. "What about all those other girls?" Hermione asked.

"Pitiful excuses to get you out of my mind." Sirius said before cupping her small face in his large hands.

He wiped the tears slowly flowing from her eyes with his thumb before kissing them away. "No more." He said as he kissed down her face.

When he reached her lips, he looked at her. She had opened her eyes and he gazed into the pools of chocolate. He saw love and pure happiness in her eyes.

As if asking for permission, Sirius looked at her lips then her eyes. She nodded before he placed his lips against hers.

The kiss was gentle at first but when Sirius opened his mouth and his tongue licked Hermione's lips asking permission, the kiss became deeper and more passionate.

When the two realised they would need oxygen soon, they slowly broke apart. Sirius brushed a loose curl from her eyes before whispering "I love you so much Hermione."

Hermione smiled a teary smile before placing a gentle kiss on his lips. "I love you too Sirius."

They passionately kissed again before Sirius pulled away. "You are absolutely beautiful my love. Never think you're not pretty enough."