A collection of short stories about Heero and Duo getting together. I've posted them all as separate stories because they can all be read as short oneshots but there is connection between the stories so I've numbered them in chronological order.

Fourth in the Ficlet Arc.

Pairing: Suggestion of future 1+2+1

Warnings: Possible death

Heero's POV.

4. White Hot

Slowly the white wash of the explosion faded away around me and the darkness set in again.

My body is in pain and I think that I'm bleeding, from the head and from the gut, but I can't feel it. The pain in my body is dwarfed in comparison to the pain I feel in my heart.

I had wanted to fall in love so badly.

But everything had to wait. The missions came first. And now I'm going to die without ever knowing what that feels like. To love and be loved.

Relena could never tell me this, nor make me experience it. Everyday I spent with her a void expanded in my heart till it left a gaping hole in my chest, hid only by clothing and a stone mask.

I had wanted to fall in love so badly.

To have someone touching me, like just a brush of my skin gave them the highest pleasure. To have someone listening to me, like I had the answer to life itself. To have someone kissing me, like they wanted to crawl into that void and make me whole again. To have someone loving me, like living without me couldn't be called living at all.

I had wanted so badly to find that person and have that person find me and make me feel white hot for the rest of my life. Necessary, admirable and alive. Like I felt during undercover missions with Duo.

I had wanted to fall in love so badly.

This one's kinda lame, but I couldn't leave it out, even though it doesn't really add much to the series.



Part 5: 'Baka' he said