I Promise

A Twilight Fanfic

By sylamesio123

A/N: Oh my gawd, I am SO sorry I haven't been updating. It's just there has been a lot going on in my life and it sux and I didn't have time to write but I promise im getting back on track. Oh and check out my new story In The End. And don't worry about me finishing that one cuz…well…I've already written it all. It hasn't gotten many reviews and I think its pretty good. DRAMA! xD

Warning: A bit graphic…tehe

Chapter 10. And Now We Can't Have It

BPOV

I walked Alice back to our dorm. I thought it was a really good idea to give the baby up for adoption. It deserved a live, not matter who it's father was.

"Look, Alice," I spoke without thinking. "I really want you to know that I'm there for you no matter w-"

Alice cut me off by laughing. "Oh, Bella, I already know that. I mean, you have been there with me through all of this and we have only known each other for, like, a week. Right now, you're the only friend I've got, and I'm liking that feeling."

We finished the moment with a hug and then I heard and all too familiar voice screaming our names.

"Alice, Bella, where have you guys been. Oh my gosh, I've been waiting here for hours. You didn't pick up your phones and didn't know where you were-"

Alice interrupted his rant. "Edward, shut up, we were just getting some coffee, geez."

"Coffee?" He squeaked, embarrassed. "Oh."

Alice and I giggled in unison. "God, Edward," I said through my laughter, "I think that coffee may have burned Alice. Call the police."

Edward just rolled his eyes and Alice and I spat out more mocking comments. "Shut up. Lets go inside. Its fucking cold out here."

And he let them into their room, smiling and happy that they were okay.

JPOV

Kill me.

I'm serious. Put a gun to my head and shoot me.

Right now.

I. Am. Such. A. Dick.

How could I do this to Alice and Bella? They were such good people and I had ruined them both. Was it bad Karma? What did I do in one of my past lives that I had to pay for now.

Or, maybe, I was just an asshole.

I bet I had Multiple Personality Disorder. Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I was all nice and great to people and then when things got good my asshole side just had to come out and ruin it all. And I just sat there, watching, doing nothing.

I was walking around campus, nowhere to go and no one to see. The wind was cold against my face and I was only wearing a light jacket but I didn't care.

I deserved to be miserable.

There was no one around me that I knew, and there were even barely any people to start with. I felt more alone than I ever had. And then when Edward finds out about what I had done he was going to kick my ass and probably ignore me, too. He cared for Alice. And he cared for Bella even more. He had told me so.

Then I heard race footsteps coming from behind me on the hard rock sidewalk. I turned to see a scrawny freshman running toward me, his eyes wide and darted just at me.

I sighed. What had I done wrong now.

He finally got to my and started spitting out words I couldn't understand through his gasps. Then, I soon recognized him as Alex Heartford. He had the best grades on campus, but he didn't look it. He looked as if he hadn't shaven in days and he was wear pants with so many holes in them they looked like he had just gone trough a food processing plant.

"Slow down. " I told him.

He took a couple breaths before putting his hand on my shoulder. "Dude, Alice, I saw her at the…abortion clinic."

And with that I took off running, thinking nothing but I have to see Alice.

EPOV

Bella, Alice, and I had been talking for hours. Every once and a while the conversation would get deep and one of them would get uncomfortable so I had to be the one making jokes half the time.

Then, suddenly, in the middle of our conversation about cereal Alice stood up. "Hey, guys, I've got some stuff to think about. I'm just gonna, um, take a walk. Okay?"

"Oh, um," Bella bit her lip. I could see the fear in her eyes of being alone with me.

"Yeah, that's fine." I told Alice as I smiled up at her. She grinned.

"I'll be back later. Don't wait up." She directed toward both of us. Bella giggled, but her laugh was shaky.

Finally Alice shut the door behind her. Alice and Bella ad been sitting on the couch while I had sat on the floor. I got up and sat go close to Bella I could smell her strawberry scent and hear her breath.

She smiled at me but then looked down.

"Look, Bella, I know you don't really trust me a lot yet, but I really just want to get to know you and-"

She cut me off with her lips and I froze. She cupped my face with her hands and before I knew it I was kissing back, too shocked to refuse. He lips were warm and soft she smelled of flowers.

She shifted so that she was closer to me. I grabbed her hips without opening my eyes and sat her on my lap. She was so light, like a delicate feather. My lips moved to her neck and my hands roamed all over her skin. How could I resist it? She was so soft everywhere. I had never felt it before. She moaned when my lips moved to her shoulder.

I then picked her up, without my lips leaving her body, and brought her into the bedroom where I laid her down on one of the beds, hoping it was hers. I needed her now and I knew that after this it would be over. I had lost to myself. I thought that I could handle just being her friend, or just being her bed buddy, but after this I knew that I needed more. I needed all of her, every day, every minute.

Her hands moved from my back to the bottom of her shirt which she pulled up over her head. She wasn't wearing a bra. Fuck it.

I kissed between her breast and grabbed her left one with my hand. I rubbed over her already hard nipple and I already knew I was hard. I had been from the moment she touched me.

"God, I've wanted this for a long time Bella. I want everything with you."

She froze. "Get out." She whispered.

"What?" I asked, confused as hell.

"Get out." She yelled as she grabbed her shirt.

For a minute I was in shock. What had I done? What had I said? But I followed her orders and got out the apartment. And after that I knew one thing. I didn't want everything with her. I needed everything with her.

BPOV

He wanted everything.

And now we can't have it.