Title: Submission

Pairing: Sofia/Lady Heather, (with a hint of Sara/Sofia) CSI

Rating: NC-17 Read at work at your own risk.

Disclaimer: CSI and all its characters are not mine, they belong to Jerry Bruckheimer

Summary: Sofia meets Lady Heather

A/N: This story deals with and explores sexual relations between two women. If the idea of two women in a physical relationship bothers you, read no further.

Kink: This fic does deal with the idea of dominance and submission. (Obviously) Handcuffs will be used in a manner other than that recommended by the Surgeon General. That said, the kink isn't really the point of the story, and it is completely consensual, so I don't think it is particularly disturbing.

Random Author Choice: I made Lady Heather's eyes Blue. They are not. I know this. Its called artistic license.


Sometimes she is my lover. We are partners in every sense of the word: we snuggle on the couch and watch old movies; we make love gently on lazy Saturday mornings and spend all day talking; we read the paper together on Sundays. Our house is bright and warm and her arms are my safe haven.

Sometimes it's different.

She's a stranger; someone I have met by chance. We do not know each other's histories - we share nothing but this moment. The room is dark and hot and though I crave her touch, it is unfamiliar to me.

Some things however, are always the same.

I can never see her face – it is never defined – but I always know her. She is powerful: strong, but not in the way of physicality. She is dangerous – deadly even – yet I am drawn to her with a need I can neither explain nor deny.

Always I feel the fire on my skin as she wields the lash with expert skill. I know the struggle of complete helplessness as I stain against the chains while her sure touch teases my burning flesh and leaves me begging. And always, I know that perfect moment of complete surrender where everything in me is left raw and exposed to her – and I am known, accepted, loved – and my release leaves me shattered and remade.

I rarely think about the after. There can be no after unless she is truly my partner and lover, and yet even then I find it difficult to imagine what it might be like. Maybe I don't want to. If there is no after, then it remains perfect – like the fairy tales we hear as children – there is only the climax and happily ever after.

This is no fairy tale, and so for now, it will remain buried; my fantasy, and the one thing my soul and body crave above all else.

"Hey Sofia, you coming?"

Not nearly the way I'd like to be, is the sarcastic rejoinder that I keep firmly behind my teeth, shoving down the irritation I feel at his interruption. Frankly, the way things have been going lately, that fantasy may be my only company for quite some time.

"Yeah, be right there Jim," I reply, trying to keep the weariness and frustration out of my voice. It's not his fault. This case is wearing on me. Hell it's wearing on all of us. Young men and women; brutally tortured to death. You think you've seen it all, and then something like this reminds you that it doesn't really matter if you have or not: death is still ugly and senseless and people are still evil.

I just want this to be done. I can feel the cracks in the armor I've welded around my soul to do this job, the old scars splitting to reveal wounds I have tried to bury for years.

It scares me, this weakness. I am so damn tired: tired of fighting and fighting and never gaining ground against the tide of crime; tired of coming home every night to an empty apartment; tired of the shifting emotional sands and uncertainty that surround me every day in the lab – of the barely concealed glares and the way everyone walks on eggshells around me.

I told Sara I missed being trusted, but it goes so much deeper than that.

I want to trust again. I want to feel the safety of a lover's arms or even the simple welcoming smile of a good friend.

I thought – hoped even – that there was a chance of something between Sara and I, but the distance I see in her gaze when she looks at me tore that hope away, and I'm ashamed to say I let it go without a fight.

So here I am, walking out into the blistering Vegas heat with Gil and Brass to talk to a source of Grissom's so we can try and shed some light on this damn case. I have no idea where we are going. Brass is being cagey and Grissom just smirked and said "you'll see," in that aggravatingly smug way of his. By the time we get away from the strip though, I have a sneaking suspicion of where we are going to end up, and I have to admit: I'm curious.


She's shorter than I expected Not particularly inspired perhaps, but standing with Grissom and Brass in the opulent lobby of the ancient house-slash-brothel, it's about all I can manage. To be honest, I'm not sure what I really expected. All I can say is; I was curious.

Clinical, physical description is easy. The woman approaching us is about my height, slender but curvy, with dark, almost mahogany hair, ivory skin and pale wintry blue eyes.

She moves with a sensuous grace as she descends the stairs; her black leather outfit purposefully designed to draw the eye – as it's doing quite effectively with Gil and Jim.

Hell, as its doing to me

I will freely admit that I find her physically attractive. I'm not dead after all. But simple physical appeal is hardly rare, nor is it enough to stir anything deeper in me. There are lots of pretty people in Vegas.

Her sexuality is blatant, and yet almost unconscious – as if she has been doing this for so long she has forgotten how to be anything else.

Watching her walk toward us with all the predatory grace of a stalking panther however, I don't believe that for a second. She knows exactly what she's doing.

I take a brief glance at my companions and hold back a smirk. Poor Jim. He's as old fashioned a gentleman as they come with a deep respect for women, but his tastes are decidedly vanilla. I'd bet a paycheck that an exciting evening for him is retiring early with a glass of good whiskey and his favorite show or sporting event. Brass is a simple man, with simple views and simple pleasures. It makes him a good person and a good cop who I trust with my life: it also makes him utterly mundane.

Grissom's reaction is far more interesting. I'd heard the scuttlebutt of course. This woman is a bit of a celebrity in the department, and that's saying something in Las Vegas – where the weird is commonplace.

It's rumored that she claims to know a patron's desires before they themselves know. She apparently told Catherine she'd make a great dominatrix – quite a compliment – and one Cath was rumored to be quite flattered by. I could see it too. Cath is all about control. She is brash and obvious and guards her power zealously, but she's the kind of person that fights you face to face. I can appreciate that in her; she's a product of a rough and tumble life and a will harder than steel. It makes me admire her and wish we could be better allies, but little beyond that.

It's also rumored that Grissom is fascinated by this woman – not just by her profession – but by her psychological abilities. He apparently called her an anthropologist. I guess that was a compliment from him, though the implications of that label give me pause.

She is also supposedly the only woman he's ever lost his cool for, and that I find interesting. Grissom studies people. He figures them out and then dismisses them – never letting them get close enough to touch him. That she supposedly has an affect on him - combined with his comment about her alleged abilities - made me curious.

I wonder what she would say about Sara.

I wonder what Sara would say about her.

That is a place I can't afford to go however, and I shove those thoughts ruthlessly away. Speculation in this case, can only bring pain.

Watching Gil watch her with fascination, something I have never seen on his face and can only assume is the Grissom version of lust, and a hint of fear however, I am beginning to believe the scuttlebutt. I'm still not entirely sure of what to make of her however, when she speaks in a smoky, cultured voice that whispers down my spine most pleasantly.

"Dr. Grissom, Captain Brass. What can I do for you gentlemen this evening? I assume you are not here to indulge yourselves."

"I'm afraid not, we're here on business," Grissom says, his voice softer than usual.

I roll my eyes at Gil and am about to just introduce myself, when she turns to look at me, and I mean really look at me.

Everything else fades away, like mist before the sun, and I am pinned for a second by eyes the color of Arctic glaciers; eyes that seem to look right through my skin. I feel trapped and completely exposed under her gaze. I am suddenly hyper aware of my heart beating; of the breath in my lungs and the feel of cloth against my skin.

Even as I am suddenly open to her however, something is visible to me as I stare back. For the briefest fraction of a second, she drops the mask of polite civility and I see the control she wields over herself – I glimpse just how much she is holding back and how much power coils within her. My analogy of a panther was close, but,

God, I had no idea.

It makes me shiver. Hell, it does more than that: it makes me want to drop to my knees and surrender myself to her will.

It terrifies me.

It turns me on.

"Gentlemen," she speaks, still holding me fast with her eyes. "Where are your manners? You fail to introduce me to your stunning colleague."

Then Grissom speaks and the tether is snapped; the moment gone as if it never existed, and I am left nearly trembling.

"Detective Sofia Curtis, meet Lady Heather."

"Pleased to meet you Detective," she says with perfect smoothness and clarity while it takes nearly everything I have to manage a slightly husky, "Likewise."

Normally, this is where I start to get pissed: pissed at myself for the loss of control, and pissed at her for trying to play me.

So why am I not angry right now? Because she isn't trying to play me. There is no hint of mockery or smugness in her gaze or manner. She knows exactly the effect she's having on me, yes, and she won't apologize for it – its who and what she is – but the fact that my body, my whole being, responds to her like someone has struck a tuning fork in my soul, well, that's not her fault, is it?

Brass takes the lead in the questioning and thankfully I'm able to drag my attention back to the matter at hand. We are actually here for consultation, not because Lady Heather is connected to the case, and as I watch her look at the crime scene photos of young people murdered - either by torture or rough play gone wrong – I'm glad. She displays no emotion but the socially appropriate distaste for murder. Not a blink or a breath gives away her true feelings. I would hate to have to interrogate her.

I'd rather have her interrogate me, comes the errant thought before I can mentally slap myself.

Tightening the rein on my libido, I re-focus on why we are here.


"Your victims are not gagged."

"So?" grunts Brass. Grissom picks up the photo again, looking at it like it will suddenly give up its answers.

Lady Heather merely arches one sculpted brow and contemplates the guys like a teacher with two promising but occasionally dense students.

"In such situations, the submissive would have made a great deal of noise. That the dominant - in this case your perpetrator - did not gag them, most likely means that they wanted to hear the victims.

"Son of a bitch wanted to hear them scream," Brass growls.

"Perhaps," she replies coolly, holding out her hand for the photos again. "However, the methods used here are extremely sophisticated; painful in the extreme but not fatal. There are much easier and quicker ways to make a person scream, Captain. You should know that. Perhaps it was not screaming the murderer wanted to hear from his victims."

Now she has my full attention, not to mention Gil and Brass'.

"What do you mean Lady Heather?" Grissom asks.

Pointing again to the photo of the vic, she outlines the position the boy had been hung in.

"The victims have all been tied, hanging from their arms, but there are penetration wounds in the wrists, and note how the feet are tied together, with identical wounds below the ankles. Commonly, in situations of sexual submission or simple torture, you would see the legs spread wide – exposing the victim – making them more vulnerable, especially with young women. See the bolts in the floor? This room was equipped for such restraint, why were their legs tied together? And here, this wound in their sides? Identical on each victim."

Now she turns and pins both men with her arctic gaze. "Are you a religious man Captain Brass?"

It was Gil who answered however, in a slightly awed tone.

"The spear that pierced Christ's side. These crimes are religious in nature. The killer is re-creating the crucifixion."

"Yeah, only he's making it worse than the original." I could hear the weariness and disgust in Jim's voice - the same feelings I had been battling this whole case. Now however, I feel the familiar cleansing fire of the hunt begin its slow burn through my blood, like a fine liqueur. We have a lead and a jump on creating an accurate profile for this bastard. We're closing in. I take a breath, letting that heat push back the exhaustion, annealing the cracks in my soul. I know I'm heading for a crash, but I can see it through now.

Grissom gathers up the photos, excitement in his movements. Brass is quiet. The guys thank the Lady and we turn to leave.

Everything in me wants to stay, to feel that electric stare again, but I can't; not with the guys here. Still I hang back, just a bit, unable to stride out the door just yet.

"Detective Curtis," her voice raises the hair on the back of my neck, and I turn, forcing myself to do it slowly. I will not act like naïve, hormones-on-overdrive kid. Honestly, I won't.

The current in her eyes is dimmed, but not gone, and I swear I can feel the force of it crackle across my skin, hot and promising.

"Yes?"

"When you are ready, I will be here." It's a calm, simple promise…and it leaves me breathless.

Thankfully, Brass yells something from outside and I manage to pull myself together enough to nod. Standing in the cool dim lobby – her domain – with the desert and the guys waiting, I don't bother to deny the impact she's had on me.

"Thank you," I manage quietly, then spin on my heel and stride out, putting on my shades to shield my eyes – and my roiling emotions.

I guess the rumors were true.


Nearly two weeks pass before it's finally over. Donavan Kerry: 39, single, white male, raised in a house with a drunken abusive father and a drunken, religious mother, a Catholic priest wannabe who was never accepted to the priesthood, and now, a vicious killer. Dead vicious killer actually, thanks to some nice shooting from our own SWAT team and the feds. I never thought I'd be glad to have the help of the Feds. But I am. Kerry is dead; his latest victim home with her family. He never had time to do much to her.

We never would have found him without the religious profile. I guess we have Lady Heather to thank for that. Kerry wasn't native to Vegas, hence the Feds. Their profiler missed the crucifixion connection – they were running as blind as we were. We finally narrowed it down to private religious prep schools. Kerry had faked credentials and was volunteering his time at different schools – picking out his victims. Every one of them was bright, confident, smart, and bound to succeed in life. Every one of them had something he perceived as a flaw. Some were beginning to question their faith; one girl and another boy were gay. Little, stupid reasons that he tortured and killed them for. It still makes me sick to think about it.

We won and I know I should be thrilled, but all I feel is a bone deep exhaustion that's probably the only thing keeping the guilt and slow, deep rage at bay. I would hit something if I wasn't so damn tired, and the tug-of-war of emotions is wearing on me, pushing me past exhaustion into overdrive. Not a good place to be.

For the moment, the inter-agency pissing contest seems to have been put aside in the spirit of "Thank God we caught him" and the teams are going out to celebrate. I should go with them. I certainly earned it. But right now the thought of sitting in a crowd of slightly drunk cops and feds trying to be all chummy makes me want to vomit…or kill something. I haven't decided which.

I'm so on edge I could scream and my jaw aches from clenching it. My skin itches and I feel dirty – guilty somehow that we didn't stop him sooner. I'm coming down from the post chase high and I can feel myself crashing. I need to not be here, in the lab, when that happens.

The image of the desert awash in the gentle, cool light of the moon suddenly slips across my mind and with a final press of the keyboard, I finish and send my last report. I lock my desk, grab my keys and stride from the lab, only years of practice holding my emotions in check is keeping me from lashing out at something.

"Sofia, aren't you going out with the teams?"

A soft voice penetrates the gray fog that seems to have taken residence in my mind.

I turn to find Sara looking at me, an unusual expression on her face. Instead of the normal distance, I see…compassion? Warmth? My need to feel such things from her nearly undoes me but old habits die hard and my control remains – tattered – but intact.

"No. I uh, I have somewhere I need to be." I nearly choke on the words and brush past her, my heart giving a small cry as I smell the faintest hint of her perfume in the air.

My body is on autopilot now, because I know that if I stop, I'll collapse, and my survival instinct won't let that happen. My legs stretch as I make to my car, and the engine roars just a bit as I push the speed limit in town. Fortunately for me (and everyone else on the road) traffic is moderate for this time of night and it doesn't take me long to get away from the center of town. I hit the back roads and am soon heading away from the neon light of the strip. The desert is dark and welcoming; the cool night air a benediction on my face. I take no conscious direction, just drive, my body falling into the comforting, mindless physical task of steering. I've lost track of time, though I haven't gone all that far: I can still see the strip in my rearview when I find myself turning off the main road. There is a house in front of me and as I pull up and park, I have to chuckle bitterly at where my subconscious has brought me.

There are no other cars outside Lady Heather's this evening, but I don't get out immediately. For some reason, now that I'm here I can't make myself move; something in me unwilling to take the final step. So I sit with my hands on the steering wheel and the breeze teasing my hair from the open window, nearly trembling from a combination of exhaustion, anticipation, and need.

I look up at the moon, and suddenly, all I can see is her: those glacial eyes and that rush of power I felt down my spine when she looked at me.

Suddenly, the woman in my fantasy has a face.

The brass handle is cool beneath my touch and the lobby quiet when I walk in. Somewhere in the house I hear a soft chime and just inside the threshold of my hearing I can hear a low, primal beat of some kind of music.

"Detective Curtis. Welcome back."

In my raw state, her voice alone is enough to shorten my breath and send my pulse racing as it seems to wrap around my spine and sink into my blood. I turn and take her in. Her mahogany hair is unbound this time and she's wearing a leather corset, skin tight trousers, and high heeled boots that go up to her knees. She looks like a deadly shadow, but her eyes are incandescent in the low light; the fire behind them raging. I can feel the heat from here and it makes my knees tremble.

She stalks close to me, every move sinuous and subtle. She stops, close enough that I can hear the faintest whisper of well cared for leather and smell the hint of fragrance around her.

Whatever willpower or thought I might have had is banished and I stand transfixed as she raises a gloved hand to trace my cheek ever so lightly. The leather of her glove is alien, yet warm and soft against my skin. She doesn't speak, just holds me fast in her gaze and I'm unable to say anything.

Finally, she steps back and turns away. Before I can call out, she commands, "Come with me," and heads up the stairs, not looking back at me. I understand with perfect clarity though, that she knows I will follow.

And so I do.

We climb to the top story, and I am ushered into a beautifully appointed and very large room. Candles burn on every surface around a massive, wrought iron, four poster bed, draped in silk so dark red, it's nearly black. It is the other accessories, however, that draw my eye.

One entire wall is covered with whips, cuffs, paddles, knives and things I can't even begin to find a purpose for. I see ties hanging from the bed posters and then suddenly, she steps in front of me and all I see is her.

"I need a safe word Sofia, I will not proceed without it."

"Sidle," I say, after only a slight hesitation. She may not truly be my safety yet, but she is the one whom I want to be.

"Very well," she whispers in a dark velvet voice, with a smile that manages to be both deadly and soft, and then she kisses me.

The Lady's lips are warm and tender on mine, the gesture intimate, almost chaste. I lean into it, wanting to taste her.

With lightening speed, she fists her hand in my hair and yanks me back and down.

My scalp burns and my knees sting from impact with the hardwood floor.

"You overstep your place," she growls.

"I'm sorry Lady," I manage, struggling with the shock and the flare of mild pain.

She eyes me as if she knows damn well I'm not sorry one bit. But then…that's the point.

"Stand."

I comply, and she kisses me again, hungrily this time. This time I'm prepared. I open to her, taking everything she gives me, but remaining passive. It's like trying to drink from a waterfall or breathe in a wind storm – exhilarating, but overwhelming.

She smiles as she steps back this time.

"Good," she breathes, her electric gaze just inches from mine.

With a sure hand she guides me to stand in the middle of the room, beneath a hanging length of chain with a hook at the end. With swift movements she attaches padded leather cuffs to my wrists and attaches the hook between them. With a yank to a pulley on the wall, she tightens the chain until I stand, arms fast above my head, but feet unrestrained…for the moment.

"Take off your shoes," she commands.

As I struggle to step out of my boots, she turns to her wall. I look up to find her standing in front of me with a swath of black silk in one hand, and a knife in the other.

I can actually feel my pupils dilate.

I stare at the knife, my heart pounding, unable to look away as the candlelight gleams and dances across the blade. It is simple, with no ornamentation, and I can tell from here it is wickedly sharp. She moves past me and places the knife on the bed. I loose sight of her and then suddenly the warm glow of the room disappears behind black silk. I struggle to steady my breathing as the darkness falls over me and the blind is fastened. Almost instantly, my other senses strain to take over and I become hyper aware. I can hear her move behind me – the sound of leather on silk sheets a soft caress to my ears. Somewhere in the house I can hear that low, pulsing music. I can smell the rich warm scent of the candles she's burning, and the faintest spice of her perfume. I can feel my clothing against my skin – a constriction I'm desperate to be rid of. I can feel every breath I take and every beat of my racing heart.

She hasn't even touched me yet and I'm vibrating with anticipation.

Suddenly there is a warm, naked hand at my cheek – she's taken off her gloves. With a whisper of a touch, she traces along my jaw, down my throat and between my breasts, all the way to my belt. Slowly she unfastens it and pulls it off me.

I think for a moment she might rip my clothes off when she yanks my shirt out of my trousers, but nothing happens.

Then I feel it – the touch of cold metal against my cheek – and my whole body freezes. It slides down my jaw and along my throat, a silent menace.

I'm openly trembling now, but the slight pressure of the knife never wavers. Lower it goes, over my shirt and then I hear the keen whisper of steel against fabric as she cuts the buttons from my blouse; one by one. I feel her breath on my skin as she exposes me and then the knife moves up, slowly cutting away the sleeves.

Inch by agonizing inch, she cuts away my trousers, my bra, and finally my underwear. As she does, she takes the point of the knife, and using the lightest of pressures, scrapes it across my skin. It's shocking; raising goose bumps on my flesh, but not painful – the merest taste of what is to come.

Her touch vanishes and I wait, every cell alive; every sense straining. I can hear movement, and then she is back, her hand gentle as she traces my shoulder; the curve of my spine, and over the bones of my hip. Her touch creates electricity that sizzles through my blood, and I have to fight to keep the gasp behind my teeth.

Her hand leaves and I nearly groan in frustration…until it replaced by something else: something warm, flexible, but with its own strength.

I would recognize the feel of a lash anywhere and my whole body thrills at it's touch: at the anticipation of what is to come.

"Do you wish to stop now?"

"No,"

"Excellent. You may not scream until I give you permission, but you may give the signal to stop at any time. Do you understand Sofia?"

"Yes, Lady."

There is no warning this time – no waiting. The hairs on the back of my neck tingle and I hear the sharp whistle of something cutting the air, and fire explodes across my back, tearing a gasp from me.

"Silence," she growls, and the lash falls again.

Each time it hits a different place. Whish, crack! My right shoulder. Whish, crack! My left shoulder. Whish, crack! My hips.

And so it continues.

Every blow builds on the one before it, stinging, burning, but never cutting – she is too skilled for that.

I can't catch my breath and moans escape me despite my desperate battle to stay silent. My back is awash in fire that seeps through my skin and into my blood – burning me from the inside out. The waves of endorphins lift me, throwing me higher each time, eroding the brittle bulwark of my will.

I can feel myself loosing control and I crave it, but not yet: not yet. Whish, crack! My body burns and I can no longer tell if I am even breathing. Whish, crack! I feel nothing but the whip – not the floor beneath my feet or the hard metal of the chains around me wrist. Whish, crack! Distantly I realize that the whimpering sound in my ears is me and that I am biting my lip to keep from screaming.

Time and the physical world have no meaning anymore.

There is only the darkness, and the fire.

And then I hear that midnight voice in my ear, "Scream for me Sofia."

The lash falls, and I let go – of this case, of the guilt, of my exhaustion and fear and frustration. It tears up from inside me like a storm and rips its way out of my throat and I scream.

I scream until I have no more breath and my throat is raw and I collapse, sagging in my bonds with my head hanging, gasping for breath.

For a time, nothing else exists. I float, drifting in a tide of endorphins. I am exhausted and my body still burns, but my soul feels clean for the first time in weeks – months even. Lights swim and dance behind my eyes, like brushfires at night seen from a distance, the surreal colors and shapes fleeting and meaningless.

Gradually, I come back to myself and the physical aspects of my situation slowly make themselves known – the heat of my skin, the ache of my shoulders and wrists, the weakness of my body... and then I become aware of her hands on me, gentle and soothing. I relax into the caress, no longer needing anything but what she offers me.

And then her hands are gone, to be replaced by her lips and a shiver runs through me at the first, whisper soft touch.

She begins slowly, with my neck, sweeping my hair aside. Her lips are like hot satin and my pulse – just barely calmed - begins to race as she slowly, teasingly works her way down my spine. The latent heat in my skin from the lash flares again as she touches me, drawing forth a hiss. Her mouth disappears, and when it returns, I gasp.

Cold, blessed chill. It's hard and wet within the liquid fire of her lips.

Ice. She has ice in her mouth, and she's trailing it across my back. Her lips arouse me while the ice soothes the burn of the lash marks. The contrast between the soft heat of her mouth and frigid hardness of the ice is overloading my nerve endings, sending lightening through my blood to pool between my legs.

She continues, heedless of my growing need, never touching me with anything but her mouth and the ice.

Down my spine.

Across my shoulder blades.

Over my ribcage.

Across the line of my hips.

Kissing each hipbone.

Each kiss makes my heart race a little faster. Each pulse washes through me like a wave, building the ache in my core. Any pain from the whipping is long gone and all I want now is her – her hands, her mouth, her touch: anything.

The Lady, however, is not finished with me yet.

Without warning, my bonds are struck. I have only enough time to roll my shoulders, confused, when a smoky voice whispers in my ear, "We are not finished, Sofia." And I'm falling backward to land on the bed. I feel her weight near me, her hands on my wrists and then ankles, and I am tied again; this time spread eagled on the bed. The chains that bind my arms are tight, but there is slack in the ties around my ankles. I can draw my knees up a bit, but not bring them together.

She settles her weight across me, straddling me, and I can't help it as my hips buck, straining for contact.

She hums, low in her throat, but makes no other sound.

She shifts and I nearly groan the blackness behind my eyes is filled with swirling colors of need, but I control myself: waiting. For a moment there is nothing, and then I'm rewarded with the touch of something soft: like satin, but not yielding like fabric. It's neither hot nor cold, but feels amazing on my sensitized skin.

Slowly she moves it: circling my belly button, tracing my hip bones, caressing my rib cage and teasing the underside of my breasts.

My breath is coming in short gulps and its taking all my will power to stay still. She brushes my aching nipples with it and I hear her chuckle when I can't help arching into the delicate touch. Across my collar bones and up my throat, and then she paints my lips with it and I gasp as the scent of a freshly cut rose fills my senses.

I wonder briefly what color it is, and then rational thought is impossible as the Lady lays the stem against my lips and I can feel the thorns – wicked and promising.

"Will you surrender?" she whispers, hot breath across my cheek.

"I already have, Lady." I can't see her, but her hum of approval warms me.

"Do not be silent, Sofia. I want to hear you. See you react, but…" she pauses and then growls softly, "but you may not come until I give you permission, do you understand?"

Oh. My. God.

"Yes, my Lady," I manage.

She resettles herself and I squirm, hissing as she presses my hips into the mattress. I've never been this aroused in my life, and she has yet to even touch me.

My eyes still sightless my world is dark and bright all at once and I concentrate on feeling: the satin beneath me, the stiff leather around my wrists and ankles, the warm weight of her body over mine, the feel of her leather clothing against my skin, I can feel all this. But it's not what I want to feel.

The rose returns, petals brushing down my chest and over the swell of my breasts, but it's not what I want to feel.


Lady Heather

She lies, stretched out beneath me, magnificent in her captivity. She is lean and supple and the candlelight dances across shifting sinew and muscle: an incredible specimen of feminine strength. I take a moment just to appreciate the view. Her pale skin is vivid against the dark silk of my sheets. The blindfold covers her amazing eyes, but leaves her sensuous lips exposed to me. They are parted now as she gasps for breath. That same struggle makes her back arch and her chest heave: the stark outline of her ribcage contrasting with the soft swells of her coral-tipped breasts.

I twirl the rose in my hand, savoring the muted whisper of pain that the thorns sing to me as I run my fingers over them. I know she wants this - that her body and soul cry out for it. Were I to touch her now, I know she would be wet: slick and ripe with want.

I knew what she desired from the moment she walked through my door. Her body language, her eyes; it was all there. She is a woman who values being in a position of control and power. But not like her colleague, Catherine Willows. Detective Sofia Curtis does not seek to wield power over others, she merely wishes to carve out her own place. She is solitary – holding herself aloof from the people around her – afraid, I imagine, to reach out lest she feel the sting of rejection. Yet above all else, she desires a connection. And so this is her deepest wish: to be known, understood, desired, trusted, and to trust in return – so completely that she will surrender everything she is.

To know that I have this power over her – to completely shatter her conscious control, and that she lets me – makes my heart pound and my throat dry. My hands crave the feeling of her flesh; my ears, the sound of her cries.

This is the power she has over me: to make my control weak; to make me want her as badly as she wants me. I haven't felt this level of desire in so long. Which is why I wait, savoring the anticipation, the feeling of her under me.

I shift my hips and she writhes beneath me.

The waiting is over.


Sofia

The rose caresses my body; wandering in meaningless patterns, soft and tender and I growl in frustration. It is short lived however, as the petals vanish, and I feel the first threat of the thorns.

Whisper soft, she scrapes them over my skin: promising.

Like the petals, the thorns trace meaningless patterns, sometimes light and teasing, but here and there, deeper – scratching lines into my skin. A part of me wonders briefly what it will look like – the red against the pale of my skin.

Petals and thorns, back and forth…but it still isn't what I want.

My body quivers like a plucked bow string as she teases my breasts with the flower – intricate designs drawn over and over.

There is no warning, only sensation.

From a single point, pain blossoms, hot and white, just below the nipple of my right breast.

My breath stops.

Behind my eyes, blackness gives way to red - like blood dropped on water - it stains my awareness.

She shifts, and another flower of pain blooms under my left breast. Over and over again; each time in a different place, a different blossom of pain and pleasure until I am begging her. For what, I don't even know at this point.

But she does. She moves, until I can feel her kneeling between my legs, and the rose traces lower.

Here, above my right hip.

There above my left.

Down the insides of my thighs she brushes the petals, and then begins to work her way back up…with the thorns.

I am so aroused its painful, and as she pierces the skin of my inner thighs, I plead with her to take me.

"Who do you belong to Sofia?" she whispers.

"You, God my Lady, only you," I gasp, and she traces the petals of the rose over my core; against the swollen, slick flesh of my need

"Gooood," she purrs, and finally touches me.

I nearly cry at the feeling of her fingers on me. She is slow, teasing, circling, stroking my clit but never entering me.

"So ready. You are so beautiful. But remember my command Sofia,"

"Yes," I breathe, barely able to speak.

Her hand goes away and I cry out, until I feel something else - something blunt and hard - replace it.

She enters me with one slow, unstoppable thrust. The phallus is large, filling me completely, stretching me and blurring the line between pleasure and pain. The cry that tears itself from me is part plea, part scream.

And then she moves.

My back arches off the bed, but I am only distantly aware of the strain that puts on my shoulders. My whole world is what she is doing to me, and I want to see it. I want to see her.

"Please," I cry, begging her to take off the blind.

She leans forward, and it changes the angle of the toy inside me, tearing my breath away.

I feel her hands on the silk tie, and then, for the first time since we started, she kisses me. It is a soft gesture, gentle; mirroring the caress of silk on my face as it finally slides away.

She pulls back and I open my eyes to see, finally, my fantasy.

The sight of her, still leather clad, kneeling between my legs, buried inside me, nearly makes me come right there, but I remember her command, and stay still, biting my lip and trying to breath.

Heather holds my gaze, her arctic eyes blazing as she grips my hips and moves. Slowly, she withdraws nearly all the way before thrusting hard into me. My eyes snap shut, but her voice commands me, "Open them Sofia. Look at me."

I do.

The Lady holds my hips so I can't move and I fight her, my own slipping control. She moves above me, sinuous and powerful; her slow, methodical thrusts pushing into me with a pleasure so intense I can't tell where pleasure ends and pain begins. I feel like I'm coming apart. Gradually, she increases the rhythm and I whimper, my head thrashing on the sheets and my shoulders straining.

I can't think, can't breath or even cry out as she takes me. I'm slipping and I can't stop it. I can't hold on and I'm about to fall.

She knows, and still she still won't let me come. She presses her lower body into mine, using her weight to push me into the mattress, driving deep inside me.

If my eyes are open I can't tell. I can only feel.

Dimly I realize she has released her bruising grip on my hips and I surge against her thrusts, my breath being driven from me with each move she makes until I am lightheaded and colors dance across my unfocused vision.

The coiled spring of my release is wound too tight. I can feel the first tremors low in my belly and I know I'm going to lose control: I crave it with everything that I am and know that I can't hold back any longer, command or no.

This too, she knows. "Come for me, Sofia, come for me now," she growls in my ear and I feel her thrust into me as the piercing pain of thorns blooms on my inner thigh.

A red haze fills my vision and finally, at long last, I stop fighting. In one fraction of a second I let that last, tattered thread tethering my body to my will rip away and I surrender: completely.

My orgasm spirals out from deep within me, taking me over, throwing me free and splintering my awareness. If I scream I don't know it. All I can feel is her thrusting into me, stroking me, as my body clamps around the phallus and I come. Wave after wave of sensation crashes through me. Pain, pleasure, blood, silk, skin, fire and darkness: all are reflected back to me as if through a broken mirror, and in the middle of it all, I see the glowing light of arctic eyes.

She draws it out; stroking me, moving gently now, until I lie spent and weightless, floating and nearly broken. Almost from a distance I feel her withdraw and remove the restraints from my wrists and ankles. It doesn't really matter, I can't move at this point anyway. She gathers my limp body in her arms, and I'm cradled against warm leather and warmer skin. Weakly I hold onto her and just concentrate on breathing.

It isn't until she kisses my cheeks that I realize I'm crying.

I don't cry after sex, but the power of my release has left me shattered, drained and exposed. This is less about emotion and more about sheer physiological response, and I feel no shame in the wetness tracking down my cheeks. This is what I came for – to feel that perfect moment of complete freedom – and I savor the feeling of being cleansed, remade even. Heather holds me gently, stroking my hair and whispering softly, telling me to rest, and so I do. Cradled against leather, silk and skin, I give over to the welcome oblivion of true rest.

I have no idea how long I've drifted, cocooned by darkness, but she is still there when I wake. I don't open my eyes. Instead I savor the feelings of silk and warm flesh, inhaling the smell of her, of the candles and the spice of the room. And I savor how I feel, how my body feels; my body that is beginning to ache, but in the most delicious ways. Most incredible of all though, is how the part of me that has no ties to the physical world feels; my soul, spirit, heart, whatever you want to call it. I feel raw, cleansed, reborn.

I never truly thought my fantasy could become reality. I know now that if I were to open my eyes, I would see – not simply feel - just how far the reality has passed the fantasy.

"Sofia," her quiet question halts my musings, and despite a bone deep satiety, I feel my heart flutter at the velvet sound. Damn, that voice should be labeled hazardous to your health.

I open my eyes and look at the woman who right now, holds not only my body, but perhaps my very soul in her hands. The fire in her eyes has dimmed to a warm glow, and she regards me gently, tenderly brushing a stand of hair off my cheek. I think that may be the only part of my body that isn't sore right now, but damn I'm not complaining.

"Are you satisfied?" she asks quietly.

Another time, with a different woman, I would most likely laugh, brush if off, kiss them goodbye and keep right on leaving. Here? With this woman? I can only look back at her, all my barriers torn away; naked, and not just physically, before her. I don't need to say anything for her to know the truth of the answer to her question, and when she smiles, her face holds only gentle understanding – not smugness nor pride nor any other superficial emotion.

There is however, something I still crave, though I barely have the strength to move. I look at her lips – full and sensual – and then back up, letting my eyes ask the question, even as I beg permission for one final desire.

"May I kiss you?"

She doesn't answer, just smiles and cups the back of my head. It's all the invitation I need to lean across and taste her lips. There is nothing of the previous night's fire in the gesture, but her mouth is molten nonetheless, and my heart jumps as she lets me take the lead, teasing her mouth open and exploring her gently with my tongue. I stroke her cheek, trying to put my gratitude into the meeting of our mouths, before I slowly pull away - satisfied at last.

"Now I am," I answer her earlier question, not at all ashamed that my voice has gone husky.

"Then I am as well," she replies, and my spine tingles at the timbre of her words.

"Thank you," I whisper, compelled to voice what I feel so strongly.

The Lady simply nods, but it's enough.

She leans forward and kisses me on the lips – chastely - one last time, and like that, the spell is broken and I suddenly remember things like the lab, the fact that my clothes are in a dozen pieces on the floor and I have no idea what time, or even what day it is.

Lady Heather slides out of bed and I finally look down at myself; at the red scratches and pinpricks of dried blood that stand out starkly against my pale skin, and at the slight bruising around my wrists and ankles.

Definitely long sleeves tomorrow…today…whenever.

Before I can muse over long on the fact that I can't exactly drive home naked, a worn pair of jeans and a soft man's dress shirt land on the bed. I look up to find her smirking at me, holding up what's left of my silk panties.

"Next time, bring spares," she smiles, and I can't help the shiver of pleasure I feel at the promise of a next time.

"If you had warned me, I would have brought some this time," I challenge, my voice hoarse as I get dressed: slowly, I ache in place that haven't ached in years.

"If I had warned you, it wouldn't have been nearly as much fun," she fires back, and I'm not about to argue with that.


The Lady walks me to the door like an old fashioned gentleman, but her kiss at the threshold is anything but gentle, and it leaves me reeling. "You are welcome here anytime Sofia," she breathes, her lips still only inches from mine and her eyes glowing.

And so it's in more than a slight daze that I step outside into the cool, sharp air of the desert in those quiet, ripe moments just before the first light of dawn. I make it to the last step of her porch when her voice stops me one last time.

"And Sofia? Stop running and just ask her out for coffee."

Before I can figure out what the hell she is talking about, the door shuts and I'm left alone with my car and my confusion. I'm not a LVPD Detective for nothing however, and as the sun blooms over the desert hills, I feel a rush of excitement and pleasure at the coming day, and all the possibilities it brings.


She's in the layout room when I finally catch her alone that night, and I take a moment to simply watch her unnoticed. Her chocolate hair falls forward, and she impatiently brushes it away, only to have it fall forward again. She's wearing snug fitting jeans and a form fitting tank top under a walnut colored leather jacket, and I feel myself swallow with a throat suddenly gone dry.

Despite the pleasure I get from watching her, I know that any minute someone is likely to come in and interrupt this rare moment of stillness in the lab, so I walk in the door.

She looks up in curiosity, and I am strangely gratified when I see her look twice at my long sleeves. Briefly I wonder what she might think of the bruises they hide, but shove that firmly away for later. Now is the time for beginnings, not revelations, and so I take the first step that I should have taken a long time ago.

"Hey Sofia," she says, her warm, husky voice sending a delicious tingle down my spine despite my exhausted state.

"Hey Sara. Listen, I wanted to apologize for last night. That case really got to me. I didn't mean to blow you off like that, I just needed to get out of here," I pause, waiting to see how she will react.

I 'm rewarded beyond my hopes when her eyes grow soft and her expression sad and distant. "I understand. It was…It was hard. Are you ok?" she asks, her dark eyes warm.

"I am now," and we're not going to elaborate on that until much later, thank you.

"I'm glad," she replies, and the sincerity in her voice makes me want to cheer.

"Well, I just wanted to apologize and say, thanks."

She grins – that sexy little half cynical smirk I love so much, and finally, I obey my Lady's command.

"Listen Sara, there's this great little coffee and breakfast place I just found last week but haven't had time to really check it out. Would you like to go grab something after shift?"

The slow, brilliant smile that spreads over her face is all the answer I need.

Fin