If Only Forever

If Only Forever

Summary: For the longest time I could never stand up for myself and I would let people push me around…That is until I met him. (ItaDei, HidaDei, SasoDei)

Prologue: May 9, 2005

For the longest time I could never stand up for myself and I would let people push me around…That is until I met him. I've recently moved in with my new boyfriend and already does he not trust me. He thinks that I, Deidara Iwa, am cheating on him. Yes, I'd admit that I've been coming home late, but that's because of work and I've also been visiting the grave of my dead friend. I'm afraid to tell him because I don't think he'll understand. That is why, right now, I am attempting to sneak into my own apartment hoping my boyfriend is asleep. But, alas, he was right there on the couch watching television like always…waiting…waiting for me.

"I tried to call you, but like always…you didn't answer." He told me, his face still glued to the television, I sighed and leaned up against the wall.

"You know I rarely hove it turned on….let alone have!" I answered pointing to my cell phone that was on the kitchen table…I forgot it yet again.

"Why can't you then just tell me where you go then after work?! Are you seeing somebody else Deidara?!" He snapped at me.

"Sasori…I just walk slow. I hate buses and cabs and I prefer not to call anybody. I know it's hard to trust me because of this but if you ask all my friends if I cheat they'll give you the fucking same god damned answer!" I yelled before running out of the apartment, I heard Sasori yell after me, but I kept going. I kept running and running until I finally came up to the cemetery where I walked up reaching a black stoned grave and collapsed in front of it crying. It was his grave.

"I can't do this Hidan…I need you to show me the way." I cried laying in front of it now my fingers digging into the dirt.

'Please let me see you again…just one more time.' I thought my lids drooping until the closed shut…my world going black.