Roses are red
Violets are blue
Stephanie Meyer wrote Twilight
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Labour stage 3
Watching Bella give birth to her son was the hardest thing that I could have possibly felt in my 100 years in existence. As she crushed my hand in pain I wanted so badly to make it all go away for her. I hated seeing her like this but even more I hated that fact that it was not my child she was having. The past few months I have struggled to get close to Bella again and even though it's not her fault, I resented the child she was carry more than anything. It killed me to be around her while she had Jacob Blacks baby growing within her, but more so not to be a part of her life again. I looked down at her panting face and gave her hand a squeeze of support while trying to shake away the thoughts that kept invading my mind.
"I don't think I can do it Charlise. I just... I can't go back there."
I gripped my hands around the steering wheel of the car trying like hell not to break it in an attempt to calm myself. After Bella's water had broken I took her, Jacob and Sophia to the hospital then left and drove out to see Charlise and Esme. Bella thought I was going hunting so I could be around her and all the blood but that wasn't the truth at all.
"I know son. I know how hard these past few months have been on you. But Bella needs you right now. She needs you to tell her everything's going to be ok. She needs you Edward."
I knew Charlise was right but somehow my mind just wasn't registering the words. I stared straight ahead and griped the wheel even tighter, ignoring the tearing sounds it was beginning to make. As a warm breeze shook my hair I didn't have to glance round to know that Alice was now in the car next to me.
"Edward you've been sitting in this car since yesterday afternoon. You have to go back to the hospital before-"
"She won't be worried about where I am. She has Jacob and soon his baby and then they'll be a family"
I sucked in some air trying to erase the thought of them out of my mind. Alice gently griped her hand on my shoulder to gain my attention.
The smile on her face was a big as it always was.
"Edward, Bella loves you and your both going to be very happy for a long long time- I've seen it. Jacob Black isn't who she wants, it's you. And right now she needs you. The baby's coming very soon and if you're not there then she going to be all alone because it is only you she wants no one else."
Alice loosed her grip on my shoulder then disappeared before I was able to thank her. I started the car then glanced out the window at Charlise with Alice and Esme by his side.
"Tell Bella we look forward to seeing her very soon"
I wasn't quite sure what Charlise meant by that but I didn't hang around for him to explain guessing it must of had something to do with Alice's vision.
The sound of soft cries snapped me sharply out of my thoughts and had me instantly focusing on the small baby being held in the midwifes arms at Bella's feet. All though I don't have a pulse I felt as though my heart was beating a thousand drums.
"Congratulations Bella. You have a beautiful healthy baby boy do want to cut the cord?"
She asked me with a smile. I firmly shook my head at her.
Oh damn it that's right he's not the father. Her thoughts screamed out at me. She turned to the nurse next to her to cut the cord.
"Here do want to hold him."
The midwife asked as she lift the baby up to place him on Bella chest. I instinctively looked away as I expected Bella to grab hold of her son and cradle in tightly, but I froze as I heard her cold voice ring through me.
"I'm s...sorry." the midwife stumbled out her words clearly shocked by the response.
"I said no. I don't want to hold him. Just take him away."
Bella's voiced cracked this time as she said the words whilst holding back tears. The midwife shook her head then wrapped the baby tightly in a blanket and placed him in the portable cot. I looked away and tried concentrate on the wall as she cleaned up all the blood that was around Bella and covered her up as she sat back on the bed.
"I'll take him to get weighed and have his routine checks then he'll be in the nursery if you change your mind."
Probably just a touch of the baby blues. I'll get the doctor to come and take look at her and have the real father see his son. Poor kid stuck out in the hall.
The midwife thought as she and nurses left the room, and as the blissful sounds of Jacobs gasps drifted through the gap in the door- from meeting his son for the first- I slowly glided over to the door and closed it. I walked back over to Bella unsure of what to say but still hating the silence. Finally I reached over for her hand which was warm and soft.
"Are you ok?" I asked.
Before she could answer there was a soft knock on the door. Jacob walked in with a tense expression on his face, clearly having heard from the nurses that Bella refused to look at her son.
"What's wrong with you? Do you really hate me that much that you can't even bear to look at your own son?" his voice was shakily but still clear and strong.
"Jacob don't. This isn't the time" I said to him.
"There'll never be a good time because she refuses to talk to me. And that was even before Sophia. She refused to acknowledge me, she refused to acknowledge the pregnancy and now this beautiful baby is finally here and she refuses him. Why Bella? Just tell me why?"
I held Bella hands tightly as tears started to pour out of her. I wanted nothing more than to hurt Jacob for upsetting her. Make him feel the type of pain she was in, because although I couldn't read her thoughts I could feel the agony and heart ache that she was feeling.
"I didn't mean to upset you Bella. I just want to know-"
"I think you should leave... now! Before I make you."
I rose off the bed to escort Jacob out the bed room, when Bella grabbed my hand for me to stop. I looked over at her and couldn't help but touch her wet cheeks to wipe the tears away.
"I refused to acknowledge you because I didn't want you. And it's the same with him. I don't want him Jacob I never did. And I didn't look at him because he'd be a constant reminder of how I betrayed Edward when he was gone. I never loved you or wanted to be with you... not in the way you wanted. But I was so lonely when Edward left. What we did was wrong Jake. It never should have happened and I've been punishing myself by carrying a baby that I never wanted. I'm sorry but I can't. I can't be a mother to him, because I don't feel like he's mine. I don't want him."
I let out a large sign after finally saying everything I'd been holding in.
"Bella don't say that. You don't mean that, you don't. You're just tired, once you see him-"
"YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO ME!"
I couldn't help but shout the words at him. I felt Edwards's arms around me as my breathing got heavy once again and I couldn't hold back the tears any more.
"I think you should defiantly leave now Jacob."
"Ok. But you're going to have to see him at some point Bella. He doesn't even have a name."
I called out to Jacob as he paused in the door way. He glanced round at me looking confused.
"Beau. His name is Beau."
Jacob nodded the quietly close the door behind him. I glance back at Edward who was smiling my favourite crooked smile. I nestled back into his arms hoping to shut out the world and wanting to remember know thing of this day. Ever.
"So what do you want to do now?"
I pulled away from him with my tired eyes locking on his. It felt so good just to be with him again, without the elephant in the room. I glanced down at my swollen but decreasing stomach and smiled.
"Sleep. I was to sleep but more than that I miss Charlise and Esme and Alice and Jasper and Emmet and even Rosalie. I miss my other family. I want to go home and sleep. Take me home Edward. Get me away from here please."
"OK Bella. Ok"
I rested my head back on his shoulders and moved my body into his arms and couldn't have felt safer. As my eyes started to give way I heard Edward hum my lullaby into my ears. In that moment everything seemed to fade away. And I couldn't have been happier.
"I missed you" I whispered into his ear.
"I didn't go anywhere"
"Yes you did. But now your back"
I knew that Edward was distant around me because I was carrying Jacob's baby. His smile was different and even the when he held me there was distance between us. But not anymore, now it was just the two of us again. Bella and Edward.
A/N: Hey guys, sorry for the long wait. And I really hope you like this chapter; I just thought it would be good to know how Edward was really coping with the pregnancy. I'm so glad that you all liking this story and didn't give up on it. Well we're nearly at the end now. Just one more chapter to go and that's it. But I do have an idea for a follow up story to this one so it's not quite over yet. Thank you all so much for your great reviews