A/N: So ends this story, but don't worry, there will be a sequel. I'll also be doing some one-shots with Bella and Edward and Jacob and Bella. I can't choose a side. I like them both. Keep an eye out for this sequel to "Moving On?" Enjoy and thanks for reading and reviewing!
Disclaimer: None but Alyssa and Cole are mine
Six Months Later…
Today was the day. It was the day she would give up her son and never be able to hold him again.
Thanks to good healing genetics from Jacob's side of the family, Cole's lungs developed faster than many other babies with respiratory distress syndrome. He was better before Bella was; strong too.
When I walked into the baby room, Cole had dozed off, latched onto Bella's breast. They were a sight. We've only been married for three months and she still has that effect on me to where I forget to breathe, even thought I didn't need to.
I kissed Cole on the head, and then kissed up the top of Bella's breast-line where Cole was attached and up her neck and finally reached her lips. A soft moan escaped from her, which made me smile.
"You two are so beautiful," I said in her ear. I felt her shiver, which caused Cole to detach himself from her breast and start whimpering. Bella grabbed his pacifier and put it into his mouth. He fell right back asleep and she covered herself back up.
"Is everything packed up?" she asked. Not only was Cole going away from us, but Bella and I were moving to Alaska with the Denali clan, mainly for the safety of Cole, Jake, Alyssa and Charlie. I decided I was going to change her there.
"Yes, everything is ready to go. All we need is for Jacob and Alyssa to come get Cole." She looked down at the sleeping baby in her arms. I heard her sigh sighed and watched the tears swelled up and a couple dropped onto Cole's cheek. Bella bent down and kissed them off. This was tearing her up inside and I didn't know how much more I could take.
"Bella, you don't have to," I said, hoping to make her feel better. "There is still time to change your mind."
She turned her head towards me and kissed me tenderly. I couldn't help but kiss her back with much enthusiasm. She always did that to me.
"I know a normal person wouldn't give up motherhood for immortality, but even if I stay with Cole, how would I explain our relationship to him when he's older? He'll grow old along with me, and you'll still look seventeen. Jake has his soul mate. You are mine. This is the only way. I'll miss being a mother, yes, but I'll still be able to watch my son grow up."
If I were human, I would feel warm all over. I smiled and kissed her on the forehead. I heard Jake's car pull up and doors close.
"They're here." I stood up and went to answer the door. When I let them in, I told them that Cole was sleeping.
"Hey Bells," Jake greeted. He leaned over and kissed her forehead and softly touched Cole's head. "How are you?"
"Are you sure you're ready for this?"
"I won't ever be completely ready, but I'm sure about my decision."
My muscles tightened hearing this from her as I handed Cole's diaper bag over to Alyssa.
Bella handed Cole over to Jake. He looked so tiny still compared to Jake's massive size.
"Let's get a picture of the three of you," Alyssa piped in. She had her camera ready. Bella stood next to Jake, who was holding Cole in the crook of his arm. She put down the bags and took the picture. "Oh, that looks good."
"Please, my eyes are all puffy and red," Bella chuckled. Looking at her face, a thought of panic ran through her mind. "Jake, you can't let Cole see that picture. Ever. It will only cause confusion."
"Don't worry, Bella. He'll never see it." She nodded and tucked her hair behind her ears.
Jake kissed Cole on the forehead and handed him over to Alyssa. She was about to take him to the car when Bella stopped her.
She went over to Alyssa and took Cole into her arms for what would be the last time. She adjusted him so that his head was resting on her shoulder. She rocked him back and forth while tears were spilling down her cheeks. "I love you so much, Cole. Don't ever forget that."
My still heart broke at this sight. I was taking her life, her motherhood. I couldn't do it.
"No, Edward," she cut me off. "Don't say anything. This is the best way." She kissed Cole once more and handed him to Alyssa. "Go, take him, hurry," she said. Alyssa left as quickly as she could without waking the baby.
Emotion was overwhelming this room. Jasper would have a fit if he were here. Good thing they all said their good-bye's to Cole last night.
I decided to give Bella some time to say good-bye to Jacob, and I went to help Alyssa put Cole into the car.
I didn't know if I was strong enough to do this. Edward left, I assume to go help Alyssa with the car and the baby.
"Bells, I'm sorry for these circumstances. But this was the only way the entire pact would allow your change. You can always change your mind and remain human."
I shook my head violently. If I heard someone tell me that one more time, I might do it. Nothing in my life has ever worked out for me, and if I have to make a few sacrifices to get what I want and to keep my baby safe, then I would do it.
"He'll need his mother," Jake continued.
"He'll have Alyssa. She's a good woman. I know she'll be a good mother to him."
There was a moment of silence. I sensed that Jacob wanted to say something. I turned towards him and at the same time he took a step towards me.
"Bella, I'm sorry."
"Sorry for what?"
"For everything. I never should have put you through any of this…" I put my fingers to his lips to shush him.
"Jake, what we have here is special. What came out of it was Cole. I don't regret anything." I put my hand up against his cheek, remembering his warmth that use to spread through my entire body once upon a time.
"I love you, Bella. Always remember that I love you." Then he leaned down and kissed me sweetly. It was a kiss where once before it would have been filled with tender love and passion, but now is only filled with genuine love between friends. I kissed him back, letting him know that I loved him too. When we broke apart, he flashed that smile that still made me a little weak at the knees. Jake will always be a part of who I am. That will never change. I shook my head and stepped away from him.
"Sorry, Bells, but I won't be able to do that the next time I may see you. You'll smell too bad."
I playfully shoved him in the shoulder and he obliged, even though normally it wouldn't have had any effect on him. He puts his arm around my shoulder and we walk outside. Alyssa was in the car already and Edward was waiting by the front door.
Jake kissed the top of my head and left me with Edward.
"We'll keep in touch, Bells. See ya." Jake got into the car and started it up. My heart almost leapt out of my chest. My baby, my son was about to be gone from me forever. Jake backed out of the driveway and into the street. As he put the car into drive, I whispered.
"Bye, baby. I love you." Edward put his arm around me and we both waved good-bye to Jake, Alyssa, and Cole. I couldn't control my sobs any longer. Edward turned me to face him and held me. He stroked my hair softly and would occasionally kiss it.
"I'm so sorry, love." I pushed away from him and went into the house.
"Why does everyone keep saying they're sorry? I'm the one who made the decision. Me! No one should be sorry. No one!" I screamed.
I made it into the kitchen before I collapsed. This was harder than I thought. My baby was gone. Edward was instantly beside me and picked me up so I could sit on the countertop. He wiped away my tears with his thumbs as he stood between my legs.
"Bella, look at me. You don't have to…"
"I know, Edward. But I chose to do this. I didn't know it was going to be this hard, but I'm not backing down. I love you. And I want you to have all of me." I pressed my lips against his firmly and poured what I could into the kiss. He kissed me back and pulled me closer to him.
We both decided to let my body heal and to wait for the change before we had sex. The sexual tension was intense, but in a few days it will all be over. We broke away from each other, resting our foreheads together, catching our breath.
"I love you, and I want you to have all of me. My body, my heart, my soul and my life all belong to you now, my husband."
"Ditto, my wife," he whispered to me. We held each other's gaze for a moment, and then he helped me off the counter. We walked out of our house and to the car holding hands.
Finally, I was moving on.