Author's Note: So, funny story. So I uploaded the document for Chapter Two and finished writing an author's note and all that good stuff... and then never posted it. Yeah... Not really that funny, sorry! I totally thought I had posted it.
Anyway, here it is. Enjoy!
She Could Be…
Here it comes. The outrageous explanation, the perfect wrap up to the most unimaginable problem. He always was a cheeky git.
"The Daleks lived in the void. They're bristling with it! Cybermen, all of them! I just open the void and reverse. The void stuff gets sucked back inside!"
"Pulling them all in!"
"Pulling them all in!"
Brilliant! He is pretty impressive when he gets this excited. Can't wait to see him channeling all this energy into a child. He'll be-
But wait. It's on me too. It's on him.
"But it's like you said. We've all got void stuff. Me too because we went to that parallel world. We're all contaminated. We'll get pulled in." We'll be sucked into the void just like the Daleks and Cybermen. It's not safe. I can't lose him, or this possible child that might not even exist.
He's so close; his eyes are so heavy and sad… and pained. "That's why you've got to go. Back to Pete's world- hey! We should call it that! Pete's world." Typical. Reverting to humour to avoid what he doesn't want to talk about.
"I'm opening the void but only on this side," this side, right. "You'll be safe on that side."
This side, that side. I don't care as long as you're there with me.
"The breach itself is soaked in void stuff. In the end, it'll close itself. That's it. Kaput."
Closed? I'll be trapped. Stuck over there. "But you'd stay on this side?"
Please don't make me go. Don't make me do this. I can't leave you. I can't lose you.
He's going to. Sod my decision, is that it? Send her to safety because she obviously can't take care of herself! Always how he deals with the situation! He can stay and play the hero and risk his life, but not Rose. Rose needs to go home, be sent away to be protected.
"I'm supposed to go?"
"To another world and then it gets sealed off?"
Don't avoid me. Please! Just stop it! I can't deal with this with you running away.
Forever? No, not our forever. That's meant for him, not some bloody parallel universe.
"That's not going to happen."
"We haven't got time to argue. The plan works, we're going. You two, all of us."
Who are you to say that? "No, I'm not leaving 'im."
"I'm not going without her."
Are you an idiot? You've got to go with him. You've got to, mum.
"Mum, I've had a life with you for nineteen years, but then I met the Doctor-" what a wonderful day that was!- "and all the things I've seen him do for me- for you- for all of us- for the whole stupid planet and every planet out there. He does it alone, mum. But not anymore, because now he's got me."
That's right. We've got each other. We've got our fantastic life together. We've got forever to explore and learn and raise this child we might or might not be having. So there's no way on Earth that I'm going to leave-
What the hell?!
He didn't. That bastard!
"Oh no you don't. You're not doing that to me again!"
"I think this is the on switch."
Rose? What is she doing here? I sent her there to protect her! To protect her and the baby. Rassilon, she's so stubborn!
"Once the breach collapses, that's it. You will never be able to see her again- your own mother!" Don't you understand, Rose, it's too dangerous. You can't stay. You shouldn't stay. At least if I sent you there, it was my choice, not fate ripping you away. That, I can't deal with.
"I made my choice a long time ago and I'm never going to leave you." You can't mean that… You're so young, Rose, so much promise. So much left to do. Can you really want that? Want forever?
"So what can I do to help?"
Damn it, Rose. Couldn't stay where you're safe, could you?
"Systems rebooted. Open access."
"We've got Cybermen on the way up."
Great. Just great. On top of the danger of being sucked into the void, now I might get Rose deleted because she couldn't stay where it was safe.
"How many floors down?"
Crap. Hurry! Hurry… Almost there. Come on!
Beautiful. This might actually work out. This could work. Maybe we won't be deleted or exterminated or sucked into the void.
Levers operational. Coordinates set. Something to hold on to- locked and ready. Okay… okay, now what?
"When it starts, hold on tight. Shouldn't be too bad for us, but the Daleks and Cybermen are steeped in void stuff." Almost there- just the hard part left. "You ready?" Here goes nothing.
"So are they."
Now or never.
"Let's do it!"
Whoa! That's still pretty strong. A lot stronger than I thought it was going to be. But she's hanging on. She's got it. This is actually working. Working well! Hah!
Rassilon, this is working! We've done it! We've destroyed the Daleks once again! We-
No! No, no, no…
Rose! Hold on! Please hold on! Rassilon, why couldn't it be my lever?
Come on, Rose! Almost got it! Come on, you can do it!
"On-line and locked."
"Rose! Hold on!" For Rassilon's sake, hold on! "Hold on!"
If only I could reach her! Please!
I can't save her. I can't… She's going into the void. Hell, forever. I did this to her. It's my fault. Rose…
Pete? Oh thank god. He's got her. She's safe. She's… stuck. She's gone.
Gone. Forever. The breach is closed. My people are gone. There's nothing I can do. Nothing.
What can possibly be left now? Just me and the TARDIS. All that life- all her vivaciousness, all her energy- just gone now.
Maybe I can feel her. Maybe… maybe she's right there.
I can almost feel her. As long as I don't breathe, she's here. As long as I stare at this empty place, I won't notice that I'm not seeing her. As long as I press my hand against this cold wall, numbing it, I'll never notice that she's not holding it. Maybe if I stand here long enough, the wall will just absorb me, take me away just like it did Rose.
But I can't. Things to do, planets to save, life to live. She'll be fine. She's got her family. She'll survive.
What about the baby?
No- no, she's not pregnant. That was just my mind running wild. She's not- No.
She'll be fine. She will be. She'll live a fantastic life.
I guess I will too. I'll have to…
He's got to be here. Somewhere. Where-?
Is he real?
"Where are you?"
"Inside the TARDIS. There's one tiny little gap in the universe, just about to close." It's closing? Well hurry up. We must not have a lot of time then.
"It takes a lot of power to send this projection. I'm in orbit around a supernova. I'm burning up a sun just to say goodbye."
Goodbye? What does he mean, goodbye? Isn't he coming?
"You look like a ghost."
He's real. He looks real now. He's got to be.
"Can I tou-?"
"I'm still just an image. No touch."
No touch… But that's what I need. I need to hold his hand, to hug him, to kiss him. Something. Fate is so cruel sometimes.
"Can't you come through properly?"
"The whole thing would fracture. Two universes would collapse."
Who cares? I want you here. "So?"
"Where are we? Where did the gap come out?"
"We're in Norway."
"Norway, right." Oh, how I miss that tone. That voice.
"About fifty miles out of Bergen. It's called Dårlig Ulv Stranden."
"Dårlig. It's Norwegian for bad. This translates to Bad Wolf Bay." What pathetic irony. "How long have you got?"
"About two minutes."
Two minutes? That's it? "I can't think of what to say." I've waited for this moments for months. I've imagined every conversation, every possible way this could go, and now I have nothing. What can I possibly say to the man I… to the greatest thing that ever happened to my life? To the greatest man the universe has ever known?
"You've still got Mr. Mickey then?"
Yeah. Mickey's been great. "There's five of us now." Oh god I'm saying it. "Mum, Dad, Mickey…" Just get it out. "And the baby."
There. There it is. I've told him. He knows now. Knows that he's not the only one. Knows that he's got a bit of him here, with me. Knows that I'm not alone.
Oh god, I can't do this. I can't leave him with that kind of pain, knowing that he's not just leaving me here. He's leaving his unborn child here. His child that he'll never get to meet. Never get to know.
"No." I'm lying to him. It's my last chance to talk to him, to tell him, and I'm lying to him. "It's mum. She's three months gone. More Tyler's on the way."
"And what about you? What are you-?"
"Yeah, I'm back to workin' in the shop."
He looks so disappointed. I can't believe the arse believed me. "Oh, good for you."
"Shut up. No, I'm not. The Torchwood on this planet is open for business, I think I know a thing or two about aliens."
"Rose Tyler, Defender of the Earth." Not without you…
"You're dead," What? "Officially, back at home. So many people died that day and you've gone missing. You're on the list of the dead." Right, of course. Tying up loose ends. "But here you are, living your life day after day. The one adventure I can never have."
I don't want it. I want you and my adventures with you. "Am I ever going to see you again?"
"Then what are you gonna do?"
"I've got a TARDIS. Same old life. Last of the Time Lords." You idiot, why couldn't you tell him? Why couldn't you tell him that he's not the last? There's another on the way. God, what am I going to do without him? Raising the next generation of Time Lords all on my own?
"On your own?" He needs someone. He'll find someone else, find a friend to keep him going. He will. He has to.
"I-" Oh god, I can't do it…
"I love you."
"Quite right too." Here it comes. He's going to say it. He doesn't have to; I know how he feels. "And I suppose, if it's my last chance to say it, Rose Tyler-"
That's it? That's how Time and Fate and whatever else is out there is going to leave it? That's our forever- our two last minutes…
I can't do this! I can't do this without him.
Oh god, I need him.
Keep a look out for the next story: 'The Storm'.