A/N: Another new story. Yes I know I am the craziest person you have ever met. It is currently the seventh fan fiction I am writing. So I am sorry if I don't update very frequently. Yes this is an all human story and it is based off of Rhianna's P.S. I'm Still Not Over You. I don't listen to Rhianna very often but it came on the radio and this idea Struck me like a hammer strikes a nail. Lol sorry. If you want a story with more frequent updates then read Insanity, my other all human story. Now that I have given you such a long author's note I will let you read.
Disclaimer: I normally forget thesse but can you blame me I'm stuck in a world where owning Twilight would be Heaven!!
S.M.: Well forget it Twilight is MINE!!
Me: -POUTS- Stephanie SAID Twilight HERS I guess that means it not mine.
S.M.: Right -smiles-
Back to Forks
Bella's Point of View
I sighed as I got out of bed. It was the beginning of the summer. Time to take a break from the hectic life of college and have fun. I went to Auburn University, as far away from Fork. I didn't wan to see himagin. I don't know if I would have been able to handle that…. You know I haven't been back to Forks since the day I moved.
Edward and I had been dating for two years when he graduated. He was two years older than me so I had yet to complete high school. After the graduation ceremony he pulled me away. His face was a mixture of emotion, sadness, excitement, determination, and lastly pain.
"We need to talk Bella," He said and my heart skipped a beat. His choice in wording caught me but also his velvety smooth voice. I would miss hearing this everyday.
"Okay," I said, half knowing what was coming but wishing that it would hold off for ever.
"We have been together for two years. Believe me they have been the most incredible two years I have ever had…but I am going to go off and become a doctor while you are stuck here. I won't have any time to call or visit…I just won't have any time for a girlfriend. I'll still love you in a way but please don't hate me for this." He said, quietly. I had never thought words could hurt so badly, but yet his words did.
Sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt me.
My heart seared with pain as I realized what the words meant. No, this could not happen. Realization buckled my knees and I had to fight to keep myself standing.
"But why?" I asked, fighting to keep my voice steady but failing.
"Because, Bella, I am going to go to med school soon. I am going to be very busy with school work and extra classes. Maybe after you graduate…maybe then we could give us a chance, but I promise I wish I didn't have to hurt you. Please don't hate me." He whispered, his green eyes filled with reflected pain and in that moment I knew he was lying to try and make me feel better.
"It's okay Edward." I lied, feeling like my world would bust. "I won't deny that it's a shock nor will I deny that I love you and that this hurts but in time it will be okay right?" I asked, into the air.
"Bella, I am sorry. Forgive me please."
"You are forgiven. It's not like you dated me for nothing… Its not like we were nothing…we loved each other, to an extent. That was quite obvious." I said, trying to convince myself that we were worth something.
"Thank you Bella. You are taking this better than expected. You are a very nice and beautiful girl. I am sure you will find the one soon." He said, before he got up and went over to his family and friend, smiling and laughing.
"I've already found the one," I whispered to no one in particular as the tears flowed, freely, now.
I couldn't believe what was happening. I walked towards my truck with tears flowing down my face, and then Alice popped out in front of me.
"Bella, what's wrong?" She asked, as I tried to get around her.
"Nothing," I blubbered through my tears. "Just get out of my way!!" I yelled.
She was so shocked that she moved out of my way and let me pass. I ran to my truck and climbed in and crank up the truck and floored it out of the parking lot as fast as my truck would go. I cried all the way home and when I got home I threw myself in the shower, the sobs ripping through my body making it hard to breathe. When I walked in my room everything reminded me of Edward. I ended up changing the sheets, taking down all pictures and throwing all of the shirts he had let me borrow in a bag and threw it downstairs. Then I went to bed. That was the first night that I cried myself to sleep after Edward.
I couldn't believe that I woke up to that memory, after four years. I even avoided his siblings, my best friends, after that happened. But yesterday, Alice called me and asked me to meet her and the rest of her family, excluding him I'm assuming, at a bar in Seattle.
I agreed. What possessed me to do so I have no idea. I slowly climbed into the shower to get ready to go home. This weekend I face my worst fear…or at least what has been my worst fear for two years. I had no idea that the fear would build up so quickly but as I packed clothes for the summer and I got my plane ticket, I began wondering why not back out?
I knew why. That pesky little pixie would come and get me and then drag me on a plane to Forks. I really couldn't wait, note the sarcasm people. I began the ride to the airport and thought of turning around, and being the wuss I am, I almost told him to twice but I was too anxious to see my best friends. Only god knows how much I missed them. They truly knew me better than anyone….except him. He knew me better than the whole world.
I climbed on the plane and sat in my seat. Then I closed my eyes and tried to relax as much as possible. BY the time that we took off I was about to fall asleep. As soon as they gave the okay to take off the seat belts I was asleep.
Please review and tell me whether or not to continue it. Please!! I need your opinion! Sorry it's so short; normally my chapters are longer.