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Summary: Bella didn't jump off the cliff for recreational purposes-she was trying to commit suicide. Will Alice get there in time to save Bella? Set in New Moon.
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Bella's Point of View:
Here I was, at the top of the cliff, ready to die.
It had been almost a year since he left, and I couldn't stand it any longer. Yes, I had Jacob to comfort me, but that just wasn't doing its job. I needed to feel the comfort that had long since left my soul. I needed to feel like I belonged. I needed to feel whole.
I had tried so many things to try to get myself to forget, none of which had succeeded. I still remembered, very clearly, the faces of my could-have-been family. My heart started to rip apart as I thought their names- Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, and Alice. I let out a soft cry as my chest shredded to pieces as I thought the name of my one true love. Edward.
I stared down into the crashing waves at the bottom of the rocky wall. I could smell the salty aroma of the water as a few drops from the crash made its way back into the ocean. The wind caressed my face as it whipped through my hair. This was it. My last hope at ever feeling loved again. Maybe God would love me, and if He didn't, and I went to hell, I wouldn't care. Anything was better than this horrible world in which no one cared for me. That awful day in forest flashed through mind. It took a great deal of effort on my behalf to realize that no one ever had. Not even Edward. He never really loved me. I was just a childhood toy that eventually got thrown away; someone that no one would miss.
As tears began to stream relentlessly down my cheeks, I stood up, looking at the black water before me.
Then, I jumped.
I spun in the strong wind as I let go of all that was left of me. While I was falling, I realized that I no longer had to hold onto my feelings that had kept me grieving for so long. I was free. At that thought, I screamed at the top of my lungs the words that I had kept inside my heart all these months.
"I love you, Edward!"
Just then, I hit the icy water. I opened my mouth, allowing the salty water to rush down my throat and into my lungs.
I smiled. I knew that I was dying, and the fact that I would soon be in a better place filled me with contentment. All I saw were the golden eyes, the sharp features, and the loving smile of my one love.
I closed my eyes and sighed, finally happy.
I know it was short, but this chapter needed to be all on its own. Don't worry-there's more to come!! Please review! It helps a lot!