Summary:

SONGFIC. Noncanon pairing. Set in New Moon, three months after Edward left. A last attempt to at least alleviate some of her depression, takes a drive away from Forks not really caring where to go when she noticed that there was a CD left in her not yet destroyed stereo. Whose is it? Why was it there?


Say (all I need)

Sigh. I need to get out of here, anywhere but here… where should I go?

Hmmm… to mom's? I shook my head. No.

I was about to check a map Charlie placed in the glove compartment when I noticed something glinting on my stereo. Right. It's still there. I need to kill this stereo that they gave me…

I took out the CD. It's a blank CD… well, was blank. Emmett must've left it here when he was trying it. I shrugged and popped it right back.

The stereo should at least get its last hurrah before wrecking day.

I sighed then pressed play.

Hmmm… never heard this before…. Has a nice intro….

Then when the vocals blared I gasped recognizing who was singing.

Do you know where your heart is?

Do you think you can find it?

Or did you trade it for something, somewhere, better just to have it?

My forehead creased as I heard the lyrics… my heart? It should be with him…but now… I'm not so sure…I frowned… and I don't think I can find it….

Do you know where your love is?

Do you think that you lost it?

You've felt it so strong but nothing's, turned out how you want it

I know where my love is… at least I did… have I really lost my love?

I felt hot tears pouring down my cheeks. I just wanted to be with him forever. He said he loved me then he took it back…

Well bless my soul

You're a lonely soul

'Cause you won't let go, of anything you hold

It's true… I can't let go… but I have to, I don't have a hold on him anymore…

"Well all I need is the air I breathe and a place to rest my head"

Do you know what your fate is?

And now you're trying to shake it

You're doing your best dance, your best look

You're praying that you make it

I was crying hard at this point. I didn't know what the future held for me. I don't really know what to do… oh why did… why make this song? It's like this song was made for me but it couldn't have been…

Well bless my soul

You're a lonely soul

'Cause you won't let go of anything you hold

"Well all I need, is the air I breathe and a place to rest my head

Say all I need is the air I breathe and a place to rest my head

I stopped the car and rested my head on the wheel and sobbed and cried… just let it all out… Charlie… Renee… Jacob… Angela… them… they can't see me now… I'm allowed to cry once in a while…

Do you think I can find it?

Do you think you can find it?

Do you think you can find it, better than you had it?

Do you think I can find it?

Do you think you can find it?

Do you think you can find it(yeah), better than you had it? (better than you had it?)

My body shivered as pain covered every inch of my body, pouring out and pouring in… I am so messed up… no matter how hard I tried to hide it, I'm broken up into a million pieces…

"Say all I need is the air I breathe and a place to rest my head"

"Say all I need is the air I breathe and a place to rest my head"

If you were to ask me what I needed three months before… I would've said Edward in a heartbeat… but now I'm not so sure…

Maybe now… now all I want is freedom from this prison of nothing but pain….

I didn't want to feel pain anymore….

I didn't want to feel so empty…

So desolate….

So cold

But definitely not numb.

The air I breathe… and a place to rest my head…. That is what I need…

Do you know where the end is?

Do you think you could see it?

Well until you get there, go on

Go ahead and scream it

Just say...

As the song ended I got out of my truck and just ran…

I ran and I ran until I reached a cliff.

When I reached the end I cupped my hands around my mouth and screamed.

I screamed and screamed everything I wanted – needed to say.

When I was done screaming, I dropped on my knees and covered my face then cried my heart out.

"Why did I have to hear that song? Why now? Why me?" I said in between sobs. Then I froze as I felt a cold hand on my shoulder.

I opened my eyes and raised my head and at once I was greeted by warm honey, topaz eyes full of concern. And a flurry of calmness washed over me and I collapsed onto the chest of my visitor, someone I least expected to see.

As he rubbed my back, he placed his icy hand on my face and raised it to meet his. "Did it make you feel better, or worse?"

I smiled at him and hugged him tight. I didn't care that he was who he was. I wanted so badly to see anyone of them, anyone. "I'm so glad you're here. The song made me feel sad but in a weird way, relieved. I knew it was you who was singing…Jasper."

He chuckled lightly, "I knew how you were feeling and I made this song just for you."

"Jasper why did you come back?"

"At first… I really meant to check on you…. I felt really guilty for being the catalyst for our departure… I had to make sure you were okay…"

"At first?" I asked puzzled.

He nodded, "Yes. I actually checked on you a week after we left and you never left my mind not once since then."

"W-was it because of guilt? You have to know Jasper that I don't blame you for anything."

He shook his head, "No. Not out of guilt. You see Bella… I… I have fallen in love with you I'm afraid…"

I gasped. I did not see this coming! But how about Alice?

"If you're panicking right now because of Alice, you have nothing to worry about…me and Alice… well… we found out that we weren't meant to be… she saw this coming." He explained.

"Really?" I said shocked.

He nodded again and brushed some of his blond bangs off his eyes. "That's right. And she also saw a handsome young vampire looking for her."

"I see… I don't know what to say…"

He grinned. "I wouldn't be surprised. But you know Bella, you look like hell."

I cringed, "Gah. I know. Sorry… things are so… painful right now…"

He touched my face and I blushed, my heart was racing. Why? "I know. I feel your pain… really feel your pain. It's so bad I actually want to kill myself. You should start to move on now…"

I stiffened. Move on?

He stiffened as well, "I'm sorry! No I didn't mean move on with me or any implications… I just meant that you should start being happy again…"

I sighed, "I'll try." He grinned widely. What's this? My heart's racing again.

He laughed, "Calm down, Bella."

"How? I can't trust my feelings with you here." I said glumly.

"Oh? You should. I'm not influencing you anymore, I swear."

If he wasn't then I? He laughed again. "This is embarrassing."

He shook his head. "You shouldn't be." Then he leaned down until his face was just an inch from mine. I held my breath as his cool breath fanned my face. Damn dazzling vampires.

Sensing my annoyance he chuckled, "Breathe Bella." And immediately I obeyed.

"So do you mean it?"

"Mean what?" he said amused.

I blushed three shades darker and faced away from him. "You know…"

He made me look at him again and his face was so near mine I could almost…

"Do you mean what I said? yes… I do love you Bella." He whispered.

Then his cold hard lips came crashing down mine and my body betrayed me again as I pulled him closer, kissing him back, my hands on his honey blond hair. My heart was hammering out of my chest.

I could feel him smile against my lips and he kissed me even more enthusiastically, pulling me closer…tighter… kissing me gently but not as careful like Edward was.

And for some reason… this all felt good…

I was starting to find my heart again… maybe Jasper and me were the ones meant to be…

We broke apart from our kiss so I could breathe. We were both panting but I was still confused.

"I'm… I'm sorry Jasper… I…" he placed a finger on my mouth to silence me. "Shh… I understand. I'll wait until you're ready… for anything…"

"Just…"

"Just?" I asked.

Jasper grinned again, his golden hair falling on his eyes again. He bent down and whispered in my ear, "Just say."


Disclaimer: I own a dog but not twilight or one republic.

AN: The song is from One Republic. It's Say(All I Need). I thought about Jasper and Bella when I heard this song. I'm still for Bella and Edward and Alice and Jasper but I am intrigued with this pairing. Love it or hate it.

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