A/N: Some of it is mine, some of it isn't.
This is my first Harry Potter Fanfiction story, so please go easy. There may be some OOC-ness. AU, Sirius, Dumbledore, Severus, no one died.
Okay, there's a part in here that some people might find offensive……… It'll be marked by *****'s. You can skip it if you want, but nothing bad happens. They just…get to know each other a bit better…heh.
I was sitting at my desk with my head in my hands and a cup of steaming hot tea was beside me. When I heard my door open and close, I didn't bother to look up and see who it was. My classes were done for the day and Severus had a class right now, so it wasn't him or students. Someone cleared their throat and I looked up to see Remus smiling down at me.
"Remus, good to see you. Did you need something?" I asked, sitting up and looking at him.
"I wanted to see if you were okay. I heard about what happened earlier today and I saw that you weren't at lunch." He conjured a chair, sat down in front of my desk and poured himself a cup of tea.
"I'm fine I guess. So who told you? Potter?" I replied, leaning down to open up my desk drawer and pulling out a bottle of firewhiskey. I poured a large amount into my cup and offered the bottle to Remus, who refused it.
"Actually, it was Hermione Granger. She seems to have become quite fond of you." Remus said, watching me as I drained my class of firewhiskey and tea. I refilled the cup with only firewhiskey. "You should watch how much you drink… You and Severus might have to talk tonight."
"Here's to talking with him tonight." I said, raising my cup and then draining the firewhiskey from it.
Remus shook his head and tried to take the bottle from me. I glared at him and shook my head. "This is my way of coping." I told him, taking the cap off the bottle and drinking.
"You're going to have to find a new way of coping soon. That won't be good for the baby." Remus said, frowning at me.
"Don't remind me." I whined, finishing off the bottle. I was officially on my way to being drunk.
"Well, at least it's all gone now." Remus said, smiling.
I laughed and stumbled over to my cupboard. I unwarded it, opened up the doors and showed him my store of liquor. Firewhiskey and just about every kind of liquor bottle shined in the candlelight.
"You're an alcoholic!" He exclaimed.
I giggled and grabbed a bottle of brandy. "Not quite. I just enjoy my liquor."
Remus shook his head and stood up. "Well, you aren't going to listen to me. So come see me when you're sober." He left and shut the door behind me.
I uncapped the bottle and began to wallow in my misery.
It was around eleven o'clock at night when I stumbled into our sitting room. I took off my teaching robes and threw them over the back of the couch. Giggling, I stumbled towards the front of the couch, but I tripped over the coffee table and landed on my back on the floor. I closed my eyes and continued to giggle before I tried to get up. When I opened my eyes again, Severus was standing over me, his arms folded across his chest.
"Hola Severusio." I said, cackling wildly.
"You're drunk." He stated, bending down to help me up.
"Yes, I am very drunk." I said, leaning against him and breathing deeply. "You always smell good. Like, like strawberries and Wormwood."
Severus snorted and set me down on the couch. "Again I say, you're drunk." I watched as a vial of blue liquid flew into the room and into Severus' hand. He opened my mouth and tried to get me to drink it.
"No, stop. I like being drunk. It helps." I said, turning my face away from him.
"I didn't think I was that ugly." He muttered, turning my head back to face him and pouring the liquid down my throat.
I swallowed, sat up and shook my head. I looked up at Severus with clear eyes. "You aren't ugly. Your hair is silky, not greasy. Your eyes are deep with knowledge and understanding. You stand tall and broad, with power and intelligence. Your hands are soft and strong…" I shut my mouth quickly and swallowed. "Ooops."
I stood up quickly and backed away from him. "I'm sorry. I'm, I'm going to go get ready for bed."
I practically ran to the bedroom, grabbed clothes from my wardrobe, went into the bathroom and shut the door. I turned on the water and poured sour apple bubble bath into the tub. When the water was steaming and the bubbles were almost overflowing, I undressed and sank into the water. Closing my eyes, I relaxed and sank down lower into the tub. I was so relaxed, that I didn't hear the bathroom door open.
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Before I knew it, someone had lifted my back up and had slid down behind me. I tensed as arms wrapped around my waist and a head settled on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry about earlier today." He said, leaning his head against mine. "It's a hard adjustment for me."
"And you think it's not for me? Severus, I haven't been married either. This is a new experience for both of us. Granted, it would be easier if we didn't have to have a baby so soon, but we have to work with what we've got. This is a two way door. I'm willing to try if you are. I do not want our daughter growing up with parents who argue and fight all the time. Both of us lived that childhood, and neither of us wants that for our daughter." I said, picking up his hand and playing with his fingers.
"Who says it's going to be a girl? If I have any say, it's going to be a boy." He said, growling playfully at me.
I laughed and turned around to look him in the eyes. "I'm going to love our baby either way."
"As am I." he said and kissed me.
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Loves you all.