Not sure what it is with me and LavixLenalee, Lavi's point-of-view, dreary poems lately. o.O Written at the same time and in the same period of time as the last one too! Hope you enjoy. :)
Lavi's feelings on being a Bookman, and at the end, some LavixLenalee.
At the Order, we're alike.
In the battles, we're different.
You're in combat, I'm studying your moves.
I don't think I can bear it anymore, it's just been too long.
I can't just sit here and watch this.
I won't allow myself to do nothing as you die.
If it means sacrificing my fate, so be it.
If this is what a Bookman is supposed to be,
Then I'm done. It's just not right for me.
My friends have gone out onto the battlefield,
Their lives are at stake as they fight.
I myself have currently gone into hiding,
After all, what they do, I have to watch, I have to write.
This is what I signed up for? I don't believe it is.
Now I'd give it all. I'd put my life at stake, not hers or his.
I might have a sufficient memory, but my will isn't that strong.
I can't tell like this. I want to be able to tell... Tell right from wrong.
I don't want this life. It's not what I chose to be.
I wanted to know everything, that was my childhood dream.
But now, things have changed. I have things that matter.
But for every step I take, I feel another piece of my soul shatter.
I want a beautiful future, in a world free of evil.
I want friends, I want family. I need a place to call home.
I just need to feel normal. I don't want to know it all.
Exorcists... My friends. I yell for help, they can't respond to this call.
They just can't hear it, but then I see her look over.
It's unnerving how much she knows me, under every layer I add.
I wonder how many aliases she knows about? I wonder which she likes best.
I'm amazed at how well she handles my personality changes.
Usually, after once or twice, people stop caring.
Don't want to deal with new me, so they don't, to keep their hearts from tearing.
But you're different, you've never stopped being there.
You're the one for me, I can tell... You... You actually care.