Gotta Go My OwnWay
By: Matrix Taylor
From: Winx Club
AUTHOR'S NOTE: After rewatching the 1st season of the Winx Club for probably the millionth time since it aired, I got the idea to write this fic, It's pretty much my own spin on the brief break up between Bloom & Sky. In other words, it's the things that they didn't want you to know or see.
DISCLAIMER: Winx Club do not belongto me , but to their rightful owners & distributors. Gotta Go My Own Way belongs to High School Musical cast & Disney.
Bloom again found herself burying her face in her pillows with tears in her eyes. She could not stop remembering all the good times they had and everything that made her love him so much. It was just not fair! Why did he have to be engaged? She could deal with him being a prince but engaged?
Bloom screamed in the pillow as fresh tears spilled down her cheeks. It was true that has not known Sky for very long, even when he was pretending to be Brandon, but she felt that she practically knew him forever. And somehow, Bloom knew or thought that Sky felt the same way. Unfortunately, Bloom found that maybe she was wrong. Maybe it was something that was just not meant to be.
Bloom knew that she had to stop torturing herself like this. She had to forget about Sky and move on. That is why she has decided to leave Alfea and her friends behind. As hard of a decision it is, Bloom felt as if it may be the right one. Bloom just could not stay in Alfea where everything practically reminded her of all the wonderful times she and Sky had and spent together whenever she was walking down the street on the sidewalk or passing by the salon where they both talked. She did not want to be reminded of him whenever she was with her friends or the Red Fountain guys came around. Or when she sees how happy Stella and Brandon were together. (She was sure that they both will get back together) She just would not be able to stand the awkwardness she was sure will be there with her friends and the other Red Fountain guys. Bloom did not want to keep wondering if Sky was with his fiancé Diaspro evey second of the day. Plus, she can be just normal Bloom again. She will have no worries at all. Going back will make it easier to forget all about Sky and ease some of the heartbreak and disappointment she felt right now.
Blooms thoughts were suddenly interrupted when her phone rung. Somehow, even before she got up the nerve to move just to look at the caller ID, Bloom knew that it was Sky calling her. Ever since what happened between she and Sky, he has been calling leaving messages of apologies and asking if they could talk. Of course, Bloom never responded, to hurt to want to speak or see him again. It was simply too painful. She knew that there was probably no way he was leaving his fiancé. He would be crazy to for someone like her.
Silently, Bloom debated answering before with some resignation, finally picking up the phone and answering just as it was about to switch to her answering machine.
"Hello?" Bloom answered, keeping her voice neutral to hide her hurt and the fact that she has been crying.
"Bloom," She heard the familiar voice belonging to Sky say.
Just hearing that voice made her heart do flips and blush.
"Sky. Oh…hi," Bloom responds, trying to sound as upbeat as possible despite how crushed she really felt.
"Bloom, you sound as if you've been crying," Sky says, pointing out the fact that despite her best efforts, her voice was too hoarse to hide the fact that she has been weeping.
"No…not at all!" Bloom says. Then simply finding it pointless, Bloom says, "Just…what do you want Brandon? Or is it Sky?"
"Look Bloom. I'm really sorry about what happened. And I really want to make things right between us." Sky responds.
Bloom's heart suddenly skipped a beat and her breath caught in her throat at the words. Because in a way, only a few days ago, it was just what she wanted to hear Sky say to her. However, it was too late now. Bloom has already made her decision. She refuse to be made a fool of a second thought.
"I'm…I'm sorry Sky. But…I…I can't." Bloom says shaking her head slowly, her red hair moving with the gesture.
"Well why not?" Sky says, his voice getting higher.
"Sky…" Bloom says with a sigh. Digging deep inside of her, she found to say what she needed to say to him before she lost her nerve. "I gotta say what's on my mind. Something about us doesn't seem right these days. Life keeps getting in the way. Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged. It's hard to say, but I've gotta do what's best for m. You'll be okay. I've got to move on and be who I am. I just don't belong here, I hope you understand. We might find our place in this world someday. But I guess for now, I gotta go my own way."
"Bloom…what are you saying?" Sky says, actually surprised.
"I'm going back Sky. I'm going back home to Earth and I'm never coming back." Bloom tells him.
"What! Bloom, you can't!" Sky exclaims.
"Don't wanna leave it all behind. But I get my hopes up and watch them fall every time. Another color turns to grey. And it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away. I'm leavin' today 'cause I've gotta do what's best for me. You'll be okay. I've got to move on and be who I am. I just don't belong here. I hope you understand. We might find our place in this world someday. But I guess for now, I gotta go my own way."
"What about us! What about everything we've been through?" Sky responds.
"What about trust?!" Bloom says back, reliving each and every day even in Magix the day she found out that Sky was actually engaged to another.
"You know I never wanted to hurt you." Sky says.
She could tell that Sky really felt guilty and bad about what he did. But, it was simply too late/
"What about me?!" Bloom asks.
"What am I suppose to do?"
"I gotta leave but I'll miss you," Bloom says as-a-matter-of-fact hoping that Sky realized just how she must be feeling.
"I'll miss you," Sky says.
When Sky says this, Bloom thought of forgetting about returning to Earth. But, she shook the thought away, determined to leave for good. She just could not stand the thought or knowing that Sky was married to another.
"Bloom?" Sky says, hoping deep down inside that she has changed her mind. But that hope was soon dashed.
"So, I've got to move on and be who I am." Bloom tells him.
"Why do you have to go?" Sky answers.
"I just don't belong here. I hope you understand."
"I'm trying to understand."
"We might find our place in this world one day. But at least for now, I've gotta go my own way."
"Bloom please, don't go!" Sky replies, his desperation mounting. "I want you to stay!"
" I wanna go my own way. I've got to move on and be who I am?"
"What about us?" Sky says.
" just don't belong here. I hope you understand."
"I'm trying to understand." Sky says.
"We might find our place in this world someday. But at least for now, I've gotta go my own way." Bloom finished and hangs up.
However, it did not make Bloom feel any better. She hurried and packed her things, making sure she have everything including Keiko her bunny. She hurries to leave Alfea and the memories of her friends, her first love, and heartache behind.
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way….
Author's Last Words: R&R Tell me what you think of my first Winx fic.