emJune 10, 2006

June 10, 2006


I don't know how to start this so I'm just going to start it by saying so. (Try saying that five times fast.) Anyway, I figure this is kind of useless, but I can't just let go. I'm going down fighting.

I don't know how many other ways there are to tell you I love you. So far, none of them have worked. They've gotten the point across, and even gotten a bit of your attention, but nothing has been enough to receive an equal reaction. Well, maybe equal. I guess Newton was right after all.

So, this might seem kind of stupid, but right now, it's all I've got. It's juvenile and I'm sure you'll hate it—you'll be totally embarrassed—but I know you'll love it, too. Because I know you, Bells, whether you want to admit it or not. I know you.

I wouldn't be surprised if you haven't already burned and/or ripped this up already. So if you're still reading, I am eternally grateful. Well…you know. I can't, technically, offer eternal gratefulness (and I know he can—you don't have to point it out), but I think you get the idea. I guess it doesn't have the same punch as if he said it, but, you know.

I'm rambling now. I think I'm just going to get doing what I had originally written this for. I hope this does something to change your mind. I'm still trying, Bells. Don't forget that I fought 'til the final second.

26 Things I Love About Bella Swan in Alphabetical Order

By Jacob Black

A – Amber-colored hair (How do you keep it so soft?)

B – Bells (The best nickname ever—come on, admit it)

C – Car (Okay, so it's a truck. But you're so bloody attached to it and it's adorable.)

D – Determination (I have never met a more determined person in my life. Especially when it comes to love. Well, except maybe me. Haha.)

E – Everything (I don't think that really needs an explanation.)

F – Family (Even though you don't like to admit it, you know you're a big family person. You'd give anything for Charlie or Renee.)

G – Giving

H – Heart

I – Ignorance (Don't get mad. Ignorance is bliss. But then you always do your best to become not ignorant.)

J – Jocular sarcasm (You're the queen at it.)

K – Kiss

L – Loving

M – Mind

N – Nose (I swear, you have the cutest nose I have ever seen.)

O – Original (You always come up with great plans to solve a problem. Even if they don't always work.)

P – Pretty

Q – Quiet (You're not like those loud, obnoxious girls that seem to be so common these days.)

R – Reserved (See above.)

S – Sexy (Come on, Bells, you know you are.)

T – Talented (Especially in the academic area.)

U – Unbelievable (Also known as "amazing".)

V – Versed (You've read a whole lot of books, Bells.)

W – Worried (You're always worried about something Bells. Gives me a chance to chase the monsters away.)

X – X-cellent (Give me a break, here.)

Y – Youthful (…in mind and spirit. Whether or not your body stays that way, I don't care.)

Z – Zany (You're adorable clumsiness never fails to amuse me.)

I'd say that's a pretty good list (except for the X—I'm sure you know a suitable word though). I could come up with more, but there are no more letters. If you'd like, I'd be willing to make a more extensive list. However, I don't have the time now because well, this is my last chance.

Please, Bells. I'm trying one last time. Don't let it go to waste.

All the love I have and more,

Jacob Black