Not very long ago I felt completely torn. Honestly I was torn between being popular and actually being happy. I don't feel that was any more. Actually, I feel better than I have through all of high school. I'm not sure why it took me this long, but I'm so glad I finally made the right decision. I broke up with Derek, but rumors are going around that he's dating Jocelyn Lee. That doesn't surprise me. It was hard to do, and it was painful, but I'm glad it's over. I've been hanging out with Virgil and Charlie and Zeke, and Jeanette is there too most of the time. All of them are actually really cool. Zeke isn't all that hard to relate to, and even though Charlie's super smart he's still cool. Jeanette can be lots of fun, and of course Virgil is still Virgil. I really like him, but we both agreed not to date each other or anyone else for a while. I have to admit, it's been pretty hard around school. People talk, and the majority of it isn't nice. Going from one of the most popular girls in school to one of the "dorks" was hard, but it was totally worth it. It's so nice to not be torn anymore.