DISCLAIMER: I obviously do not own Twilight or anything Twilight-related. Stephenie Meyer does. =D
Heyyy sorry I haven't updated this one in a while. I've been working on my Alice/Bella stories.
I hope you enjoy this, because I think "Her Space Heater" is complete now. =]
I looked away from him, not wanting him to see me. What had I done? What had I gotten myself into? All of this was my fault.
I suppose I did hear him calling, but it didn't evoke any response. I just lay there, like I had just a few months before. It had started to rain and I knew my clothes were soaked and dirty…but I didn't care.
"Bells? I'm going to take you home."
I felt his arms reach underneath me and pick me up. He was so warm, and he smelled so nice. Strange, how comforting that was.
"Jake, you don't have to do this." I whispered. But he could barely hear me with the sound of the pouring rain all around us.
"I don't want to go home."
"He left Bella. He ran off as soon as I did, when I saw you leave." Jacob told me. We were almost out of the woods now. I could see the lights of my street. "Where do you want to go?"
"I just want to stay with you…"
As we reached the driveway to my house, Jacob opened the passenger door of his car and motioned for me to get in.
"I'll be back in a second, okay?"
And it did feel like only a second later that he came back, locking my front door behind him.
"Where'd you go?" I asked, moving to the middle seat so that I could be closer to him. I was freezing in my wet clothes.
"I left a note for Charlie, telling him you'd be spending the night up at La Push. Think he'll be okay with that?"
I smiled, despite myself. "I'd say so. But wait…what about the mess?" With a frown, I remembered the fight that had made me so horrified with myself in the first place. What would Charlie think about that?
"Well…when I went back in just now it was completely cleaned up..."
And I immediately knew who had cleaned it.
"I'm a horrible person." I stated, knowing I'd never been so sure of anything in my life. Apart from the fact that it was Jacob I loved.
"Bella, neither of us blame you for anything. Edward wasn't and isn't mad at you, he's mad at me. I know you loved him Bella…I'm sure a huge part of you still does, in a way. It's just…different now. That doesn't make you a horrible person. He knows that, I definitely know that…so why don't you?"
I didn't reply. I just sighed. I knew Jake had a point, but I still felt miserable. We were in La Push now and Jake was pulling the car to a stop.
"You know, for a while there, tonight was…amazing. And then…"
Jake took my hand and carefully pulled me out of the car, locking it behind me.
"It can be amazing again Bella…" he said sincerely as we walked inside.
Billy was asleep in the living room, so we went into Jake's room and shut the door behind us.
"You wanna watch some tv?" he asked. I shrugged, then he turned it on, sitting up on the bed and patting the spot next to him with a smile on his face. I sat on the bed and moved over to him. The second I touched him he wrapped his arms around me. It was like a reflex now. All thoughts I'd had of stopping this from happening, were gone. My head rested on his warm chest.
And yet, I was still freezing…and I was sure Jake had noticed me shivering.
"Bella, you really have to get out of those clothes." he said with a chuckle, putting his hand on my soaking wet skirt.
"And into what exactly?"
Jake got up and walked over to his closet, sifting through the limited clothing he had in there.
"How about this?" he asked, lifting up a t-shirt that looked too big for Jake, let alone me.
The distaste must have shown on my face, because he just laughed again and brought it over to me. Then his expression changed.
"You can get dressed in the bathroom, or in here. I'll just step out."
"No, it's okay. I want you to stay." And it was true, I didn't want to be away from him. No anymore. Never again.
Jake just smiled and sat back on the bed with me, obviously trying not to look in my direction. I took of my skirt first, throwing it over a chair next to the bed. It had been raining so much, I was still dripping…and for a second I wondered if dripping all over Jake'sb bed was the best idea.
I could feel his eyes on me every few seconds, as I pulled the heavy, wet shirt over my head. Suddenly I was very aware of what I was doing…and I knew that Jake was liking it. I moved over on the bed, so that I was much closer to him. Then, deliberately slowly, I undid my bra strap, pulled off my bra and threw it with the rest of my clothes. All I had on were my panties now, and Jacob wasn't trying to look away anymore.
"Are you okay Jake?" I asked, slowly sliding my underwear off, looking him in the eyes the entire time. He didn't respond.
Then I reached for the shirt Jacob had found for me and was about to put it on, when his hand shot out and touched my arm.
I dropped the shirt, suddenly feeling more confident than I ever had with him before. As I moved even closer to him, he removed his shirt, exposing his amazing, built chest…
Next I undid his pants myself, and pulled them off…pulling off his underwear too.
He started to move towards me, but I stopped him, reaching up and turning off the light. Jake couldn't take it anymore. He took my arm and pulled me to him, crushing our bodies against each other as his lips met mine with incredible force and passion.
I loved him so much, and at that moment I realized how ridiculous it had been to try and deny it. I needed him, I wanted him, and I loved him…
As we kissed in the dark. I ran my hand along his cock…and I could feel how hard he was. His hands were all over me, touching my breasts, running his hands up and down my back. A few times I felt his fingers move inside of me, making me so wet.
I ran my hands along his incredible chest, and kissed his neck. Never had I felt passion like that before. I wasn't sure where my confidence was coming from, but I think it had something to do with knowing, for sure, that this was exactly what I wanted. Jacob. Always.
Jake's face turned to one of shock when I moved so that I was sitting on top of him…then I leant forwards and whispered in his ear…
"I want you inside of me Jake…now…"
I felt the tip of his cock touch me, and then with a moan from me…he thrust inside of me. Even though it had only been a few hours, I'd somehow forgotten how big Jacob was. I moved up and down on his lap, pushing him deeper and deeper inside of me.
Jake started kissing my neck, my chest…then I felt his tongue touch one of my hard nipples. Then he started sucking on it, and I tried not to scream.
"Ohhh Jake, that's so good."
With one of his hands he massaged my other breast, rubbing one nipple while he licked and sucked the other. At the same time I could feel my wetness dripping all over his huge cock…
He was driving me crazy. I was moving faster and faster, and as I was about to come he started rubbing my nipples harder and running his hands up and down the sides of my body while he fucked me.
Finally I came, moaning his name and trying not to scream because we couldn't wake up Billy. His lips pressed against mine, and I never wanted to let him go.
When he pulled out of me, I crushed myself closer to him as we lay down on the bed. His lips never left me and I could feel his hand touching my wet pussy. Wrapping my arms around him, I lay my head on his chest. His lips moved to my neck, then he whispered in my ear,
"I love you so much Bella. Always…"
And that was all I needed to know.