"Bella, before we had our… argument, we were about to talk to Carlisle. We never found out why you were blushing, and I didn't want to say anything at first, but I am simply puzzled, you were sleeping!"
"So? What's wrong with sleeping? I am allowed aren't I?"
"Bella, vampires don't sleep."
"Oh." How could I have been so stupid, why did I have to fall asleep? Now I have to tell him everything. "Well, it wasn't that I didn't want to talk to you about it, I had just planned it to be a little later on." I quickly replied, innocently.
"Aren't you going to tell me?' Edward seemed upset, and slightly confused. I could tell he wanted to know what was wrong with me, and it would've puzzled him for centuries.
"Of course I am. It's just, difficult, I guess."
"We have a long time together, Bella. I can wait a little longer. I'm sorry I tried to get you to tell me."
"Edward, stop blaming yourself, I understand how much you want to know. I'm just not ready to talk about everything."
"I'm still sorry." I then gave him a look, which made him laugh.
That laugh, it still makes the butterflies in my stomach flutter.
Oh, how could I possibly reject someone like that, when I love them so dearly?
How could I be so cruel to him, when he followed me all these years, and then told me about it?
"Edward, as you know; I'm not normal…"
"Bella, don't tell me because of my stupidity. Tell me when you're ready."
"No, I want to."
"Are you sure?" His expression was serious.
"Yes." Then I gave him a hard look. He leaned towards me, inches from where I was sitting.
"You being different only makes me love you more," He gently whispered, "When ever there's something wrong with you; I'm only ever more attracted. There isn't a single word you could say, that would surprise me, or make me change my mind about wanting you. As long as you're happy, so am I."
Then his face was even closer. I could taste his breath and smell his scent. Only a few more inches and…
"Bella, you're heart is racing."
"Oh," I blushed, "You could tell?"
"Of course, I can hear it." He stopped and closed his eyes, listening, but be seemed in some sort of pain that he didn't know why he could.
"I'm half human, Edward. That's the simplest way to explain it. I don't know how, and it's really complicated to know why, but I said it. I'm half human, I still have blood pumping through my veins, I still have my vital organs, I go to the bathroom and I sweat, but at the same time; I have the same hearing, strength, vision and speed that you do."
Edward didn't move. His eyes were still closed, and his body had turned to stone. I sat, silently, in hysterics.
What does he think of me?
He's probably regretting ever following me here in the first place.
"I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted," I began, "I'm sorry I'm not good enough…"
I was stopped mid-sentence. My hands enclosed in his, my back pressed against his chest. His chin rested on the top of my head, as we sat on the bed, me, held in his arms.
"Don't ever say such words again. I don't want you even thinking them." He struggled to keep his voice clear of emotion, "You're all I have ever, and will ever want. I don't deserve you. If you had been transformed into a werewolf I would still love you. As selfish as I am, I would still want you."
"A werewolf, really?"
"Of course; I wouldn't hesitate for the slightest second."
I began to blush again. Edward softened his voice, so it was just an echo in my ear.
"I'm sorry I gave you the wrong impressive just before. I was just… absorbing, the information. I had waiting so long to find out, and I had made up so many theories. Maybe you were bitten by some sort of radio-active spider." His voice let out a charm-like laughter.
"What did you think I was?"
Edward smiled crookedly, then turned serious again. "Oh, I just thought that I hadn't changed you right. Maybe I didn't put enough venom in you to affect your body completely."
That sounds pretty reasonable.
"But I don't know," Edward continued, "What did you think?"
"I just went with it," I admitted, "I think you're right, though, Edward. Do you remember how much venom you put in me?"
"I couldn't possibly forget. I'm sure it was enough, but I can't be sure. I hadn't done it before." He looked away, ashamed.
"It's not your fault. Everything that has happened is because of me."
"Don't talk like that, Bella. We've already decided not to blame anyone."
"Even though I should be." I muttered, Edward gave me a look, but continued.
"We should be focusing more on the situation at hand."
"I'm a situation?" I raised one eyebrow, "Besides, I already know what happened to me."
"Would you care to enlighten me, then, Bella?"
"Well," I cleared my throat, "It's hard to explain, so bare with me for a moment here. Listen to everything I have to say before you can interrupt. Do you think you can do it?" I cheered sarcastically. Edward laughed.
"I'm pretty sure I can." He responded with a smile.
"As you know, I'm half human, and I think it's because I wanted to become a vampire." Edward paused, his head tilted to one side, "Everyone we know who is a vampire, has been made one against their will. They have either crossed paths with the wrong people, or they have been dieing, but I was different. I self sacrificed. I wanted to become a vampire. So what if, by some chance, I was made differently, because I chose? I look like a vampire, the beauty and the pale skin, but any vampire to come across me would be confused. They can see I'm one of them, but they can smell that I'm not. My gift is being human again. My heart beats, just as you can hear people's thoughts. I'm still immortal, and I still have vampire characteristics, I just blush as well."
"Mmm, that a very good theory, Bella." Edward pinched the bridge of his nose with his fingers, thinking, "You could be right, but there isn't really much of a way to tell."
"I know," I mumbled, as I too started to drift deep into thought, "But really, there no other explanation, except for your venom theory."
"It's crazy, honey, but there could be many things that could've happened."
"Then let's just stick with my one, ok?" I slightly pleaded, I thought it sounded pretty damn good, "I had it all sorted out."
"Ok," Edward reassured me, but I could tell he was hesitant. "Sure, why not?"
I smiled, and Edward returned the favour. He edged closer to me, so slowly I had barely noticed, but within the same second, he was already on top of me.
(Extracts from first chapter)
Then I was breathless as I shaped my mouth to fit his.
His perfect lips were pressed to mine.
My heart pounded.
I choked for air.
"I like getting carried away," I eventually managed to, quite obviously and quite breathlessly, whisper, "and I'm glad you finally decided to join me in doing so."
I shaped my body to fit his, I rubbed my fingers repeatedly around his neck, then moving down his spine, roughly tracing his shoulder blades and tensing muscles. We rolled over to our side again.
"It's actually getting quite addictive, I can see, now, why you have always wanted to be irresponsible," He chuckled, "this is a good choice as one of your last human experiences, too bad you're already a vampire."
"Why thank you, I'm glad you think so too."
What is this feeling?
I want him; I want him more than I ever have.
He slowed and removed himself from me gently. He took a few deep breaths and started to relax his tense body.
His hands cupped around my face and he locked his eyes with mine.
"I know I shouldn't be with you, because technically I'm still married, but I love you, Edward." I breathed.
"I love you, too, Mrs. Bella Black." Then he smiled that crooked smile, and I knew that I was going to be with Edward for the rest of my existence.