How could I have been so foolish as to think that he would kiss me, to hope?

I should have known better.

But when he looked at me after I handed him the prize, I could have sworn that he would.

His expression held such joy; I've never seen him so unreserved.

He was so close, first staring at the dagger in my hands, and then at my face.

He's never looked at my face before, I mean really looked.

Can you blame me for feeling hopeful?

But then he took the dagger and stepped backwards. The moment was shattered.

I stepped backwards too.

When you love someone as I love him, you're powerless.

He controls my every thought.

And as he walked away towards the exit I followed him.

He didn't say a word to me, and I was silent as well.

I was happy in the knowledge that Dai Shi was happy with me.

I am able to serve the man I love.

And I am content with that.

I'll have to be.