How could I have been so foolish as to think that he would kiss me, to hope?
I should have known better.
But when he looked at me after I handed him the prize, I could have sworn that he would.
His expression held such joy; I've never seen him so unreserved.
He was so close, first staring at the dagger in my hands, and then at my face.
He's never looked at my face before, I mean really looked.
Can you blame me for feeling hopeful?
But then he took the dagger and stepped backwards. The moment was shattered.
I stepped backwards too.
When you love someone as I love him, you're powerless.
He controls my every thought.
And as he walked away towards the exit I followed him.
He didn't say a word to me, and I was silent as well.
I was happy in the knowledge that Dai Shi was happy with me.
I am able to serve the man I love.
And I am content with that.
I'll have to be.