Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.

I was losing everything.

Everything I loved was slowly slipping away into a blackness.

I couldn't find a safe place anymore.

My mind wasn't even safe, at least not to me.

What had I done wrong?

Was this really the price I had to pay?

Losing everything to be with him?

I could do that, even if it hurt.

Or would I not even be able to be with my love?

What kind of sick punishment was this?

I didn't understand any of this.

None of it made any sense.

Everything was just a big mess.

I didn't even want to be a vampire anymore.

Not without him.

It seemed like he was slipping away and neither one of us were fighting against it.