Lily and Severus spent the whole morning talking in the glade. At about twelve o'clock they went to the corner shop and bought sandwiches and bottled water, and brought it back to their spot in the trees. After they had eaten, Lily lay down in a spot of sunlight which the trees didn't shade, and patted the ground for Severus to lie beside her. He did, and lay with his arms behind his head looking up at the clouds.
Lily lay on her side and watched him. She felt that now was as good a time as ever to turn on the charm. She had planned roughly what she was going to say, and she could hardly believe it herself, but she decided to just jump straight in and catch him off guard.
"How often do you masturbate?"
He froze. He thought he must have heard her wrong and for a minute he couldn't think of anything to say, then he turned to look at her to see if she was making fun of him. But she was watching him intently for the answer.
"Uh, I dunno, the normal amount for a guy my age, I suppose…"
"Mm," she said thoughtfully.
He let out his breath which he realised he had been holding. He tried to relax. He didn't want her to know just how much that question had thrown him. But she wasn't finished.
"Do you look at porn when you do it, or just use your imagination?"
His eyes opened wide and this time he didn't look at her, but he knew she was still watching him. He wished she would look away, because he could feel his face getting hot.
"Uh, mostly I just, I don't have, I mean… Just my imagination."
He prayed she had finished. But there was more.
"So what do you think of?"
Lily was really enjoying this, a lot more than she had imagined she would. He was clearly mortified, and it took all her efforts to keep a straight face. She loved watching him squirm.
"What do I - what?"
"You said you use your imagination. So what do you imagine?"
He didn't say anything. He looked terrified. She put her hand over her mouth to cover her smile, but it made no difference because he obviously couldn't bring himself to look at her.
She gathered all her energy to keep her voice even, then she leaned in to him and whispered, "do you ever think of me?"
At this he brought his hands over his face and groaned. "Merlin's beard, Lily, where exactly are you going with this?" Then he turned his head to look at her through his fingers.
She beamed at him. "Sorry, nowhere, I was just wondering."
"Right. Well. Are you done now?"
They sat in silence for a moment, and Severus was trying to think of some other subject to change to, but Lily had just planted a pretty strong thought in his head and right now it was difficult to remember if anything else existed.
"Its just that sometimes I think of you," she said quietly.
He froze up again. You heard her wrong. Or you misunderstood. She's obviously talking about something else, you just haven't got off the subject as quickly as her.
He cleared his throat, "pardon?" but it came out as a squeak.
"You see, one of my girlfriends bought me a vibrator for my last birthday as a joke, and at first I just laughed and put it away. But I suppose curiosity got the better of me. And because I had never, you know, touched myself, before - well, it was really something."
Severus was staring at the clouds again, wishing his trousers were a little more loose. He tried to remember to breathe, but suddenly it seemed a lot harder than usual.
They sat in silence again for a moment. Severus thought, please, please, let that be it, please change the subject… Why can't I think of anything…
But she wasn't going to let him have that satisfaction.
"So, you don't ever think of me, then? When you're masturbating?"
He had completely lost the ability to speak, but a voice in his head said it would be rude not to answer, and since she had already admitted she thought of him, he nodded stiffly.
She beamed at him. "Oh good, I mean, I know it doesn't matter, because we're just friends, but its normal for teenagers to have those sort of thoughts about each other, isn't it?"
He nodded again.
She paused again. "So, what do you imagine?"
He cleared his throat. "Lily, what… I mean…" He sat up and looked her seriously in the eye. He could see a glint there and it made him angry. "You're making fun of me" he said darkly.
Lily felt awful. Maybe I have taken this too far.
"No Sev, I promise, I wouldn't do that to you. I'm sorry. I was just curious. But if you aren't comfortable talking about it…"
He looked guilty. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to snarl at you like that, I just thought maybe you were…"
"No, I promise." She felt brave again. "So, do you want to tell me? Or, would it be too…"
He looked at her and for a moment she couldn't work out his expression, then she realised it was longing. "Lily, I don't think I can…"
"That's okay," she said. He smiled apologetically and lay down beside her again.
She waited for a minute and then leant in so that her lips were touching his ear, and whispered, "would you like me to tell you what I think about?"
Severus couldn't believe what was happening. Twenty four hours ago he had been faced with the prospect of never seeing Lily again, facing a life of darkness without her light. And now she was flirting with him. It was unmistakable, she actually wanted him.
He looked at her seriously, and nodded.
She smiled. Her face was right next to his, and she tucked her body in so they were touching. She was propped up on her left arm, and she took his left hand in her right one.
"It was your hands that did it at first," she said quietly. "I like to watch you work in Potions. I love your long, thin fingers. They look very strong. You're very good with your hands."
He swallowed. It had never occurred to him that there might be something about his body that Lily liked.
"I'm not great at explaining things like this," she whispered. "Maybe it would be better if I showed you."
He swallowed again. Then he nodded again. For the second time he had lost the ability to speak, but now that he was sure she was serious, he was a lot more relaxed.
Her fingers traced along behind his left ear and down to his neck. She held him firmly at the base of his neck, not enough to restrict his breathing, but enough to pin him down and take control.
Keeping her hand there she bent down and slowly ran her tongue from his Adam's apple to his chin. He shuddered, and she smiled. Then she kissed him, gently on the mouth. He closed his eyes and kissed her back. He had always planned to marry her and spend the rest of his life with her, but it occurred to him now that he hadn't actually expected it to happen. This was real. He could have cried for the fact that she wanted him, and for the sexual tension that was torturing him, and for the pain from his erection pushing against his trousers. But of course he wouldn't.
They were now kissing passionately and her tongue was exploring his mouth. He felt that if nothing good ever happened to him again, he would always be happy knowing that he had tasted this piece of Heaven.
She straddled him and pulled his shirt up over his head, breaking the kiss for as short a time as possible. Then she started moving down his body, covering every part of him on the way down with her hands and mouth. She tugged at the top of his boxers with her teeth, while undoing the button and zip of his trousers. Then she pulled his trousers down to his ankles, leaving his underwear on. He immediately felt relieved from the pressure over his cock.
She moved up from his ankles slowly, kissing and licking up his left leg and squeezing his right leg with her left hand, digging her nails in tantalisingly. He looked down to watch her, and was struck by the fact that he was very skinny and white, and she was some kind of divine… Whatever. His brain wasn't functioning right now to come up with anything poetic, but he knew he wasn't good enough. He wondered what in the world could have possessed her to want him like this.
He stuttered, "look, if you don't want this, if you want to stop, I'd understand…"
She looked hurt. "Don't you like it?"
What the hell are you saying you stupid, stupid boy.
"No, of course, I mean yes! Its amazing. I just… Please don't stop," he finished feebly.
She smiled and got back to work. Her mouth was right at the top of his left leg, licking and prodding under his underwear. Her left hand slipped underneath and cupped his balls.
For one horrifying moment Severus thought he was going to cum when she stroked him, but thankfully he didn't. He took a deep breath and tried to steady himself. If he came now he would never, ever, forgive himself.
She pulled his boxers down. His erection sprung free, and she gasped and grinned at him. He felt mortified that he was now completely naked down to the ankles and she was fully clothed. He didn't dare stop her again though.
She leant in until her mouth was gently brushing against his penis, and looked up at him innocently. "I've never done this before, so just tell me what's good, okay?"
He nodded hastily and wondered what on earth he could possibly have done in his life to deserve this. He thought that if Lily had asked him right now not to join the Dark Lord, he would have said yes. Hell, even if she'd asked him to become an Auror, he would have said yes.
She ran her tongue up the length of his cock and he groaned.
"It's the head… If you concentrate on the end…" he found it very hard to form a coherent sentence, but she seemed to understand. She licked the end of his cock, and then took it in her mouth. He let out a high pitched whimper as she started to suck.
"Is that good?" she mumbled with it still in her mouth. He nodded fervently and focused all his concentration on trying not to cum. He never wanted this to be over, and he didn't want her to think he was a ten second wonder.
She licked all around the head of his cock and sucked it hard. "Do you want me to suck harder, or is it better soft?"
He couldn't bear it any longer. He sat up and pulled her close to him. "I'm sorry, I have to stop for a minute. I can't take it much longer. I was about to cum."
She laughed and kissed him. "That's the idea you idiot."
He smiled. "Yes I know, but I want to do the same for you. Let me… Let me touch you," he said, stroking her thigh.
She looked a little nervous, but she didn't argue. He lay her back, and then he lay down beside her. He looked into her eyes and moved his hand under her skirt until he felt her panties. They were already sopping wet. He grinned, and she blushed.
He stroked her through them for a moment, and she began to pant hard. He liked this, he liked that he now had her in his control the way she'd had him. He sat up and pulled off his boots so that he could remove his bottoms properly, and threw the lot aside.
Then he sat over her, and gently unbuttoned her blouse. She was wearing a white lace bra, and for a moment he sat back and took in the view. She was smiling up at him, clearly a little nervous because it was her first time, but not at all afraid. I love you so much, he thought.
Then leant down and kissed her breasts. He murmured "I might need a little help with the bra," and she laughed and sat up just enough to unhook it from the back herself. He removed her blouse and bra and set them carefully to the side, and turned back to her. Her chest heaved as she waited expectantly for him to touch her, and he leant down and took her left nipple in her mouth, gently playing with the other one between his fingers.
She moaned, "Ooooh, Severus!" and he smiled. He couldn't believe she was actually enjoying this. He didn't have a clue what he was doing. But nothing could have made him stop.
He moved himself so that he could take off her underwear. He watched her as he did it to make sure she was okay with it, and she seemed more than happy so he pulled them off and threw them over her blouse and bra. They were white lace and matched her bra. He had an overwhelming urge to smell them, but he thought she might find that creepy so he didn't.
He sat himself between her legs and put his right hand under her skirt. He put two fingers up against her, and she gasped in anticipation. Then he slid them inside. She was really tight even around two fingers, and she moved her hips up to meet him. He smiled and started to move his hand in and out. She was groaning and writhing with pleasure. He bit his lip and moved his thumb over her clitoris, and she let out a yelp.
"Oh, yes! Do it like that! Oh, Severus!" she was almost sobbing.
His fingers kept thrusting inside of her, and his thumb kept massaging her clit. Without changing what he was doing, he leaned forward and sucked her nipple again, a little harder this time. She was making a lot of noise, calling out his name and crying out every time he pumped her with his fingers. He secretly hoped there was no one near enough to hear, but he adored the fact that he had the power to do this to her.
"Oh Sev I'm going to cum, I'm going to… Oh, OH! OH! OOOOOH!"
She wriggled uncontrollably under him for a moment and then lay still, panting. Severus lay down beside her, wrapped her up in his arms and kissed her.
After a minute she said, "what about you?"
"It doesn't matter," he said and kissed her again.
"No, Sev, we haven't finished. You have to cum."
"If you're sure you can…"
"I don't think I could do much right now. But you can. Sev, I want you inside me."
He sat, stunned for a moment. "But Lil, we haven't got any protection…"
She thought for a moment. "There are contraceptive potions. We can go to Diagon Alley tomorrow, its Saturday. My parents will take us. We can just say we're going early to get our things for school to avoid the rush. Please Sev," she said pleadingly, stroking his penis, which was still rock hard.
He couldn't refuse her. He kissed down her torso and licked each of her nipples, and she squirmed and moaned. He wondered if it was possible for a girl to cum twice in so short a space of time. He pulled her skirt down, folded it and put it over with her other clothes, so she only had on her socks and shoes. He took in the view of her naked body, still heaving and sweaty after her last orgasm, and wriggling slightly in anticipation of what was coming next. He was deliberately taking his time because he knew he wouldn't last long once he was inside her.
He shuffled up close to her until the head of his penis was pushing up against her opening. He was amazed at the control he was able to display, and he was pleased to see she was squirming with anticipation for more.
"You promise you'll tell me if it hurts, won't you?"
"It should be fine. I've already broken my hymen with the vibrator," she blushed.
He smiled. He had no idea what a hymen was, but she seemed to think it was okay so all that was left now was to do it. He actually felt nervous. But her naked body and the look of fervour on her face was enough to drive him to do it.
He pushed his cock inside her, and immediately they both let out a loud moan. He leant down close to her body and started to move back and forward, gently but firmly thrusting his cock into her. He looked into her eyes, and she was obviously getting aroused again to the point that she might cum.
"I'm sorry if I can't go very long," he whispered.
She smiled. "I love you."
He nearly stopped, he couldn't believe what he had just heard.
"I… I love you too. I always have."
He started to feel himself come close to the edge. He groaned and started thrusting into her harder. She was moving her hips up to meet him with each lunge. They were still looking into each others' eyes, and they were moving together as if they were one.
He sat up and lifted her knees back so that he was pushing really deeply into her. She sobbed and cried, "Oh, Sev, you're so deep! Don't stop! Oh, Oh!"
He kept her left leg hooked back, but took his right hand away to rub her very sensitive clit.
"Oh, OH! Oh Sev I'm going to cum again!"
He couldn't say anything, because he was about to cum himself. He thrusted furiously into her and rubbed at her clit as they both started to groan loudly. He could feel his balls tightening up, his mind went blank, all he was aware of was her screaming as she came again and then -
"AHHH!" he came inside her. It was like nothing he had ever felt before, jerking off had absolutely nothing on this.
Afterwards he flopped down uselessly over her. He vaguely wondered how she could possibly have done anything after she had cum the first time.
After a moment he thought he might be squashing her, so he rolled over and lay beside her, holding her tight in his arms.
"I love you," he said again.
"I know. I love you." She was stroking his chest and he could feel her hot breath on his neck. He had honestly never been so happy in his whole life.
"Please don't ever leave me," he whispered.
She squeezed him tight.