I had been a vampire for 45 years

I had been a vampire for 45 years. I can block people from others powers as my power. I bounced in my seat. "Calm down Bella." Emmett laughed while speeding towards the little beach. We were going camping this weekend on a deserted beach.

"It is my first time camping since I have been a vampire." I pointed out. Edward smiled and held me close.

"Yeah well this weekend will be the best time of your life." Emmett exclaimed. He turned the radio on and a country song blared out of the speakers. "This is my favorite song!" Emmett exclaimed.

Turn it up some
Alright boys, this is her favorite song
You know that right
So, if we play it good and loud
She might get up and dance again
Ooh, she put her beer down
Here she comes
Here she comes
Left left left right left
Whoo

Husslers shootin' eightball
Throwin' darts at the wall
Feelin' damn near 10 ft. tall
Here she comes, Lord help us all
Ol' T.W.'s girlfriend done slapped him outta his chair
Poor ole boy, it ain't his fault
It's so hard not to stare
At that honky tonk badonkadonk
Keepin' perfect rhythm
Make ya wanna swing along
Got it goin' on
Like Donkey Kong
And whoo-wee
Shut my mouth, slap your grandma
There outta be a law
Get the Sheriff on the phone
Lord have mercy, how's she even get them britches on
That honky tonk badonkadonk
(Aww son)

Now Honey, you can't blame her
For what her mama gave her
It ain't right to hate her
For workin' that money-maker
Band shuts down at two
But we're hangin' out till three
We hate to see her go
But love to watch her leave
With that honky tonk badonkadonk
Keepin' perfect rhythm
Make ya wanna swing along
Got it goin' on
Like Donkey Kong
And whoo-wee
Shut my mouth, slap your grandma
There outta be a law
Get the Sheriff on the phone
Lord have mercy, how's she even get them britches on
With that honky tonk badonkadonk
(Ooh, that's what I'm talkin' bout right there, honey)

We don't care bout the drinkin'
Barely listen to the band
Our hands, they start a shakin'
When she gets the urge to dance
Drivin' everybody crazy
You think you fell in love
Boys, you better keep your distance
You can look but you can't touch
That honkey tonk badonkadonk
Keepin' perfect rhythm
Make ya wanna swing along
Got it goin' on
Like Donkey Kong
And whoo-wee
Shut my mouth, slap your grandma
There outta be a law
Get the Sheriff on the phone
Lord have mercy, how's she even get them britches on
That honky tonk badonkadonk

That honky tonk badonkadonk
Yeah, that honky tonk badonkadonk

(That's it, right there boys, that's why we do what we do
It ain't for the money, it ain't for the glory, it ain't for the free whiskey
It's for the badonkadonk)

"Shut it off!" Jasper, Alice, Edward, Rosalie, and I yelled in unison. Emmett quickly turned it to a different station or CD which ever one it was.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I gasped. Emmett turned off the radio completely. Jacob told me that that was our song. I distinctively pulled my arm over my chest. Edward gently pulled it away and kissed my hair. The pain in my chest went away and I smiled. "It's fine Emmett." I said.

"Sorry bout that Bella." Emmett said. I shrugged. I haven't seen Jacob in 45 years and I probably wouldn't ever see him again. I sighed and nuzzled into Edward's chest. Emmett stopped the jeep and hoped out. The rest of us followed. It was beautiful. We were on a small little grassy spot by a cliff. There was a beach to the side where the water connected. I smiled. Emmett, Edward, and Jasper had all the stuff set up for camp. Alice dragged Rose and I into a tent.

"Get your bikini's on!" Alice shrieked while throwing a red bikini to Rose, a blue one to me, and getting a yellow one for herself. I dressed at vampire speed. I grabbed a towel, my flip flops, and some sunglasses and walked out to a nice grassy spot. Emmett, Edward, and Jasper were changed and down in the water. Rosalie went to join them. Alice laid her towel by mine and we sat together. "So what's up Bella?" Alice asked.

"Nothing. Just watching the beautiful surroundings." I shrugged and lay on my back.

"We found this place back in 1956." Alice smiled at a memory.

"So far being a vampire has been great." I smiled.

"It has. It has also been fun having you be non breakable!" Alice giggled.

"Yes so you could put me through your torturous shopping trips." I sighed. "What is exactly going to happen this weekend?" I asked.

"Not telling!" Alice sang. I huffed. She giggled and skipped down the beach with the others. Jasper and Edward were playing Frisbee. Rosalie was floating. Alice was making a sand castle. Not your normal sight. Jasper flung the Frisbee far into the surrounding forest. I felt a large figure next to me. I looked and a wet Emmett was standing there.

"Hey squirt." Emmett smiled.

"Hey Em." I said.

"Come here, I wanna show you something." Emmett pulled me to my feet. He led me over to the edge of the cliff. I looked down. The waves of the water crashed onto the cliffs.

"What are you doing?" I asked Emmett. Emmett smirked and picked me up bridal style.

"Somebody needs to get wet!" Emmett yelled. The others minus Edward stared at us. Emmett spun around and threw me off the cliff. I screamed an ear shattering scream. Memories of the night Edward left, my empty months, my friendship with Jacob, Laurent, the wolves, my cliff diving, the trip to Italy, the dark halls of the Volturi, Jane's piercing glare, the newborns, and Victoria swarmed into my brain. I braced myself to hit the water. My ice cold body hit the water with a splash. It was like a thousands knives hitting you all over your body. I opened my eyes and panicked. I screamed underwater and water rushed into my dead lungs. I moved my arms away from the cliff and over to a small island where nobody would find me. I got on the warm sand and I was shaking. I coughed up the water I had swallowed. I shook so bad. I wrapped my arms around myself to keep the hole from coming back. I sobbed tearless sobs. I lay on my back and felt as if I could die again.