Disclaimer – Not mine, never will be, but how I wish I owned Sam and Dean.

A/N – This is my first Supernatural fic so please be gentle, constructive criticism is welcome but please no flames.

This story is set sometime during season 1, so John is still alive.

Warnings- probably some swearing, and mentions of abuse in some chapters but not too graphic. And of course the usual violence that comes along with writing a Supernatural fic.

Summary – A hunt reveals secrets that were never meant to be revealed. When secrets are discovered will the Winchesters ever be the same again? will Dean ever be able to look up to his father again? angsty!sam, angsty!dean, hurt!sam, mean!john.

SO SO SORRY for the REALLY slow update, I actually forgot about this. Shame on me. Kill me now.

Anyway, I won't keep you waiting any longer, On with the story!

I Never Knew


"Are you ready to stop attempting to escape and start playing the game Dean?" Asked the demon, giving Dean a sadistic smirk. "This is the best part!"

Chapter 8

Dean looked at the floor defeated, thoughts running through his head

'What do I do? I don't have a choice I'm going to have to go through with it or the demon will hurt Sammy even more... God I wish da... Bobby was here, he'd help us get out of this.'

The demon paced impatiently back and forth in front of Dean, a wicked smirk on his face as he read the dispair on the middle Winchesters' face, oh how he loved causing people pain, especially those damned Winchesters.

Dean closed his eyes and sighed deeply, "fine" he muttered quietly.

The demon smirked and turned so he was facing Dean "what was that?"

Dean squeezed his eyes shut and barked out "FINE! I said fine, I'll do it, can we just get this over with?"

The demon smirked and with a flick of his wrist, released Dean from the wall, keeping a close eye on him to be sure he wouldn't try to escape again.

Dean grunted in pain as he fell to the floor, the sudden release unexpected, he stood up fluidly, lifting one hand to rub at the back of his aching head, flinching slightly when his palm made contact with a sore spot. He looked around the room taking in the fallen shotgun, too far away for him to be able to get to it before the demon sent him flying. The doorway, barricaded by fallen objects, and Sam, pressed against the wall, body sagging in defeat. Dean sighed and looked at the demon, not knowing what else he could do.

The demon watched Dean, following his gaze as he looked around the room, marvelling in the defeat on his face as he realised that there was no escape. He flicked his wrist again, this time at Sam, removing his blindfold and spinning him around so that his front was to the wall.

"There you go, he's all ready for you Dean, start when you're ready." The demon drawled, casually leaning against the adjacent wall, facing Sam and Dean.

Dean gulped and took a step towards Sam while slowly removing his belt.

Sam squeezed his eyes shut as he heard Dean's approach. 'This is it.' He thought to himself. 'Dean can finally release all his anger on me, just like Dad did, I deserve it though, I shouldn't complain. I've had Dean for years now, I should be glad. Glad that it took this long for him to find out. At least I had some good years with Dean, at least he used to love me. He hates me now though, not that I blame him, I killed his mother, our mother, I hate myself.'

Dean finished removing his belt then stepped up behind Sam. "I'm so sorry Sammy; please know that I'm only doing this to stop you going through even worse pain. I never wanted to hurt you Sammy, I'm not like dad, and mum's death was not your fault kiddo, not at all. I'm so sorry for this Sammy; I hope that you'll be able to forgive me."

Sam was too caught in his own pessimistic thoughts to hear Dean's words, keeping his eyes tightly closed and bracing himself for the inflictions of Dean's belt.

The demon smirked menicingly and waved his hand, removing Sam's shirt.

"Let the games begin"

A/N - Sorry the chapter's pretty short, I PROMISE this time I WILL keep updating as regularly as possible. Please keep reading!

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